Reason #5: You're the only person I'll ever return to 

"Ugh. Shit."

Kaoru took a step back, stumbled even as he grabbed the shirt covering his stomach. Red color spreading all over the white fabric. His face was contorted in pain, hissing past clenched teeth as he spouted more curses.

"Fuck!" 

Kaoru fell down on his knees, the gun sliding out of his grip. I stood there in silence, stunned at what happened. Trying to put the pieces together, I lowered my gaze to my hands. They felt wet and sticky. 

Disgusting.

Unknowingly, I had brought my hand on my chest, the blade completely forgotten. My eyes widened in disbelief. When did I thrust the blade into him? When did his blood start gushing out? 

Dumbfounded. That's what I was. 

It must have been my body acting in defense mode. It must have been or I wouldn't have been so surprised?

I swallowed a lump in my throat before lunging myself at Kaoru. Adrenaline coursed through my body when I landed on top of him, Kaoru squirming underneath me as he tried to reach for the gun at his side. I immediately kicked the contraption before raising the blade ready to plunge into his beating heart.

God. It was terrifying. The fear. The killing intent. It was too much and I had succumbed to it.

"You son of a bitch! I'll kill you! I'll kill you for threatening my family! For threatening my children! For trying to hurt Rei! For making me go through hell in just a few hours! I'm going to kill you!"

The blade rushed down, it would have punctured his heart if he hadn't caught my hand. He tried to overpower me, take the blade from me but I wasn't going to give in. I supported the blade with my other free hand, pushing it down as I slammed my bottom on his wounded torso.

"Fuck!" He hissed, his strength dwindling. I took the opportunity to push the blade further down, the tip cutting his skin as his blood seeped out. 

My body quivered at the sight, the blood coming from his chest. His other wound, the one on his lower left abdomen, was still spilling blood and it had reached my clothers. I grimaced, the smell invading my nose with a metallic arome.

"Just die already! Why won't you just die?!" I yelled, pushing the blade down with all the strength I could muster. He must have numbed to the pain because he immediately threw me to the side. My back hitting the old coffee table that was in the room, the knife sliding out of my grip just a few steps away.

"I won't die. Never! Not until I'm sure you're dead!" Kaoru's eyes blazed, his teeth clenching as he stood up. Labored breaths escaped my lips as he took quick steps, my body tensing from the pain and panic.

He was still moving. Even with a deep wound, his blood drenching his clothes. One sentence brought a frown to my face, every emotion I felt betrayed by the frown.

Is this guy human?

He reached down, grabbed my by the shoulder and hauled me to the couch. Pinning his body against mine, I flinched when I felt his hands grab my wrists and holding them with a deathly grip. His face void of emotion. No pain, no anything.

"Jin, when did you get that? Huh?!" He tilted his head, gesturing to the bloody knife that laid near the coffee table. My face hardened with anger, teeth gritting as I tried to shake him off.

"Why'd you think I willingly sucked you off?! Don't tell me you believed all that crap I spewed out?!" 

I saw his brows furrowed in anger, his eyes burning with rage as he lifted his free hand. My body readied itself against him, preparing to receive a painful strike.

Slap!

"Ah!" My cheek stung with pain, reddening. I tasted blood inside my mouth, metallic and distasteful. My head snapped back before another painful slap landed on my face. I could feel the tears in my eyes threatening to spill.

But I wasn't going to grant him with my pain. He didn't need anymore leverage over me.

"I didn't want to hurt you, baby. But you had to be taught a lesson." 

His continuous slapping made it hurt to talk, the pain stinging my cheeks. It hurt. It seriously hurt. I was tempted to just give in, just surrender and wait like a good damsel in distress. 

However, I was a man. I may have given birth but it didn't rip the fact that I was male in every sense of the word. And I wasn't going to settle for anything less.

Gritting my teeth, I held in the the grunts and groans of pain. Willing myself to produce no sound. I kept telling myself not to succumb, that I had someone out there that needed me.

"Now, behave. I don't want to hurt you again, alright?" I opened my eyes that I hadn't noticed were shut tight. My sight blurry as I tried to focus on him. My cheeks were numb but it still had that stinging pain. I knew that they'd be purple once this was all over.

"Baby, it's all your fault. You know that, right?" He lowered his head, his teeth still clenched tightly because of his open wound. 

Kaoru lowered his disgusting face, our noses almost touching at the distance. I flinched when he rubbed my cheek with the same hand he used to hit me. Huffs of air pushing past my lips as he raised my head before pecking me. 

"Sorry, this won't happen again. I promise so long as you don't try anything else." Pulling back, he covered his open wound.

I quickly slammed my forehead on his nose, breaking it with the force it had. 

"Shit!" 

He recoiled, releasing my hands to cover his bloody nose. I raised my fist and punched him in the gut, aiming for his bloody slash.

"Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!" 

I slammed him off the couch, scrambling to get on my feet and reach for the knife. The desperate need to finish off his miserable life egged me further. Pushing me to my feet before my face slammed the ground when I felt something grab me.

"Kaoru!"

He held tightly, even when I started kicking his head in a desperate attempt to break myself free. My heart going into overdrive as I fought valiantly.

There was no Rei. No Haru. No police. Just me. Just me and him. And I was hell-bent on finishing this once and for all. No more threatening. No more locked doors of the past.

No more Kaoru!

"Die!" With one final strong kick, he let me go. I heard him yell in pain and I was so sure that it was from his broken nose.

Strings curses circled the room, cries of pain lacing them as well. I limped my way to the knife, reaching for it when I saw the gun just a few inches from my fingers. Grabbing the cold gun, I quickly laid on my back as I aimed it at Kaoru who was still clutching his nose.

"Kaoru!" He looked up at me, tears staining his unfamiliar face. His eyes widened when he saw the barrel aimed at him, his pain momentarily forgotten as he tried to get away from me.

"Next time, make sure you never leave Hell!" I pulled the trigger, watching Kaoru's eyes losing its life. A good portion of his head blown off and splattered behind him.

I breathed out, my body shaking from the fact I had just killed Kaoru. It was over.

It's finally...

Over.