Chapter Eight- Shits and giggles
WARNING: SMUT⚠️

I enter school feeling humiliated. Everyone's looking at me like I'm that "kid who tried to commit suicide over his feelings getting hurt" yes I am that kid.

As that kid I should probably except some humiliation and stares but no, I didn't expect the rude looks and comments shoved in my locker.

I rip it off my locker door and stomp at Peggy who's right beside me.

"Ugh" I grumble.

"Yes J, become an angry cave man" she rolls her eyes, whips out a lighter and a cig.

"Here" she motions to the cig and lighter which I gladly take out of her hand.

I light it up and fill my lungs with the disgusting air.

It may be bad for you but damn does it ever help.

Peggy and I have been smoking for about 3 years now.

We should probably stop but what's the point?

We continue down the hall and I see Alex.

"Hey" he smiles and leans in.

"Hi" I breathe out and also lean in.

"Soooo are you two together or something?" Peggy asks as we sit here and have our kissing moment.

"No!" we both pull away and basically scream at her.

"Ok ok" she puts her hands up defensively.

We all laugh cause life's shits and giggles.

Yes, I'm John Lauren's, I smoke, I kiss my extremely hot ex boyfriend, I do drugs at party's and I'm not innocent anymore thanks to Alex.

I'd say my life is pretty hectic but hey, I'm a teenager and as a teenager I want to live my life and have fun memories

As a gay teenager, it's really hard. Judgements come from friends and their parents, family and even pets. Yeah you'd be surprised by the amount of pets that don't come near me after a make out session with Alex.

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Alex and I fall on the couch with him on top of me. Ah yes, another make out session.

I'm gripping his shoulders as his area rubs against mine and I moan really loud.

I feel him start to pull on the hem of my shirt and I lift my arms up giving him permission to take it off.

He kisses my bare chest, bites on my neck and down my chest leaving me with hickeys everywhere.

I grab his shirt and rip it off as he just grins at me.

I move my hands up and down his toned abs and touch his belt.

I bite my lip and raise an eyebrow.

"John are you sure you want this?" Alex asks as his member pokes out at me.

"It's not the first time Alex, of course I want this" I grin and continue to rub him through his pants causing him to moan.

I pull his pants off and climb on top of him.

I sit on his member and grind while kissing him.

Alex begins to touch my belt and I pull my pants off.

He flips us over and starts to kiss me with every feeling he has.

It's a mix of love, anger, sadness and greediness.

Our hands are touching everywhere and we're closing every inch of space between us.

We need to be closer to each other but we're closer than ever.

"P-please" I beg.

"Yes baby ok" he says and grabs the foil packet.

He slips it on and enters me.

I enjoy the moment and ease into him.

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I wake up and see Alex's hand laying across my waist.

I turn around and snuggle into his chest.

"Fun night?" He mumbles.

"One to remember" I whisper into his chest.

We look at each other and kiss so softly it feels like nothing but it means everything.

"Can you be mine again?" Alex whispers into my hair.

"I don't know" I sigh.

"When will you know?" He sounds so sad.

"Alex, I love you, I just don't want to be hurt again" I say.

"I love you" he says and kisses my forehead.

I get out of bed and run downstairs to make us breakfast.

As I crack an egg I hear the shower run

*sizzle pop* "OW" I scream.

Someone falls down the stairs and I see a worried wet Alex on the floor.

"I thought you stabbed yourself or something" Alex mutters.

I look at him and I laugh, I laugh so hard tears are coming down, I laugh so hard I feel like I might die.

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a/n; expect random updates because my life is unorganized. also sorry for the short chapter.