that weird feeling

when you feel almost as if you won't die

with every single movement.

when you breath once,

twice,

and your heartbeat remains steady.

when you swallow,

and your throat doesn't spit back at you.

when you don't have a stomachache that haunts you for every waking moment.

when your nightmares don't keep you from being outside

and the monster prowling your thoughts doesn't matter as much to you anymore.

and you slowly begin to starve the monster, not giving in.

when you feel the relief seep in,

allowing air to your lungs.

allowing a certain lightness fill you.

even if it is only temporary.