"Zindagi haan thode thode faasle the
Kuch tere much mere kyun darmiyaan
Zindagi haan,thi jo shikaayato ko
kuch tune, much maine suljha liya"

"Zindagi haan those those faasle the
Kuch tere much mere kyun darmiyaan
Zindagi haan,thi jo shikaayato ko
kuch tune, much maine suljha liya"

Tere isharon pe main chalta raha
Mere isharon pe tu bhi chal kabhi (x2)

Beh chala, beh chala
Musaafir kahan beh chala
(Beh chala, beh chala)
Beh chala, beh chala
Musaafir kahan beh chala
(Beh chala, beh chala)

Aadhe aadhe yahin
Aadhe aur kahin

Zindagi haan toote toote tinko ko
Chunn le hum, bunn le hum ik ashiyaan
Zindagi haan chhote chhote par leke
Chal dekhein jaayein kahaan aasmaan

Qatra qatra main tujhe chunta raha
Qatra qatra phir tu bhi bikhar gayi
Qatra qatra main tujhe chunta raha
Qatra qatra tu bhi bikhar gayi

Beh chala, beh chala
Musaafir kahan beh chala
(Beh chala, beh chala)
Beh chala, beh chala
Musaafir kahan beh chala
(Beh chala, beh chala)

Wo...

Hain hum miley sau sau dafa
Phir bhi kyun tu miley ajnabi ki tarah
Hai manzilein sab kahin yahaan
Phir bhi raasto me raaste ulajh rahe yaha

Kitna bhi main chalun teri ore
Hoti kam hi nahi kyun kabhi dooriyan

Tere isharon pe main chalta raha
Mere isharon pe tu bhi chal kabhi (x2)

Beh chala, beh chala
Musafir kahan beh chala
(Beh chala, beh chala)
Beh chala, beh chala
Musafir kahan beh chala
(Beh chala, beh chala)

Aadhe aadhe yahin
Aadhe aur kahin
Aadhe aadhe yahin
Aadhe aur kahin

Zindagi haan...

The light monsoon winds swifted past, ruffling Aagneya's hair and drop fell "pttr" on her hand. The monsoons had arrived and after heavy shower the air was murky with moisture and fog. The smell of Ratrani, Parijat and various other flowers from the garden below wafted in and mixed along with her gentle breaths.

She closed her eyes and a small but tired smile lingered on face. Yes, Aagneya was finally smiling. Albeit it was small one that didn't come out of joy but fatigue,it still counted. It had been three weeks to that cataclysmic night and life has been anything but easy. From constant breakdowns to suffocating fear and insecurity, Aagneya had experienced it all.

Swinging on the swing and listening to the song 'Beh Chaala', she realised how apt it was for her current scenario. She didn't know how that song came into her playlist but it was on loop.
The song was just how things were going in her life.
Her mind went back to the event that had taken place in the morning and yet again a part of her fell down the abyss.

Flashback
24/6/20,Kalpataru Highscape
10:00 am.

"Surprise"!!

My best friends, now my support pillars engulfed me in a hug whilst screaming their lungs out. The neighbours cats also got scared because of their screaming.
I hugged them back tightly and after eons we had such a close hug. We called them the " tuffy hugs" as it signified that we will stand by each other together and always. I am always grateful to have them as my friends and my eyes filled upon themselves.

"Idiot ro mat.", Advitha said.
(Don't cry idiot)

" Haan pagal. Hum tujhe chod ke kahi jaa nahi rahe",Diya added
(We are not going anywhere, leaving you here alone)

I immediately wiped my tears as I didn't want to spoil the moment. Advitha's family was against her meeting me because they thought that my misfortune will rub of on her. She didn't come down here for the previous  whole week. Diya kept visiting me as much as possible.
I even went to her house for a movie night after a lot of pressure from everyone around me. The elevator ride and shadows of people were my worst nightmare. Initially even I felt that I was a bad omen but then my grandmom engulfed me in one her warm,soft hugs and put my worries partially at rest.

Today seeing her after so many days, bought a smile on my face. Only I know how much I missed these meets of ours. It had been raining for the past few days and now finally the sun was out.
I hadn't stepped down after I came home. But for some reason, I felt as if the nature was calling me to step out and embrace her.

I was scared as to what would happen if I stepped out. My head started hurting and my breathing became laboured thinking about that night. I was trying to calm myself but counting backwards when I heard Diya laughing. The laughter for some reason was like the sound of a softly gushing waterfall. I thought about my friends who had come to visit me. I fought the terror for them, but only for now.
♣
Huddled in between both of them we went down to the park.
I sat on the grass beside them, letting the sun engulf me in its warmth. There was something about the sun on a cold morning that filled the vacuity inside me.
It made me feel at peace. Advi and Diya's laughter rang around and we kept running here and there just like old times.
We sat down again tired of running and bantering.

A little boy came running towards us and looked at me for sometime before hugging me. I was startled and but soon hugged him back. The kid had some aura to him as if he was sent so that my fears can rest. His caramel eyes held so much of innocence and warmth as if he knew what I was going through.
"Didi you look like an angel. An angle who fights bad people", the boy said touching the knife scars on my arms that we're healing.
What he didn't know was that I cannot fight anyone. I am weak.

Just then a lady, probably his mother along with two other ladies came there. Seeing me hugging her son she screeched and pulled him away from me.
"How dare you hug my son?"
"We are sorry aunty. We didn't mean any harm", Diya replied for us.

"You don't apologise girl. Ask this girl here to apologise", that boys mother replied again.

" Yes. This girl doesn't have any shame. God knows what she was planning to do to my grandson ",the boys grandmother started.

" I didn't mean any harm but I'm sorry aunty",I replied.

"Eek!! Don't talk to me you impure girl. Don't you have any shame?" Running around here instead of sitting at home. I told the secretary to ask you guys to leave but he refused to do that".

"Wha.. What do you mean??"

"You go around dressing up in short clothes,hanging around late night,inviting men and then complain and cry if something goes wrong. You are a defiled girl who is spoiling the environment here also. Girls and ladies like you should be thrown away from civilization into some remote part. Asking men to come have s*x with you and then blaming those innocent males."

"Your parents are also very great to have bought filth like you back home. Had it been our daughter we would have left her there!"

"You both girls also don't make yourself impure by hanging around with this.. this, god! I don't want to take her name also!. She will surely put you also in danger.

Along with an erratically beating heart and clouded my mind I ran home. I didn't see who I dashed into or which way I was going, my goal was run away and hide in my room again.
I regret going out. The world hates me!.

Present

Once I came home,I had another panic attack.
I collapsed in the hall and started screaming. I Threw the glass bowl on the table on to the ground when I saw my dad come closer to me. I cried and screamed my heart out until my eyes closed on their own accord and I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I ate a bowl of daal-chawal and took my medicines and sat in the balcony looking at the rain.
After everyone had dinner, I told my parents I wanted to go to the therapist. They were shocked that I asked that.

I was doing it because I wanted to make the little boys words come true. Maybe I can't become an angel but I will fight the demons inside.
♣♣♣

Wohoo. First chapter of 2021.
Happy New Year to all of you. Hope you liked the chapter.
The song at the beginning is from the movie Uri:the surgical strike. I felt it was the best song to describe Aagneya's life right now.
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Aagneya's swing:

Song:

https://youtu.be/4ccIbLTFjz4

Credits of the song and image go to their original owners

Till the next update:

Date:2/1/21
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