Hello everyone, I'm sorry I don't update regularly but it seems everyone is hating me right now and everyone is hating my book too nobody want to read it and how my followers are going down too that hurts but I'm just going to be patient because the journey that I have been through isn't easy. All I wanted is someone who can understand my feelings and my silence without hating me for no reason and I don't know what to do but sometimes I'm just not what you all think, I'm not good at writing because when I write I don't write for what I say is what I feel. Anyhow, thank you for those who unfollowed me because I don't care about it anymore at least I have beautiful beautiful followers that stick with me through hard times know my journey and how it's gone.

Today I have started to talk about my boyfriend this is how my story goes and I hope you guys will enjoy it because I'm not good at expressing because I have been hurt several times but nobody feels me or feel my irritation and I don't want to be that girl who feels shaky around everyone and I really want someone to encourage me in my writing since my boyfriend is acting shady with me and how he said to me: "Babe you don't know how to love " I responded with a fake smile: "How will I love you if I have been broken 23 times things will not be the same as you think because when the person gets hurt it's difficult to get back as they were before so why would go back to those time where I get you to need to accept the personality and may altitude of me changing I know it's bothering you a lot it's bothering me too and I wish I never dating those idiot boys who used to pay with my feeling after we share and after everything we did and I feel so shame because I trusted each of them and i didnt eant money or fancy items all I want Is someone who can see the good in me but don't judge me on the bad things i did before but rather than look at me in the good sight. Just tell me. ? 𝑯𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒍𝒅 𝒐𝒓 𝒍𝒆𝒕 say 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕? I believe a lot of people have been through something but that doesn't mean they are bad from inside I'm a collection of ideas but sometimes I don't know how to start it up and how to put them in collab sentence but I'm trying to so hard to show you guys the concept of the ideas and how I feel every day regretting the moment is charming those idiot boys who play with my heart.

𝐖𝐡𝐲 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐈 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧?
The reason why I choose you is that sometimes I do things to make sure if the person will stay or no but you succeed on this mission and the other reason is that you didn't stop on trying so hard to make me your girl and I believe no one did what you did because the way you treated me is different from the boys I dated and at the same time I don't want to lose you because you are the reason why am living for so please babe I didn't write those book for enjoyment when actually when is right I feel better but at the same time I just want to show my beautiful followers how being in love is something adorable you shouldn't waste unless that person is truly loving you.

Another reason is I dated you because every time you see me you smile at me like a crazy guy and I have never seen that guts before on someone is like you are so happy and excited at the same time seeing me nobody ever did that on me and I feel ashamed treating you like this without giving you any love towards you but to know one thing deep inside I love you so much more than anything world and I don't mind scream at the top of the world and tell them how much I'm so thankful on loving you...❤❤

Conversation ❤✅

Him: Babe, what am I for you?
Me: Why are you asking this?
Him: You answer the question and then I'll tell you.
Me: Stop pestering me, I'm working.
Him: Babe, please.
Me: You're the bright side of my life, you're my everything, you're the light of my heart who shows me the way to faith and happiness without you I'm lost without I'm incomplete...

𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙣𝙤 𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙖 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙚𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙄 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪.

𝒀𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒗𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒂𝒗𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅.

𝑺𝒐 𝒇𝒂𝒓, 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒘𝒆'𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒂𝒘𝒆𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝑰 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒚𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆.

𝑰𝒇 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆

𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆'𝒔 𝒏𝒐 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌, 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕, 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒈𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒉𝒖𝒈 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒄𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒖𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝑰 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅. 𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖.

You make my heart melt! 💕

You've 🔒 up my ❤ and thrown away the 🔑

Life without you is like 🍕 without

-I had not thought of violets late, / The wild, shy kind that springs beneath your feet / In wistful April days, when lovers mate / And wander through the fields in raptures sweet. / The thought of violets meant florists' shops, / And bows and pins, and perfumed papers fine; / And garish lights, and mincing little fops / And cabarets and soaps, and deadening wines. / So far from sweet real things my thoughts had strayed, / I had forgotten wide fields; and clear brown streams; / The perfect loveliness that God has made,- / Wild violets shy and Heaven-mounting dreams. / And now-unwittingly, you've made me dream / Of violets, and my soul's forgotten gleam."

-My monkey-wrench man is my sweet patootie; / the lover of my life, my youth, and age. / My heart belongs to him and him only; / the children of my flesh are his and bear his rage / Now grown to years advancing through the dozens / the honeyed kiss, the lips of wine and fire / fade blissfully into the distant years of yonder / but all my days of Happiness and wonder / are cradled in his arms and eyes entirely. / They carry us under the waters of the world / out past the star posts of a distant planet / And creeping through the seaweed of the ocean / they tangle us with ropes and yarn of memories / where we have been together, you and I...

-Love arrives / and in its train come ecstasies / old memories of pleasure / ancient histories of pain. / Yet if we are bold, / love strikes away the chains of fear / from our souls. / We are weaned from our timidity / In the flush of love's light / we dare be brave / And suddenly we see / that love costs all we are / and will ever be. / Yet it is only love / which sets us free."

𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆

-"You belong so deep within my heart. ...

- You are the inspiration behind all that I do and the source of all that is good in my life, my heart."

-You are my treasure, my most beloved, you hold a place so dear here in my heart."

-"You are a blessing to me. ...

-Together with you is my favorite place to be.

-You make my heart beat out of my chest.

-. " I would travel thousands of miles just to be with you."

-You're the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last thing I think about before I fall asleep."

-I would do anything to put a smile on your face.

-You make my heart do flips just by thinking of you.

-Every day we're together is another day I'm living out my dreams.

I wrote this poem for you babe ❤️✨

You give me hope
And help me to cope
When life pulls me down
You bring me around

You teach me to care
And help me to share
You make me honest
With kindness the best

From you, I learned to love
With grace from above
It's for you I live
And I want to give

You are the reason
That fills each season
When I hear love I think of you
You are my world and best friend too

I love you because you are so kind, thoughtful, and caring
I love you because you are so pleasant, lovely, and sharing

You made me the man I am
Thank you❤️✨

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