"You good?" Anthony smiled at me from the other side of the bed where he was buttoning his pants.

"I'm great, you good?" I asked pulling my shirt back over my head.

"Great" he chuckled softly.

"Well I don't know about you, but I feel much better" I giggled, finishing fixing my clothes.

"Yeah, me too..." he trailed off before he almost snapped out of it. "We should probably get back out there before they miss you"

"Me? They'll miss you more than they'll miss me" I breathed a laugh.

"Nah, it's your party" he grinned opening the door and motioning for me to lead the way.

I shook my head at him with a laugh before joining the party again.

"There you are, I've been looking for you everywhere" my friend Angela threw her arms around me. "Where were you?"

"I just, I was just hiding out in my room letting out some frustration" I smiled to myself.

"Well come on, let's get a drink" she tugged me by my arm through the crowd and towards the drinks...which just so happened to be right where Matt was standing.

"Hey" I said more awkwardly than I wanted to.

"I feel like I haven't seen you this whole time" he chuckled pulling me into a hug.

I definitely had seen him.

"I've been around" I shrugged.

"Letting out frustration" Angela rolled her eyes grabbing a cup to start making her drink.

"Well I happen to know what's great for letting out frustration" Matt laughed slightly before holding up the bottle of vodka.

"With sprite?" I smiled as Matt poured my drink and handed it out to me. "Thanks" I widened my smile as I took a drink. "Ok, you were right, this does help with frustration" I giggled moving to take another drink.

"You know what works even better than that?" Angela asked leaning over after finishing pouring her drink.

"Sex in the driveway?" Anthony smirked as he approached the table almost making me choke on my drink.

"I was going to say just going for the vodka straight, but I like your idea better" she giggled looking between all of us.

"Angela, this is Anthony. He plays on the same team as Matt. Anthony, this is my friend Angela" I explained as they shook hands.

"You disappeared for awhile" Matt said to Anthony as he took my cup from me.

"Yeah, I had to take care of some things" he shrugged slightly as he added some things to my drink and handed it back. "There you go"

I looked at Angela curiously before taking a drink.

"Ok that's really good, what is this?" I pointed to my drink.

"Wait is sex in the driveway what the drink is called? Let me try it" Angela took the cup out of my hand.

"Thanks" I called after Anthony as he walked away from the table.

"That's very good" Angela handed me my drink back.

"Wanna try it?" I turned to Matt.

"Nah, thanks though. Some of the guys are starting a game in the back so I should probably head out there. You guys should come out" he offered a smile.

"Yeah, umm...maybe" I gave a strained smile.

"It was great seeing you Angela, in case I don't see you again tonight"

Matt reached around me to grab his drink placing a hand on my hip. His touch sent goosebumps across my body and my heart rate instantly picked up.

"See you around Matt" Angela smiled at me as Matt walked away.

"What?" I breathed a laugh, trying to play it cool.

"You're all flushed" she smirked.

"So? It's warm in here" I shrugged.

"You guys would be cute together. You should go for it" she nudged me slightly.

"Yeah, sure" I laughed again with a shake of my head.

"What's so funny? Go spend some time with him" she motioned with her hands.

"You've got a twisted view of reality" I shook my head at her again.

"Alright well, I think you should. Live a little, girl. I, myself, am going to do a lap...see if I know anyone else" she said scanning the room.

"I think who you're looking for is in the kitchen" I nodded with a knowing grin.

"Thanks" she turned to walk towards the kitchen before stopping. "You know, if someone made me that flustered from something that simple? I'd be going for it, just saying"

As she disappeared, part of me couldn't help but think that on some level she might be right. There were ups and downs of just throwing myself out there but the way my body reacted from his touch told me there was no way this feeling was going to just disappear.

I made my way outside to find the guys so I could watch their game. Instead, the only thing I found was Matt, resting comfortably in a chair in my backyard, a beautiful girl settled on his lap. I took a breath and collected myself before deciding against the whole idea and attempting to walk back inside.

"Hey Y/N" I heard Anthony's voice call from the side of the patio as I tried to make my way inside. I turned to him to see him with a smile on his face holding up a ping pong ball. "Come be my partner?"

"Sure" I finally smiled walking towards him and taking the ping pong ball from him.

"Everything ok?" He asked softly leaning over towards me.

"Yeah, why do you ask?" I looked at him curiously.

"You look...different. Last time I saw you, you weren't this tense or...I don't know you almost seem upset" he explained.

"I guess" I shrugged slightly, the feel of Matt's hand still burning it's spot on my hip even though it's been long gone. "But..." I trailed off, toying with an idea in my head and trying to figure out if it would be a great idea or a detrimental one.

"But?" He asked curiously as he picked up the other ball that hit the table.

"Maybe you should stay after the party" I said barely loud enough for him to hear.

"Yeah, ok" he threw me a smile before nudging me with his elbow. "It's your throw"

I smiled at him, moving to take my throw. I would have to remember to let Angela know how wrong she was...and remember to never listen to her again.

As I felt Anthony's eyes on me while I took my shot, a small part of me wanted to call the party right then and there with the thought of Matt's touch still raising my skin with goosebumps after it's been vacated from my body for almost an hour. The other part of me wondered when I had become sad enough that I craved intimacy from one friend so much I would use another as a stand in.

I was a mess.