She's the type of person that you will always have a crush on, especially if you used to date her. She's cute, but not the hot girl or the deadly gorgeous that "makes your head turns when she enters the room" type. There is just some certain vibe that makes people cannot resist her.

I'm one of them.

I remembered all those feelings. I wanted to hug her so badly whenever she was in my eye sight. Her figure was so small, yet she seemed to shrink even more when I approached her. Gosh, I love her smile with that cute canine tooth. Those cute chubby cheeks of hers made it so hard for me not to squish them.

I made it so fucking obvious that I have a big fat crush on her. I smiled whenever she looked into my eyes. She asked for a lucky signature, I was the only one to sign it with a red pen. I would gladly do whatever she told me to, but she seemed to ignore me all the time. I wanted to plant all the kisses on her face and drown her with my love.

Here I am, now, meeting her again, after such a long time.

All the nostalgic feelings with the memories flushed back at once. She's standing right in front of me again, glowing, like she always has. That smile of hers, and the sparkle in her eyes, nothing has changed.

I need to constantly fight the urge to hug her.

We drink together, all of us, with some snacks. She has high tolerance, so it takes her loads of shots to get drunk. She's sitting next to her guy best friend, also mine, hugging his arm and resting her head on his shoulder. Why are they even holding hands with their fingers intertwined like that?

I know as a matter of fact that I was not the only one having feelings for her. I can list down a bunch of other guys who either keep it quiet or shoot their shot but she had not the slightest hint at all.

For example, the science nerd guy. He asked her to go on a fucking date for the whole day, did all the couple romance things, and yet she didn't realize. He found all the opportunities to talk and get close to her. She was not aware of that at all. I told her I didn't like that guy, but she didn't seem to understand why.

Another one was the cool guy in our class. He acted cool all the time. He also asked her on a movie date but then she ended up inviting her other friends to come as well.

There were several more. Her secret admirers' club should be big enough to fill in an amphitheater. She was not aware of that at all. To be fair, part of the reason was because she already considered them as friends, and she doesn't date or has any romantic awareness among those.

Ah, look at her. She's the sober type of drunk. She knows what's going on even if her head spins. Now that she's drunk, she couldn't talk using the normal voice she always uses. She switches into a softer voice that would melt people's ears, especially those that don't know her soft side yet. She's actually a small little cat that you want to pet. That soft voice would make guys fall for her, want to hold her in their arms, kiss her, and make love to her. Or at least I feel it that way.

She's down to earth and there is something about her that is really unique. You couldn't find a copy of her anywhere else. She's such a gem that brings luck to anyone that has her, including me, for a short period of time, though I had stupidly pushed her away.

I missed her so much it hurts my heart

I wanted to hug her the way we hugged the first time. We saw each other, I opened my arms, she opened hers, and we had the greatest hug ever. Her scent, her warmth, her softness, I wish I could squeeze her in like that one more time.

I would do anything just to see her sleeping next to me every morning, tasting her delicious dish, and holding her tightly in my arms. I want to go back to the old times, put a smile on her face, and turn her into the biggest softie no one knows of but me.

I want her to be exclusively mine.

I want to cuddle with her, love bomb her, plant kisses on her face, and tell her "I love you" every time I look at her.

I want to hold her soft small hand, feel her heart beating right next to mine, and caress her hair until she falls asleep.

I want to adore and treasure her, pull her in my arms.

I missed her so much. I've been loving her forever and it doesn't seem to stop any time soon. I've had and will always have a soft spot for this girl. My lady.