you had a chance
no
no
NO
you had SO MANY CHANCES
i would give you one after another
and soon they ended up in the garbage along with the lunch wrappers from that day
but though these chances i still smiled and laughed at almost everything you said
i hope it boosted your confidence
i hope it helped whatever you were going through
but those chances
THEY ARE REMINDERS
REMINDERS TO WHAT I LOST WHEN I LOOKED AT YOU DIFFERENTLY
when i looked at you in a different perspective
maybe
no
NO
NOT MAYBE
not maybe
i know for sure
that yes it was just a school romance
but i felt so much more
i felt confident around you
i felt like i belonged with other people
not just like an outsider trying to become someone new
so yes
not maybe
but yes
i felt more than butterflies
i felt like someone was hitting something inside of me with a hammer
and maybe
NO
I DID NOT
RECOVER
FROM
THE
SLEDGING
no
but
let
me
tell
YOU
the
butterflies
survived