Based on the song "Kill my Memory" by Citizen Soldier. Song in media.

I sat in your bed, disturbing the perfectly made covers. My eyes roamed around the empty room, remembering the time when it was full of your things. You were always so organized, you know. There are organizers everywhere.

I haven't been here for days, since the day you left me while I was asleep. Can't really say I'm surprised that you left me in the first place, to be honest. I'm just surprised it took you so long to leave after all the hell that I've put you through.

You've never smiled. Not around me, at least. You were always frowning. Constantly stressed. Constantly irritated. Constantly mad. Constantly unhappy.

I know I was a problem child. I still am, to be honest. If I was in your position, I won't like me as well. I don't know why I never changed. I wanted to, I swear. I just don't know how.

I want to call you. I want to tell you that I'm sorry. That I'm sorry for what I've done, that I'm sorry for what I've become. I'm sorry that I let you down, that I couldn't be the child you wanted, the child you deserve to have.

You deserve so much more, mom. Forget about me. Live a new life like I never existed in the first place. Forget that I'm here, that I was even your child.

Let me die, even though I don't deserve it. I never deserved the mercy of death. I deserve to live, to suffer. But I will get out of your skin. I will get out of everyone's skin. I won't be a burden anymore.

I've let you down, mom. I've let everyone down. I listen to the demons inside my head and it pushed you off the edge. You gave me everything that you can and yet I gave you nothing but disappointment and pain.

I know I shouldn't, but I'm writing this letter to let you know that by the time you read this, I'll be gone. Because I don't deserve someone as good as you, and you don't deserve to have someone as shit as me. You're better off without a trace of my memory.

Goodbye, mom. I hope you live a better life. Forget about me, and hopefully everyone else does.

I love you.