Dear Diary

I have been living with Calvin for awhile. We've talked more and more which has caused us to get to know each other better. One day, while we strolled through the garden, Calvin got down on his knee and asked me to marry him! A wealthy, handsome, kind, Christian man had asked me to marry him? Me, who had nothing?

Calvin then told me that it was my fire, kindness and generosity that made him fall in love with me. When he said "fire," he meant zeal and feistiness. I suppose I demonstrated that in the debates we had with each other.

He also eventually told me that Lily had been his girlfriend's name and that I had reminded him of her.

"But you're still very different," he said, smiling at me hopefully. "You don't...put yourself into unnecessary danger..."

He trailed off as he seemed to recall a certain memory. I didn't dare to ask.

Of course, I said yes to his eager proposal. I had known him for so long now, I had discovered how much virtue, love, and wisdom was in this man. His home made me feel safe. He also has two lovely old cooks who prepare suppers just like Master's feasts. I am awfully glad that I'm done eating cold porridge. The cooks also remind me of Angela and Bernadette. For once, I was truly starting to feel at home. I couldn't wait to get married.

As curiosity nagged at me, I started to investigate Frederick's mysterious study. Scanning the bookshelf, I noticed an interesting book, which to some people might have seemed boring. But ever since Calvin had taught me to read, I thought any book was enjoyable to read. Not everyone got the privilege to learn how to read such exciting books. And yet I heard that those who could read, didn't do so as much they should. Who would waste such a privilege? I thought.

I removed the dark green book from its shelf, and was bewildered to find a button on the back of the bookshelf, where the book had been. I eagerly pushed it and the bookshelf opened up to reveal a secret room. I cautiously stepped in, and saw papers and books everywhere! I read one, discovering it was a letter insulting Southerners AND Northerners. It said that the people of the South should all be killed, while it also said the North isn't doing enough to help abolitionists get rid of slavery. It said that Frederick Douglas was working too hard, and Northerners should get up and start working or else! What a surprise to me! And that was only one of the papers! I thought after that if I should really marry Calvin. Which side was he on?