"If I didn't get comments and vote I am not going to post soon"

"On that day, I do not know how I reacted, I told what came to my mind, whatever happened on that day, it was not easy for me to accept. I did not want to cross my border before my marriage Sanskaar." Swara said without looking Sanskaar.

"I thought again about that day, I do not remember after drinking that milk, I do not know why my heart is saying that you do not force me, maybe I'm thinking like that  Because you have never tried touching me, I do not know, "she chocked remembering that day.

"I am not with you because you want to, but I have stopped due to my selfishness. I know that I can keep this child alone, I do not want any men to support me but I do not want to this baby suffer like me  "  Thinking about her childhood, tears flowed through the eyes of Swara and the samskar saw him from the pain.

"People started calling me iligal Kid when I did not even know the meaning of an illigenous child, you do not know how it feels. I am always strong because of my mother because I do not bother my mother by showing my pain., "more tear rolled down from her eyes.

You know that my mother is still paying a step she took before marriage.  Was it her only mistake that everyone is blaming her?  Why does not my father ask any questions?  Why does not someone call him characterless?  What is my fault if my father did not accept me ??  What mistake do I have that all are blaming me ??  Why is Ragini telling me I try to attract boys ??  What was my fault if laksh loves me?  Tell me na Sanskaar" swara said looking towards sanskaar while crying bitterly. 
Seeing her, tears also came out of his eyes and always used to keep it firmly in front of any situation, he did not think that she was this broken.
He wants to hug her and tell her that he will always be with her no matter what, but he fears that if she blames him again?  This thought comes to his mind.

He tightly closed his eyes and after gaining courage, he open back again.  He reduces the distance between them and surrounds his arms around her, pulls her toward him.

She immediately puts her head on his chest and begins to weep and hold her T-shirt tightly in the fists.  To cries her badly needed someone's shoulder and she got it.  She never cried in front of her maa or dida, thinking that it would hurt them.

"Sanskaar tell na  it's all my fault??" Swara asked him sobbing in his chest.

"No swara " he Stoke her hair lightly smoothing her.

"I do not have the courage to fight with this society, I'm tired."

He break hug, cup her face and directly look into her eyes which still filled with tears.

"You are not alone, I will always be with you no matter what.  I will fight for you and this is my promise to you. "He kept a little kiss on his forehead.

After many years, he is feeling light in his heart because he never cries in front of anyone.  Today, he has opened this part of his life with someone who will not cry for his reasons and will not tell his mother.

" Now get up and wash your face" sanskaar get up ,make her stand and walk towards bathroom holding her hand. He gave water to wash her face and gave towel to wipe her face. She silently follow him what he told.

He make her sit on bed. He came to her with dinner. He forward plate to her.

"I don't want " swara said as she don't feel to eat.

."you are not alone" Sanskaar calmly said.

"But I don't feel like to eat"

"So you make baby remain hungry who is no fault" Sanskaar forward bit

"I eat only little" Swara take her bit. Sanskaar make her eat.

After finishing dinner sanskaar make her lie down on bed and cover her property were swara just staring him seeing his care.

After finishing his dinner ,he takes all vessels and come out to wash. He sit down and laugh on himself.

"I never wash vessels in my life and now see what I have to do" Sanskaar laugh on himself

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After washing he place them on there place.He goes to the swara and sits near her, Swara immediately closes her  eyes, seeing him coming near him.  He bends towards the swara while feeling his hot breath on her face, she gets tightly hold bedsheet in her fist.  She was thinking about pushing him but she felt a kiss on her forehead which makes her feel different.

 She bends towards her stomach and keeps a soft kiss on her flat belly without removing bedsheets, which makes her feel a little different.

  "I promise you that I will always protect you and your mumma. I will do my best to please you and your mumma. I know that your mama has suffered a lot, but now I want to make your mamma  happy and I will do my best. " he again kiss her tummy.

 He get  up from there and lies on the floor with his bedsheets.  Swara looks back to the Sanskaar who are sleeping peacefully.

  "Today I'm really feeling lighter, I do not know how I unknowingly gave up my pain with you, which I have kept in my heart for many years. I do not know what will happen to our relationship, but I think  You will be a good father" swara thought in mind while small smile come on her lips after many days thinking about Sanskaar small gesture.

Feeling Sunray sankaar open his eyes. He get up and make breakfast for them. He goes in bathroom and come out after fresh up. He looks towards swara who was still sleeping. He goes near her.

"Swara get up" no response come
"Swara get up " he shook her shoulder.
Swara immediately open her eyes and looks towards sankaar. She get up and sit on bed.

"Wo sorry I just waking up to have your breakfast" Sanskaar said seeing her scare face.

"It's ok" swara get up and walk towards bathroom.Till then he takes out plate and served breakfast.

Swara come after freshing up, Sanskaar place breakfast infront of her. After finishing breakfast sankaar give medicine which she took silently.

"Swara don't you think we should tell this pregnancy news to maa and Dida" Sanskaar said were swara look him shock

"No sanskaar plz don't tell maa and dida, what will I say to them that I got pregnant without marriage. I can't hurt my mother" tears rolled down from her eyes.

"But one day they will come to know"

"Then we will see but not now plz" She pending him

" Ok" he said wiping her tears thinking something.