(Y/N)'s POV

My life... is pure hell. Most people I knew, which is band girls, are really cold to me. I'm a worker of CiRCLE Live House ever since I was 15 years old. I got treated harshly and kept getting yelled by no matter how hard I tried to make people happy.

It's another day of me suffering here at CiRCLE, and I just finished cleaning the studio. I thought that I could make Marina-san, my employer, proud for my dedication, but I was wrong.

Marina: (Y/N), how many times did I told you...

She splashed the murky water that I used for cleaning at me as I got soaked too much while staring coldly.

Marina: ... I want this floor to be wiped until it's shiny, right?

(Y/N): I-I'm sorry, Marina-san.

Marina: Save it. I'll cut your payment this month.

(Y/N): B-But-

Marina: No buts!! I'm your employer, and you should obey me! Do you understand?!

I got surprised when she yelled at my ears like a Karen. So, I only obeyed her and accept my payment to be cut this month.

The reason why I work at CiRCLE is not only because of the payment, it's because of how much I love the band girls. From seeing them on the stage and keeping up with their outside band life, I thought that they're friendly to everyone and willing to see their fans supporting them.

But, I was wrong.

The moment I start working here, most of the band girls went cold and harsh against me.

After a while of cleaning, I walk pass through the two vocalists who are rivals against each other. Yukina Minato, the vocalists of Roselia and Ran Mitake, the vocalists of Afterglow. They saw me and Yukina spoke up.

Yukina: It's you again, useless employee.

(Y/N): What can I help?

Ran: We don't want any help from you.

Yukina: You don't deserve to be here.

Ran: Minato-san's right. I wonder how come Marina-san didn't fire you? This place is only for band girls, not some guy like you who spend their hard work money on useless things like gacha game.

I kept myself silent because I couldn't say anything to not start a commotion with them. I don't play gacha games at all because I want to improve my life instead of grinding non-existent currency in video games. I want to improve my life as well, just like the band girls.

Yukina: Why aren't you saying anything?

(Y/N): I got works to do. See you.

Ran: Not so fast!

She grabbed my hand and slammed me to the ground. Yukina stomped on my face until my mouth and nose begin to bleed.

Yukina: That should teach you a lesson for not interacting with us, you loser. Let's go, Mitake-san.

Ran: I agree.

Both of Yukina and Ran walk away from me arrogantly. I only looked at them slowly disappearing from my sight.

(Y/N): What did I do to deserve this? I just wanted to make some friends.

I mumble to myself as I get up and continue doing my work.

Timeskip...

(Y/N)'s Apartment

Friday, Night

I was in my room, not patching up my body since I want to end my life.

(Y/N): Why is everyone so harsh to me?

Flashback...

CiRCLE Live House

I was at the lobby just finished cleaning, but then someone knocked down the bucket by purpose and it was Chiyu Tamade, or her code name CHU².

CHU²: Hey! Can't you see I'm walking here, boy?

(Y/N): I'm sorry, CHU²-san.

CHU²: Sorry? Do you think I'll accept your apology like it's nothing? No!

She just slapped me and I didn't get to fight back.

CHU²: Not like you have money to replace my outfit.

She said before leaving me alone there, heartbroken.

Then, at one time when Afterglow was using the studio. I was at the studio checking the instruments and then someone stepped in. It was the bassist, Himari Uehara. She approached me while shaking her hips left and right.

Himari: Hehe~ How are you, (Y/N)?~

She grabbed my arms and put my hands on her soft chest.

Himari: Grope it as much as you want~ I won't get mad.

So, I obeyed her and she moaned.

Himari: Kyaaaah!! (Y/N), wh-what are you doing?! Get off me!

Then, the door opened as Afterglow steps in and stare at us.

Ran: What's going on?!

Moca: Hii-chan, are you okay?!

Himari: Help! It's (Y/N)! He... He harassed me!

Ran, Moca, Tomoe, Tsugumi: What?!

(Y/N): B-But, you're the one who told me to.

