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Eren X Suicidal!Reader...

Reader-chan please read with caution, I don't want you to tigger any hidden emotions while reading this one-shot. And please don't forget, that even if the world seems to hate you, remember you have friends and family to support you, they might be a shit sometimes but they love you. If no one is really there for you, you have yourself... Loving yourself goes a long way... Not in a narcissitic way though.

I know how it feels like because I almost killed myself, but I was stupid and silly and a real brat shit because I did that. It all take confidence if you wanna carry on without killing yourself...

Okay that's enough, Enjoi Reader-chan!

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You closed your eyes and inhaled the air here in the cliff, it smells so fresh, hiding the rotteness of the world. The world that is full of evil and hell.

You sighed as you look down the cliff, steep and the ground was so far below.

This is it, you thought. Closing your eyes once again as memories flashed your head.

Your parents died, and you had no one. All alone in this world. Anyways, your parents, more like your mother, hated you. She wished she just got a son rather than you. After a few years, she believes you can't do anything because you a weak. Your father loved you, but wasn't there. He was a Survey Corp but died in one of the expiditions.

After that, you were all alone in this cold dark world, running away from possible fights and bullies.

I'm weak, unloved...

After the fall of Shiganshina, you lived with your aunt and her many children, four older and one baby. Your aunt accepted you to a warm home, but your cousins didn't. They hated the fact you had to squeeze in with them, when they themselves can't do anything and have low money. For that, even how many times your aunt scold them, they hurt you.

Useless, a burden...

You had no friends, why would they? Your cousins with many friends told them about you, and with their evil tounge doing it's work bad mouthing you. "An orphan, but I've heard her parents didn't want her." "She doesn't like anybody so I don't like her, she's weird." "She's so ugly I think her parents are happy they died," these were just some of what they would say.

A nobody, and a wierdo...

You chose to train for the military, wanting to be a Survey Corp like your father who you knew loved you, to follow and finish his footsteps. You've managed. But it was too hard, or was it because you are too weak? Are you just gonna be useless and garbage? Will you run when a titan comes like a coward?

You weren't sure to answer those questions, but it hurt you.

Hurt you so bad that here you are know, seconds before you'd take your own life. No one will care if you did die, you'll just be there in the forest, no one will look for you. Why would they? Your unloved, a garbage, useless, ugly, a nobody, a burden and most of all weak.

No one would... But that what's you thought.

You opened your eyes to see the forest below as stepped closer and closer to the edge ready to jump, tears streaming down your eyes making your eyes red. But you stopped, why did you stop?

Were you waiting for something? Did your body disagree with you jumping and killing yourself? What was it?!

You clenched your teeth and hands, tears still streaming down, Why in the world am I stopping?! I don't deserve this life! I really don't deserve to live! I'm useless and weak why would anyone care for me?! No one is coming! No one! But why am I not moving?! You somehow manage to move a bit, one more step was your death, you closed you eyes and opened your arms wide, ready to fall, until...

"(Y/N)!!! STOP!!!" Your eyes opened and you looked back just to see yourself being dragged away from the cliff that was to give you the stop of your useless life.

The person who stopped you, was the one and only Eren Jeager, he was one of your friends... But you always push him away even if you liked his comfort.

You were brought to a protective hug, you cried on his chest and thrashed around to let go of his grip, "LET ME GO!!! LET ME DO THIS!!" you shouted and tried to brake free, but Eren hugged you tighter, you looked up to see him... crying?

"(Y/N) DON'T DO THAT!!! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?! I THOUGHT I LOST YOU!" He told you and you scoffed, "Why would YOU care?! Just let me be! I don't deserve this life and I'm just a nobody!" You shouted to him, voice cracking when you said nobody.

"A nobody?! (Y/n) do I have to treat your eyes or give you glasses?! Who told you you are a nobody?! Armin, Mikasa, Horseface, Marco, me, and everyone is your friend and you call yourself a nobody?!" Eren told you and you looked down, "You are friendly and sweet and beautiful that I didn't thought you'd ever do something like this!" You closed your eyes, and cried, it felt good. Your heart lost it's weight, you, finally, found someone who is nice in this dark world.

"Why would anyone not like you?! Anyone who doesn't like you are BLIND. Blinder than you!" Eren continued hugging you and you just cried.

"T-thank y-you," you muttered, nuzzling deep his chest and grabbing his shirt.

"B-but," you looked up to him, "Why did you care? How do you know that I'm beautiful? Or sweet? Or kind?" Your eyes demanded answers and Eren blushed, and looked away, Did I just said that? Eren thought, Well, it's now or never, he thought while inhaling deep.

"I know that... Because, I love you, at first you are really sweet and kind, also friendly and open. Every night I would think about you... I couldn't stop it... So when I saw you there by the edge of the cliff I thought I might lose you without telling you this, I didn't want to," Eren told you and your eyes widened... You cried, finally after many years, you cried because you are happy.

"I-I never thought you'd like someone like me, Eren. I-I," you hiccupped, "I'm so happy, I've loved you but I pushed it away because I thought you'd never want a girl like me."

Eren smiled and wiped away your tears, "I'm happy you'd realize how loved you are, (Y/n). I'm also happy because you are happy."

You hugged him and rested you head on his shoulder, and he hugged back, "But seriously (Y/n) don't do that ever again," he said. You laughed, "Don't worry, I won't. Ever again."

Yes, from a minute you thought you were the unluckiest and ugly and useless person in the world to a loved, happy, useful person.

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Well, there she goes.

Hope u enjoied, I make emotional one-shot pretty good. I mean, not like other kinds. I wrote this very well in my opinion.

Maybe because I was/am also an emotional depressed nobody... Heh, more like GARBAGE.

Youch, that hurt.

Oh welp! Hope you didn't ponder about life and question your own life after this one-shot because the first thing I DON'T want is a hurt sad reader-chan.

You are AMAZING in your own way! Own that!

Ta-ta, my dear Vonnies!

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