i can not express what i want to over words
over any type of text
but maybe if i could just talk to you
well maybe i would start off talking
but eventually i would end up sobbing and i would end up trying to pound my weak fists against your chest but i wouldn't be able to
i would be afraid of hurting you
because as much as you hurt me
i put your feelings first
before mine
and oh i would hope
but only imagine
that you would let me sob whilst you hold my wrists because you know that i would be too weak to even try to continue talking
and maybe
yes maybe
you would just hold me as i cry
and that would just make me feel content
—
maybe i read too many romance books
maybe i need to lower my expectations
maybe...
maybe i just am jealous of everyone else
everyone else having someone to constantly talk to
yes i wish that i had you