It's just that people have been texting me that I'm a psychopath and that the world would be a better place without me and their sending pictures of nooses saying here I got you a present now use it and their sending pictures of graves saying i already have a hole ready for ya and their making fun of me cause of my past saying o might turn out just like my dad and start abusing people and their saying that nobody cares if I die they said they have dreams that I'm died that I die they tell me ways to kill myself sending me pictures of a blade and knives saying you'll need these and I'm just like why and they so oh that's right we made her mad now she gonna go cry in the hole she'll die in and the messages are keeping me up at night I just want all my problems to go away but they won't I want to have a normal life not  being known as the girl who tries to kill herself or the girl that thought she had a normal life I don't want my life to turn out like it is going I have a message which got to me the worst saying if you keep crying  people will start to dig holes bigger the more you cry the bigger the hole gets the less time you have if you keep crying you won't get to say your goodbyes to the people that "dont" care for you now I wonder why people don't like you your to much of a crybaby and you want attention so you harm yourself getting people to notice you but you don't realise that people will notice you as the girl you cries a lot the girl who cuts herself to make her life better but we all know your just a helpless useless pitiful bitch you needs help with your shitty life and making the people around you miserable saying shit like u wanna kill myself damn woman just take fucking responsibly and deal with it nobody is perfect especially you cause you have one of the most shittiest lives ever in the fucking world of emos you just wanna be cool but all your doing is killing your friendship. That's exactly what they said I'm sorry f I haven't told you this But it just pisses me off that I can't be better and I'm just a bitch how can't do shit with their lives so I'm going to try and work this out if I can't I'll stop telling everyone my problems cause they'll think I'm a phycho and I don't want that so at least follow my advise don't kill yourself you have beautiful lives more precious than mine so keep living

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=346buRwtrOU

This is one of the songs that's help me through all this madness