Sun. 15

Firstly, I have to say sorry because I was busy and didn't update on this diary, now I'll make up for that.

Secondly, though the title is love, it's not boy-girl love so don't worry =))

so today we went to our grandma's house for dinner as usual, and the amazing thing was the sky, in other words, the gorgeous beauty of nature. I gasped at the impeccable blend of colors: orange, pink, blue, dark blue, reddish,... and at that moment, i decided that I'd favor nature. Nature is just undeniably stunning, and if human and nature co-operate with each other beneficially, this world will be far better... all greenery that are arranged aesthetically by humans is somewhat brilliant, and that's why I thought so. And my thought also voiced my wish that : it's time we curbed pollution, protected the environment, while the going is good.

yesterday, I went to the interview at a well-designed boba shop, and I was persuaded to handle 2 interviews (I have always been drastically busy as a bee, so I applied for 1 position, but after being persuaded, not I face the prospect of being taken on for 2 positions...) The core team there was cute, friendly, and admittedly, I was under the impression of one boy, he interviewed me for such a long time. Initially, I was elated, but now it's dawned on me that I had better not let my feelings "go wild". My friends, or the girls in their teenage years, are easy to fall in love with a boy, I'm not exceptional, but I know the reason why I should be normal. I dont want to invest time in nonsense stories, especially those that don't give me anything promising. In the end, I made up my mind and focus on my study to forget those stuff. I don't deny, bury my feelings or anything, but it might not be the right time, or maybe I'm trying to avoid being hurt. It's self-defense.

Apart from that, one more reason why the title is "love" is because I love my dad sm. He told my his story about the 2000s when he had to ride his bicycle around the city, struggling with bumpy roads, etc. I got emotional. He's my dad, he loves history, he's currently watching a history-based film, and I'm enjoying everything thanks to his sweat, tears and hard work. I must do something to compensate for him. He's suffered enough. I need to earn money and provide my parents with a better life when they retire. They are my greatest motivation, they'll always be.

for me, my fam is what i call "love". home is where the heart belongs.