Love is a very strong emotion. It can build something very beautiful like Taj Mahal but at the same time be the cause of great destruction.

Love can keep you alive and it can kill you.

Right now, you were trying very hard to stay alive as the love once you felt for Taehyung was turning into anger.

You had met Kim Taehyung probably 3 years ago. You were new in the country, new to the language and people but you were determined to complete your studies and make your parents proud.

When you first met him, you didn't know he was a very famous idol but you not knowing just made you two very good friends. Friendship soon turned into love and you were soon spending almost every night with the handsome man, who had not only swept you off your feet but also helped you settle down in Korea.

He made you feel like you belonged somewhere. He made you feel loved and cherished when you missed your parents.

Everything was going perfectly. You were a few months away from graduation. You had a job offer in hand. You had a wonderful boyfriend whom you loved beyond words but it all came crashing down when Taehyung uttered few simple words.

"I can't do this anymore." He said, confusing you as you came out of the kitchen and into the drawing room. He stood in the middle of the room, his face blank and fists clenched at his side.

"What do you mean?" You asked, happy that your Korean sounded almost fluent by now. But right now, you were very confused.

He sighed, his eyes avoiding yours as you started walking closer to him. "What are you saying, Kim Taehyung? Is something wrong?"

You lifted your hand to caress his face but he grabbed your wrist stopping you. Your heart started beating faster as his actions made you feel as if something was very wrong.

"What I am saying, Y/N, is that I want to break up with you. I can't stay with you pretending to be in love with you." He said with a clenched jaw.

You kept staring into his eyes, looking for any hint of lie but you found none. His eyes were as blank as the walls of your apartment.

You took a step back, your eyes filling with tears but you were still not believing his words. "You are lying, Taehyung. I know you and you are lying."

He closed his eyes, trying to control his own emotions, not letting it show.
"I'm not lying. It's over between us. I've fallen out of love with you, Y/N. It's better you get over me and find someone better."

He turned around, leaving you reeling from his words. You heard him slipping his shoes back on and that's when you broke out of your trance.

You moved quickly, hugging him from back as tears finally started flowing. "No, please. Don't leave me, Taehyung. I love you. You know I do. Just tell me what is wrong. I'll rectify anything that is bothering you. Please, just tell me. I love you."

You were sobbing your heart now as you felt him grasping your hands tightly and getting out of you hold.
"There's nothing you can change that'll make me stay with you." He spoke, his voice rising, making you flinch. Taehyung rarely raised his voice but when he did, he was scary.

"The only thing you can do now is get over me. Forget me and live your life. You need to find someone else."

"But I only want you, Taehyung. You are the only one. Don't you remember how relaxed you are when you sleep on my chest? Does my heartbeat annoy you now? Are my hands too callous? Am I not girly enough for you? Is it my hair? Please tell me, Taehyung. I thought I was what you wanted. You told me so yourself."

Yes, he remembered everything he told you. He still slept well only when you ran your small fingers through his hair. You had never been girly enough but you were everything he ever wanted. You were perfect for him but he wasn't good enough for you.

He wanted to tell you but he also knew you wouldn't believe him. That's why he said the only thing he knew you'd believe.

"It's not what you look like or what you are but we just won't ever work."

"Why? Why won't we work?" You asked in a broken voice, trying to keep yourself standing even as you wanted to just curl up and cry. This couldn't be real.

"We are not equal." He said in a tight voice. "Love is supposed to be between equals. You and I can never be equal. It took me time to figure out but I have it figured out now. This is why we can never work."

With that, he left you a broken mess in the doorway of your apartment.

"Live a happy and safe life, my love." He whispered brokenly as he touched the door lightly. He had no other choice.

The first few weeks were hell. Everything you did reminded you of him. The food, clothes, the sofa, the left side of the bed. Everything was just a reminder of your broken heart and whispered promises that were nothing but lies.

You were still determined though. You couldn't let a man disrespect you like that and walk all over you. You were stronger and better than that.

Love of equals, that's what he wanted but you were apparently not an equal for him. You figured if was the fame talking and let the hatred spew inside until you couldn't think straight.

You were going to show him what equals meant.

You studied hard, you worked harder. You would see flashes of him in everyday life. The ever present ache in your heart was just a reminder that you had to keep going whenever you saw him on magazine covers and billboards.

You could never achieve the fame he had but you could be the top in what you did. And that's exactly what you did.

In the next 2 years as Taehyung kept gaining popularity, you were also leading a startup that had the potential to become the top. You were even receiving positive feedback and many awards.

The ache had reduced to a dull heartbeat. You knew, you wouldn't be able to love anyone as you loved Taehyung but that didn't mean you'd stay single forever.

In time you found a lover again. His gentle smile and considerate nature filled the hole in your heart, giving you happiness that you thought you wouldn't ever get.

The walls of your apartment was filled with colourful memories of you and your soon to be husband.

Taehyung had watched how your love for him had turned to hatred. That hatred had been a fuel through the years and you had achieved things no one can in such a small amount of time.

His heart broke everytime he saw you from distance. The lustre in your eyes had faded and he was the only one to blame. All he wanted was for you to be safe and it wouldn't have been possible if he stayed with you. He might have lost you far earlier than your time.

It hurt him to see you smiling and laughing with another man. He had spent endless nights crying over you but at the end he was happy, you were living again.

It was time he started living in present again.

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A/N:

A short angsty story of broken hearts and how love is two faced always.

I hope you like this. 🤞

Thank you for reading!!