Dear Lauren,

I wish you could have seen this. Maybe you would have still been alive if you did.

I did something.

And it feels embarrassing.

It feels like I'm doing something.

It feels worrying.

It feels like I'm going to get in trouble.

It feels like people are going to laugh at me.

It feels like they won't care.

It feels like I'm helping people.

I'm sending a message out to everyone in my school and telling them to email me their stories where adults could do better. So far, I've gotten 4 back.

One says that they love our school and that the adults are doing a great job! I love how they see it that way. I hope they see it that way for the rest of the time they're there.

Another told me of how much they hate their band teacher and how they called the person who emailed me in front of the entire class, over 30 people. That is the kind of thing that I made this for. If the band teacher hears this again, maybe he won't be so quick to tell a person they're terrible. This could save lots of students the shame and embarrassment.

The third one is from me. I talked about how the APs scream in my ears, how I don't want my brother to experience the kind of frustration and anger towards the school that I do, and how the orchestra teacher screamed at me for forging my mom's signature which I still suffer trama from.

The fourth and latest one I've received is from a friend of mine who left the school last year. She said "it's school ur gonna live bud." Ironically, that's probably the most encouraging email I've ever received.

Lauren, am I foolish for thinking this will work?

I hope it does and it'll make a difference. Future generations shouldn't have to go through the horror we are. I only have the rest of the year to change the school. I hope I succeed.

And even if I get locked up with the key thrown away for this, I hope I sparked the fire that will burn down the things that make it a worse place that what it should be.

Our school is hosting a podcast competition. If I turn all of this into one and get it posted on the district's official website, I have no doubt that it will make a difference.