2/7/16

Dear diary,

Yesterday was the best day I've ever had.

Jongdae picked me up around noon and to my surprise, he actually looked as nervous as I felt. It was honestly so cute. I wanted to do everything in my power to help him calm down and reassured him that we'll have a fun day together.

But you know, I wasn't really expecting him to bring me over all the way to Lotte World, a place I haven't been to since I was younger.

At this point, I think Jongdae felt more at ease, since we were able to talk casually on the bus ride over there.

But, okay, this idiot. He told me that I was free to cling onto him if I get too scared on any rides... And then he took my hand in his, saying that I'm practically already shaking in my shoes. This boy just made a lame excuse to hold my hand.

The day was way too fun, just like what Yixing said. We rode all the roller coasters we could find and even got away with getting on a couple kiddie rides. Just watching that idiot try to fit into one of the kid sized carts and ride a couple rounds on the ride had me laughing into tears. 

Sometimes I wonder why I like him so much. 

It wasn't until night had come and we decided that the ferris wheel be our last ride when he told me about things. He said that last weekend, when I had... stood him up for our date, he had come over to my house to check on me. Instead of seeing me, he had seen Minseok. Oppa apparently ended up telling him the real reasons as to why I had been cooped up. 

He grabbed my hand, brought it to his lips with a soft kiss to my knuckles, and he told me that I shouldn't be afraid to tell him my problems. That I can open up to him and let out my feelings and have him try to support and help me through them. And the way Jongdae looked at me with such genuine concern just made me fall for him all over again.

And like in those cliche romance movies, we shared our second kiss on that ferris wheel under the night sky.

I honestly do not deserve someone as amazing as Kim Jongdae.