Zoya lifted her hand, swiping away her tears as she scrubbed at the side, it was clean, she knew that because she had been scrubbing it for hours on end. It was the only thing to keep her mind busy, Adi had been out for hours and it was nearly midnight. She was worried for him but also so angry at his careless behaviour.

Zoya stiffened as she felt an arm wrap around her waist "Hi Zoyaaa" Aditya slurred in her ear "Ive missed you, have you missed me"

Zoya shoved at his arm till he let go, then turned to face him "You've been drinking haven't you" her gaze was accusatory

His jaw dropped "Of course not" then he smiled "Okay maybe a little, but I dont like it when you're mad at me, it hurts" he pouted, slapping his hand on his chest

Her orbs swirled with anger, her fists clenching, her cheeks tinged red "So drinking is the answer is it"

"Have I ever told you Zoya, how hot you look when you get angry" he hiccuped, then stretched his arms out, wrapping them around her waist, he tugged her closer making her chest hit his

"Adi, Adi what are you doing" she pushed at his chest, but her hands dropped when she felt his lips on her neck, her hands raised grabbing his collar to steady herself as she threw her head back

Adi bit into her neck making her hiss, then swiped his tounge across her neck, sucking slowly as he turned her around and pressed her up against the wall.
He pulled back, his eyes meeting hers, then his lips met hers in a kiss that left them both with a burning desire for more, his hands were hot on her body, yanking her impossibly closer

Zoya let out a breathy moan as he peppered kisses down her throat, his teeth grazing across her jugular vein "God, you're so beautiful, why has it taken me this long to kiss you" he whispered against her skin, his words grounding her and bringing her back to reality. She raised her hand, resting it on his chest "We have to stop"

He looked up at her, his hands dropping from her waist "But why Zoya, you are my wife, isnt this what you want"

Of course it was, she had wanted him to want her like she wanted him, but not like this, not while he was drunk because she knew he would regret it in the morning.
"You're drunk, you dont know what you're saying"

He stepped closer "But what if I do, what if I have been wanting to make you mine since the minute you even looked my way, but I haven't because ive been to scared" he asked, his words making her heart race

"But you've always said you didnt want to, because, because you dont love me" her words made him pause, he looked away uncomfortably then nodded, he turned to walk away, then stopped again

"Doesn't mean I dont want to Zoya, because God only knows how damn much I want to love you"

"Then why dont you" but her words were unheard as he walked away

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Adi looked up as Zoya placed a cup of coffee infront of him, he reached out, grabbing her hand "Im really sorry about last night, I dont know what came over me"

Zoya smiled sadly "Its okay, dont worry, as you said, you dont love me, it's my fault for trying to win you over when you will never love me" she sat beside him looking down at her breakfast

"The reason I cant love you is because, I love someone else, I know it may sound crazy but everytime I try to get close to you, its like I feel guilty and I get these confusing flashes in my head like I remember loving someone else but I can never see her face, its wrong of me I know and thats why im telling you because"

Zoya couldn't help the happiness that filled her heart, he recalled their love, that meant she could tell him who she was to him

"Because I got a call, it was from a woman who says that she loved me and I loved her, she wants to meet me, and if you give me permission, I want to meet her to"

"So, you're saying that some woman calls you and tells you she's the love of your life and you're asking your wife if you can go and meet her, pagal hai kya, bewaqoof ho tum" she slammed her hands down and stood up "I have waited years for you to love me, yet one phone call and I am completley forgotten, how do you even know this woman is telling the truth"

Zoya felt weak, the man she had loved, the man that had once loved her was going to meet another woman who he thought he loved and she could do nothing about it, because it may make his condition worse

"Zoya, please, I just need to know the truth, thats why I want to see her" he stood up as she did

"You want to know the truth, the truth is that I love you, more than anything and all ive ever asked for in return is respect yet you want to go and see some other woman, go then, go and confess your love to her because you certainly don't love me, why aren't I good enough, what's lacking in me" Zoya felt physically sick, every woman at some point in her life had felt this overwhelming feeling of not being enough, but she never expected a day to come where she wasnt enough for Adi

"Zoya, I warned you, I said dont fall in love with me"

She threw her hands up in the air in disbelief "Oh yeah, if it was that damn easy, you look at me like im something special, you take me out on dates, you tell me im beautiful, you kiss me when you're drunk and pull me closer when you sleep, falling in love with you wasn't a choice Adi, I literally fell in love with you" she wiped her tears "But it was my mistake, I expected you to catch me, but remember this if you go and see her, we are over Adi, you will never see me again, you wont hear from me, it will be like I never existed which wont be that hard for you because I was never anything important anyway"

"Okay, I wont go then" he shrugged

"No, because you want to go, I want you to not want to go, not just not go because I dont want you to go"

Adi looked like a deer caught in headlights "Zoya, you're not making any sense"

"Stop being so nonchalant, I love you idiot, im allowed to not make sense" she shouted

Adi stepped forward "I dont want to hurt you Zoya, but I can see ive hurt you so much already, I would never cheat on you, but I cant help that I feel like I love someone else, you've known me for years right, so you tell me, who do I love so much that even now I cant love a woman as great as you"

Zoya swallowed painfully, the tears in his eyes burning a hole into her heart. She couldn't tell him it was her because he may breakdown again, but the thought of him falling into this woman's trick sickened her, he was a rich man and she knew that the woman was only invested in that. She had to let him do him, and just pray that he would love her one day, if he didnt then she would just pray he would remain happy

Zoya leant up on her tiptoes, pressing a soft kiss to his lips "I love you, silly, you do this if you need to, because I know you do, but understand I cant sit here and wait for you to come home to me, I love you, and thats why I wont burden you with a relationship you don't want anymore, you're free"

Adi's hands trembled as Zoya pulled her hands away. He could feel the tears in his eyes at the thought of saying goodbye to her. But, he knew it was for the best, because she deserved better than a man who could never love her the way she loved him. "Take care Zoya, I have to go, I can't watch you leave, you understand that right"

Zoya nodded sadly "Bye silly" she smiled, then he was gone, and soon she would be to.

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Adi had spent 2 hours with the woman, and that was by far enough to realise that this woman did not do half of the things Zoya did to him. Her smile didnt make his stomach jump, her eyes didnt twinkle as bright when she laughed and her smile didnt make him smile ten times wider. He had made a mistake because of his own fears and lost the best possible thing. But she deserved better, though it was a bitter pill to swallow he would allow her to live in peace.

He had tried many times to sleep, but all he saw was her laughing, her voice in his head calling him silly and it was pure torture that made his chest sting. But he would have to just soothe himself, because if he could not offer Zoya love, then the least he could do was offer her freedom.

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Zoya sat in a hotel room, her eyes were red from crying. She sat silently wearing his shirt because it still smelt like him, it still smelt like home. She pulled a pillow to her chest and led down "Night silly" she whispered to nothing

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"Night beautiful" Adi whispered to his empty room

Will Adi ever realise his mistake?? Comment and let me know your thoughts:)