Mahir's POV

I came home from office.

. For the whole day I kept myself busy for just one reason so that I don't remember her but it was not possible.

  It was not at all possible and I'm afraid it will never be possible. Ofcourse how can you even forget the one whom you love.

In every situation I just remembered her. What Surbhi must be saying if she was here.

Surbhi even don't know that I'm here. I didn't tell her. I wanted to shout loud and tell her what I feel for her but I couldn't. 

First of all these are my feelings. She doesn't feel the same for me. For her I'm her just good friend. I know if anyone will talk with her for some days they'll become her friends and why not. 

Afterall who'll not want such a sweet friend in their lives.  I,  the one who did not want anyone in their life made her my friend... and see she's no more a friend to me. She became much..much more than that for me. But yeah I'm not worth it.. right!!

I'm a person who can't go hand in hand with any one... I'm a person who'll make lives of people hell... And yeah how can I forget I can never be a friend..

Fuck!!!

Why can't I come out of this all.  Why can't I just go back to India.. hug her tightly and say how much I missed her and How much I love her....

It's been two days I'm in London. Forty six hours... 2280 minutes...and every minute I was thinking of just one person.
I used to say there's nothing like love in this world.

She proved me wrong.

Love exists but not in my fate.

"Sir.your dinner is ready" said my cook.

 I nodded and went downstairs for dinner.

I ate the my dinner and then came back to my room. 

Opening my phone I did what I was doing since two days.. I opened the gallery and her photo.

Her single photo that Anand sent me. Her smiling face.....Next was the screenshot of a poem that she sent me. I started reading it again..

It's title was-

     "Ankho mai rakh lo"
"Mai ehsaas hu ek pyaara..
Mujhe Zara mahsoos kar lo!
Mai dastaan hu tumhari zindagi ki...
Mujhe yu shabdo mai likh do!!
Mai shayar ki shayari si hu...
Mujhe gazalo mai likh do !
Mai dil ki dor hu tumhari ..
Mujhe khud se jod ke rakhlo !!
Yakinan sath nhi hu har vakt tumhare...
Bas apne dil mai ghar kar lo !
Mai nasha hu tumhari chahat ka...
Bas yu hi mujhe aankho mai rakh lo !!

Today  I  felt the words.

Am I doing it right??  Am I doing good by doing this?? Will I ever be able to heal myself.?? Will I ever be loved?? 

And on top of all these will I ever be able to love??

SURBHI'S POV

I woke up at 8 in the morning & was feeling a bit good after talking to di and jiju.

I now have accepted that Mahir will not reply back...But there's always a hope for good right. I too had that.

I wanted him to reply me back but Again..Not seeing the messages.. and no replies.

 What a great morning once again Surbhi !!

I've always made people smile God..then why I can't live in happiness.

"Surbhi. Not again okay. You are in London. You'll not be sad. Come on get up and enjoy the city" said di coming with chai

"You always know what can do my mood great" I said taking the cup of chai from her

"Of course I know. Chai works as a moral booster for you" di chuckled 

"What di. Moral booster. Really" I smiled

"Do you have a good word to define more good. How chai works for you" asked di dramtically

"Umm...chai for we works as mood booster...not moral booster idiot" I laughed

"Yeah. That's exactly what I wanted " di  smiled 

That's when realized that I've... I've laughed after 3-4 days.

"I'm going on a London tour" I announced

I am not going to spoil her mood due to me!!!

"Yeah. That's like my baby sis" chirped di.

I kept the cup of tea aside and hugged di tightly

"I love you Neeti di" I said

"I love you more. " she replied hugging me back.

"Okay lemme concentrate on my tea" I told 

"Fine. Get ready and come downstairs. we're waiting for breakfast" said di

"Commiing" I replied. 

Be happy for them Surbhi!! They want to see you happy!!

After drinking my chai I went in bathroom and came out after bathing.

I wore my casual knee length sun dress, Applied liner...cream and since my hair were wet I dried them with hair dryer and then left them open.

After getting ready I went downstairs.

I've decided that at least I'll not be sad in front of di. She'll be tensed if I dp so and this is not good for her health so I'll try to be happy...Or I must actually say pretend to be happy.

"Di how am I looking" I asked

"Beautiful" jiju smirked

"She asked me.Not you" said di frowning and I laughed.

"So what.You say or me..No difference " jiju grinned 

"True" I said and we both laughed joined by di!

"Surbhi. Come grab your seat and have breakfast" di told and I did the same.

