Dazai was sighing as he moved his office chair back and forth. What a terribly boring day. No negotiations, no issues, no trouble around Yokohama. Just him and his office which suddenly seemed way to spacious for just one person. Dazai was tossing paper balls into his grey net trash can. Dazai threw a paper ball and missed.

"Wow. Who would have knew the Port Mafia boss sucked at something so simple?" Chuuya snagged a paper ball from the desk and he tossed it landing it directly in the trash.

"Show off." Dazai pouted.

Chuuya chuckled. "Take it however you want. Whatever pill is easier to swallow that you just suck." Chuuya teased.

Dazai chuckled at that. "Fine fine. I can admit my aim is awful."

For a moment it was pure silence and Dazai looked at Chuuya.

"It's been a year huh?"

"...Yeah. I visited his grave yesterday..."

"I'm sorry Chuuya."

"...It's okay... Even though he's not here physically... I- I know he's watching over me. What a silly man he was... to die for me..."

"He loved you. Someone who loves you. They'll do what they must to protect you. Including dying. Tsumiki knew he was going to die. And he went completely knowing that fact."

"...I wasn't worth it... If it wasn't for the pure curiosity of my existence I wouldn't be here..."

"To him you where. You know before he died... he told me that he loved you more than anything in the world. That even though he's afraid to die the thought of being without you was harder. It was something he couldn't bare. A thought he didn't want to become reality. He also said that he... he knows your son would need you more... that even if you didn't have him... you at least had your son to hold on to."

Chuuya's eyes widened at that as he looked at Dazai. Chuuya looked down and his eyes started filling with tears.

"It's okay to cry Chuuya. To be hurt. You loved him. And there's... there's nothing wrong with that." Dazai said looking at him sadly.

A broken sob was heard throughout the room and Chuuya's tears hit his pants. Dazai stood up and he walked across the room hugging him tightly. Letting the ginger cry on his shoulder. Dazai held him until the pain wasn't too much to bare. And even then he still held him.

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Chuuya didn't stay too long. And once he left. The guilt was eating Dazai alive. He set Tsumiki up. To look like he sold Chuuya out. And he went along with it. And even though Chuuya was angry he still loved him unconditionally. Dazai looked up as he heard a knock on his door.

"Boss?"

"Ah Odasaku! Come on in."

"Chuuya just left?"

"...Ah... Yeah..."

"Are you ever going to tell him the truth?"

"...Maybe one day..."

To Be Continued...

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Guys thank you so much for reading and finishing the story! I know this chapter was quite short but the reason I left it this way is because there will be a spin off to this story! Thank you for all the support and I will be working on the spin off soon :) Part 2 of the series is Dark Carnations.