Chuuya was sitting outside of the graveyard in his car. It had been a year since Tsumiki died. Chuuya laid low both from the Port Mafia and Cafe Tsukikage, he just didn't want to be around either right now. He truly couldn't handle it. Chuuya hadn't visited Tsumiki's grave once since he was buried. It was hard to stomach that he was truly gone... But he had to do this. He owed it not only to himself but Tsumiki as well. Chuuya left his car on so the air could keep circulating and he looked in the back seat smiling. "Aki stay here with him." Aki barked and Chuuya got out of the car and he locked the doors with the spare key. Chuuya looked around the cemetery he finally saw Tsumiki's name. Chuuya kneeled down touching the gravestone sadly. Chuuya sat down the vase of pink camellia's he had bought at the flower shop, the flourist asked him if there was someone he missed deeply. She explained that pink camellia's meant longing for someone and is only given when this person will be deeply missed. Chuuya picked the flowers without knowing the true meaning but it was weird how out of all the colors that's the one that caught his eye and it had that meaning.

"I'm sorry... I didn't visit... I didn't attend the funeral... I hope you can forgive me for that... It was just... too much for me to bare. And I couldn't... I couldn't look at you in the casket..." Chuuya starts to cry. He sniffles as he wipes his tears. "... I didn't... I didn't mean to kill you... I'm so sorry... I did... and I do still love you... You were the only person who never gave up on me... no matter how hard I pushed you away, ignored you, yelled at you to stay away from me, or closed the door in your face if I even opened it at all... You never stopped... until I said yes... And I will... I will always appreciate that. I wouldn't be who I am today without you... I wouldn't have what I do today... without you... I love you so much Tsumiki... and I want to start visiting more... Because you deserve it... and I want to keep your grave looking beautiful... the outside should truly represent how you lived... honest and kind..." Chuuya sniffled. "... I have to go now... but don't worry... I'll be back..." He smiled and he kissed the gravestone before standing up.

"He wouldn't blame you, you know."

Chuuya turned around and his eyes widened. "Amon..."

"It's been a long time Chuuya."

"... I know... I'm sorry..."

"You didn't come to his funeral..."

"... I know..."

"...But he wouldn't blame you... Come home Chuuya..."

"I can't... I can't come home..."

"He loved you with all his heart you know. You were his world. And I know you loved him too. And I know he'd want you to be home. I know you may feel you don't deserve it. But we all want you home. Both of you."

Chuuya's eyes widened. "...What?"

"Both of you. C'mon you didn't just disappear for a year because of that reason alone. You never got the chance to tell him did you?"

Chuuya bit his lip. "I'll take that as a no. But he already knew. He was the one who told me. What's his name?"

"...Noah..."

"Nice name. Can I see him?"

"...Sure."

Chuuya and Amon went back to the car and Chuuya unlocked it. He opened the back seat and Aki ruffed happily as he saw Amon. "Ah hey Aki." Amon said ruffling his fur. Amon looked in the carseat and he smiled as he rubbed his little chubby cheek. He had vibrant blue eyes and purplish black hair. "Wow hi there little guy~" Amon said happily. Chuuya smiled softly as he looked at Amon be sweet with Noah. Maybe... depending on friends and being at home wouldn't be so bad.

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"I don't know if I can do this..." Chuuya admitted.

"We're your family... we don't look at you any differently..." Amon said smiling.

"Plus if you don't get in there you're fired indefinitely."

Chuuya turned around surprised. "Boss..."

Shirakawa pat his head, smiling. "You should have come home sooner, stubborn kid."

His boss wasn't one that usually hugged his subordinates but he figured Chuuya could use it. So Chuuya just hugged back tightly, feeling all the love and care the hug signified.

"Alright in you go!" Shirakawa said nudging him forward. "My is that the baby? He's so adorable. I remember you and Tsumiki talking about having one kid for a while. He'd be happy you know. He is happy." Shirakawa smiled.

When Chuuya walked into the room, the cafe was silent for a moment before they started welcoming him home happily, giving him hugs and telling him how much they missed him. They gave Noah hugs and tiny kisses on his face. How could Chuuya be so stupid...? How could he have avoided this for so long...? Even though the knew the truth... they didn't turn him away or hate him... They took him back with open arms. If they could forgive him... then just maybe Chuuya could start to forgive himself if only just a little.