"Okay so where you've decided to go today" asked jiju

"I'll visit only three places today and then come home." I said

"Okay. So which three" asked di

"Emm.. firstly I'll go to London's eye.  Then Kew Gardens and then St. Paul's Cathedral " I told

"Cathedral. Why..want to make any wish" jiju asked lifting one of his eyebrow.

"Naah. Actually one of the most famous church in UK. That's why wanted to see. We didn't visit cathedral when last time we came here! I was small and yeah I don't remember much " I told

"Ohh. Okay. So your cab is booked. You are free to enjoy " Jiju said

"Thankyou jiju " I replied

"You'll leave after an hour and be back before 9 sharp Okay" di told

"Yes di. I'll be back even before that" I replied

At 10 am Cab came. I took my sling bag..credit card...cash..shades.. passport if needed anywhere and after saying bye to di I went into the cab.

"Take care" said di

"Yeah. You too. See you soon." I mumbled and went.

Soon I was on London roads. Sun was  shining bright in the sky. It seemed as if a new ray of hope was coming from sun.

I grabbed my phone any saw my gallery. My gallery had a few photos of...
Mahir.

Yeah I stalked him. I saved some of his pictures from social sites.

I don't know when a tear escaped my eye.

Where are you Mahir!!

I wiped the tears. I know di will want to see the photos so I've stopped myself from crying and all. She'll be sad if she'll see my teary face.

"Mam. We're here." Said the cab driver.

"Okay.  Thankyou. How much time it will take here" I asked

"1-2 hours" he said

"Okay. It's 11. Pick me up from here at 1." I told

"Okay mam" he replied and went away.

Next hours went away seeing the London's eye.

I talked with Anjali and Siddarth. They knew I'm here but they didn't know anything else. I didn't want them to worry. Anjali was busy in studying so I didn't want to disturb her and Siddarth too was busy with his dream project so I'll not tell him anything. He'll be more tensed.  I called them and talked to them..and tried to sound happy..

Soon I saw both the places. Now last place was St.Paul's Cathedral.  I was at its gate.

It is said that what we pray here come true and today coming here had my own reasons.

Yeah jiju was right. I wanted to pray. Pray for him...Mahir.

I went inside the church.  There was no one in the church. I went inside.
I believe whatever your religion is. God is same. Your requests and wishes goes there up only.
Bishop too was not present at that time.

I went at the front. In front of God !!!

"I don't know what should I say. You know everything. So why don't you do anything. Where is he ? I want to see him. I want to hear him say my name. That idiot just messaged me and said I'm going. This world is so big out of India. He didn't even tell me where he is going. I miss him God. I miss him very much. You listen to everyone na. Just listen to me once. Please knock some sense in him and make him reply me. I'm hell worried God. I don't even know whether he's fine or not. I just pray he's all good and happy. Don't let him be sad god. Give him his happiness. Give him his smile. Give him his life. Give him his sunshine.You are almighty & you can do anything. Please, please do this for me..please.."  I prayed to God folding my hands.

Till now I was crying badly and I sat down on the bench crying.

"Child. God listen to everyone. God fulfill everyone's wish. He'll fulfill your wishes too. No one goes empty hand from here. Just smile and spread smile my child " said bishop who I think heard me.

"My smile is related to one person's smile. If he'll smile then I'll definitely smile." I replied

"May your wish come true child and may you get to see the person who makes you smile as soon as possible " bishop blessed 

"But I don't even know where he is. When I'll go to my country then may be I'll meet him" I told

"God has decided best for you. Just believe in your fate" Blessed bishop and went away.

I believe in you God, that's why I came here.

You know I love him. I'm ready if I don't get his love back, I'm fine with it..but I can't loose him..I just hope he is fine and happy.

Make everything good God.

I said and wiped my tears.

I stood up from the bench and as soon as I was about to walk I collided with a hard chest.

I was about to fall on the ground and screamed loud as I knew I'll fall down. As a reflex , my eyes shut tight...But I was engulfed between two hands. Two hands that I know.

The same warmth...
the same touch...
the same feel...
The same protectiveness.
The same comfort zone.

 No it is a dream !!!!! I'm dreaming all this.

 But No !!!!

This wasn't any dream. I opened my eyes to know if I was really dreaming of that person... or.....Or this is all true.

I dared to open my eyes..when my eyes met with the same pair of dark brown orbs.

 Everything froze....everything became still.

I  really tried not to cry but my eyes betrayed me.

"Mah... Maah... Maahir " I whispered stammering

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