Himari: Liar! You're a big liar!

She slapped me hard on my cheek, leaving a hand print.

Tomoe: How dare you...

Moca: Trying to harass Hii-chan?!

The entire band of Afterglow beat me up for a false accusations of me harassing their band members.

Tomoe: Don't mess with Himari!

Moca: You're quite a pervert, are you?~

Tsugumi: How could you, (Y/N)-san?

Ran: If we heard you harass our leader again, we'll report you to the police. Consider this is a warning.

(Y/N): Y-Yes.

They threw me together onto a wall and leave the studio. The one who was left behind is Himari as she giggles.

Himari: You have fallen for my prank!

Himari stick her tongue out at me and walk away along with them. My heart hurts so much from her action.

Flashback ends...

(Y/N): *sigh* Well, looks like the band girls hates me no matter how much I worked hard.

I only give my hands a dead stare as I then heard a female voice calling my name.

Kokoro: (Y/N)...

I tilt my head slightly to the right and saw Kokoro with a heart breaking look on her face. She's probably entered without even knocking the front door, but I'm used to it already.

(Y/N): Kokoro...

Yeah, I did tell you that most band girls are really cold and harsh to me. But, Kokoro isn't like that. She showed her genuine kindness because that's what her band goal is. To see the world smile.

Kokoro: Did Yukina and Ran beat you up?

(Y/N): Yeah, I guess I'm too weak to be against them. I got treated so badly like this, even if I tried to change. I guess that my fate cannot be changed.

Kokoro: That's not true!

Her yell make me gaze my eyes on her.

Kokoro: If you want someone to help you, I'm here! I don't want to see you heartbroken and with scars and bruises on your body!

(Y/N): I'm sorry, Kokoro. But, my hope and will to live is no longer with me. I'll end this pain myself.

Kokoro: If you do... then...

She teared up and it's making me heavy-hearted seeing her. But, it's what they wanted, including Marina-san who is the one who took me as her employee.

Without saying anything, I took the knife from my kitchen and point the sharp edge to my chest. Before continuing, I warned Kokoro to look away.

(Y/N): Look away, Kokoro. You don't want to see it.

Kokoro: No... *sob* I love you! *sob* I don't care what you say! You deserve happiness like others do!

(Y/N): Then, you should be smiling. Focus on other things instead of a useless me.

Kokoro: You're not useless!

I extend my hands to Kokoro and caressed her soft blonde hair. It's really soft and I wish I could hold it forever, but her other band members wouldn't agree with it. So, I took my arms away from her.

(Y/N): You have a goal to make the world smile, right? Then, you should know how can people smile again... including me. So, please look away.

Kokoro: No. I don't care. I'll watch you.

Kokoro won't listen to what I said, so I carry on with my execution that I'll do it myself.

(Y/N): Goodbye, Kokoro... everyone...

Kokoro: Goodbye, (Y/N)... I'll miss you.

She said almost begin tearing up. I stab the sharp knife into my chest as I whimper in pain and let the pain take my life away.

Third Person's POV

(Y/N) stabbed himself at his heart as blood splatter out from his chest, staining his shirt. Kokoro can only look with her heart is in heavy pain. After a while, (Y/N) stopped moving as his heart stopped beating.

Kokoro: (Y/N)...

Kokoro went to (Y/N) and tears fell on (Y/N)'s dead body. Misaki enters the room and found Kokoro crying.

Misaki: There you are.

She saw (Y/N)'s dead on the floor as she smug slightly.

Kokoro: Misaki...

Misaki: Come on, leave this guy be. He's not worthy your time. It's his fault for not being a musician like us.

She grabbed Kokoro's hand and drag her away from him. Kokoro cannot resist Misaki dragging her away. She only stare at (Y/N) with muffled heart.

Kokoro: Wish that I could join you as well, (Y/N).

(To be continued...?)

(Author's Note: I don't know if I should continue this. I don't want to spread hate on the band girls. So, let me know.)