Guilt is perhaps the most painful companion of the death

Y/N:

I was running in the woods panting hardly in the darkness. I kept running like something was chasing me. "Y/n" manly voice cooed in the silence of forest mocking me. It was the same guy. My eyes wandered around in the dark to see him but no one was there. I got tired of running. I was nowhere near to fight him but I want to stop running. My mind was screaming me to run but I stood there waiting for something to happen. Tears were streaming down my face as I was shivering afraid of something which I don't know.

I waited in the darkness for something which could kill me. That's when I heard the footsteps behind me and immediately I know he was getting closer. Panic flooded through me as I heard the sound of footsteps get closer but I stood grounded. "I see you got braver" he whispered in my ear making me go stiff. He pulled me by his arms around my waist. "Let me go" I could feel his hot breath at my neck. I screamed and pried his arms of off me in fear.

"I am going to enjoy your death" I kicked him in the knee and he lost his grip. "I won't let you do that" he smirked walking to me. "What are you gonna do?" I took a step back when he forwarded making his smirk wider. "You are not what I heard you are" I looked at him confused. "We will meet soon. Be prepared" His eyes were pure black with full of fury and he have the dangerous aura around him. His lips turned upwards with a sinister smile. I backed up trying to get away from him but he pulled me back.

"Don't forget me till we meet again" he whispered sweetly before kissing my neck. I jumped at the contact of his cold lips. My head was pounding and I can hear my heart beating in fear. It was too fast. "Who are you?" I managed to ask him the question. He laughed wickedly throwing his head back. "You will find out soon" he pushed me to the tree and as my back touched tree I gasped in pain. Now his teeth grew longer out and he bit my neck.

"Please don't" the words escaped my lips just a whisper. It felt slow motion as his teeth sunk deeper taking my flesh out. Bright light started to fade away as black dots consumed my vision. I couldn't stop cry escaping my lips.

I woke up screaming. I screamed harder when I felt someone holding me. "Y/n, calm down" I calmed a little when I realized it was Jimin. I looked around and realized I am in hospital room. Few wires were connected to my hand and monitor was showing my heart rate. From the number I can say my heartbeat is very high. I checked my body for any wounds but I didn't find anything.

"Are you ok?" I didn't answer Jimin as I was still in daze. I had this dream when I was in my pack too. It was same but this time I fought him. what does the dream mean? I did meet him in the fight too right. Wait Areum. My eyes widened when I realized what happened. "Where is Areum?" Jimin looked sad when I mentioned Areum. "I have to see her" I took out the needles from IV before getting up.

"Calm down, you will hurt yourself" he forced me to sit but I shook my head. "I have to see her first" he made me sit pushing my shoulders. "What happened?" he sighed before sitting in front of me. "I came with Taehyung when you mind linked us. But when we came no one was there. Areum was shot and you were unconscious" I couldn't process what he is saying. Did she die? No, she can't. "She is in critical condition. Doctor is still treating her. Taehyung has been a mess since then"

"What about others?" he wiped a tear looking at me. "Chayeon was injured and is getting treated now. Rogues backed up right after Areum was shot" I sat thinking back to all the events but I couldn't remember clearly. I heard the gun shot. It was all my fault. "Is she going to be ok?" I couldn't help but whisper slowly. "We don't know y/n. She has very low chance of survival" the look Jimin gave me told that she is not going to live long.

"I will take you to her" he took my hand but I couldn't move. I can't see her not in this situation. "I can't see her" I said as few tears dropped from my eyes. "She needs all of us now" Jimin squeezed my hand before helping me up. We both walked to the operating room which was located at the end of corridor. As I got near to her room I felt more remorse. Yoongi oppa and Chorong were sitting outside her room. "You are awake" Chorong pulled me in a hug when she saw me.

I patted her back when she started crying but I couldn't stop myself too. Yoongi oppa gave me assuring smile while I cried with Chorong. "Go and see her" he pointed to Areum room and I slowly went in. I couldn't move after seeing her. She was laying there weakly and lot of wires were connected to her body. Taehyung was holding her hand crying. That's when it hit me she is dying. "Areum" she turned to me when she heard my voice.

"Y/n" she held her hand asking me to hold it. I went near her before taking her hand. "I am sorry" I couldn't help but feel it was my fault.  I sobbed holding her hand in my hands. "I am sorry, I failed to protect you" I kept mumbling crying hardly. "Hey, it wasn't your fault" I shook my head and kept crying. "Don't blame yourself. I chose to come out and get in between you so it wasn't your fault." I sobbed hardly holding her.

"Don't blame yourself for anything" I looked at Taehyung who was looking at us crying silently. "You will be ok" I told her more like myself. She smiled but didn't say anything. "I want to talk to her alone Tae" he looked at her before getting up from his place. He looked at me once before leaving the room locking it from outside.

I couldn't sit there anymore. So, I just got up and left the room crying. It was all my fault. I should have fought better. If I did my job better no one would have got hurt. "Y/N" I kept walking not listening to Jimin. Her words kept ringing in my mind. I can't live with the guilt knowing this is all my fault. But I don't know how to save her either. I walked aimlessly until I reached dead end. I sat there on the hill sobbing loudly.

Take care of Taehyung for me

She sounded like it is the last time she is speaking with me. it might be true too. I can't imagine the pain Taehyung going through now. I went through hell just when Namjoon rejected me. but Taehyung is watching his mate die in front of him. "Y/n" I turned around and saw Jimin. "Don't run like that" he scolded me but I can see concern in his voice. "I am sorry" I said crying. He sat beside me looking at the scenery. "You know it wasn't your fault, right?"

"It is my fault. If I did better she would have been" I couldn't say that word and started crying again. "Shh. Everything will be fine" he pulled me in to his arms rubbing my back as I kept crying. I calmed down from crying after a while. "You were right Jimin" he looked at me confused. "I needed to work on my training. I am not good enough" I said referring to the meeting sniffing.

"Y/n, stop blaming yourself. If you are fault, we also failed in coming soon. Chayeon also failed in protecting the house" he turned so I was facing him. "we can't dwell up in the past forever. Taehyung need us now so just stop this and help him" even though he is wrong about the blame he is right about everything else. We have to be there for Taehyung. I need to be strong for Taehyung and Areum. I promised Areum I will take care of him.

"We called our families. They will be here in an hour maybe" he told me. "Let's go back to pack house" he said offering me his hand. I took his hand getting up. We both made our way back to pack house not knowing what is going on there. I saw lot of cars when I reached pack house. I recognized them as our pack cars. So, their families must have come. "I will be back in few minutes" I told him going in to the pack house.

Pack infirmary is at the right side of the pack house. I need clear my thoughts before facing them. It would be best to take a shower and clear my mind first. "Y/n, you ok?" my eyes teared again at the sight of Jiyong but I blinked them away. "I will be ok" he nodded patting my head. "Get changed. You look awful" I went upstairs not saying anything. 

I stood under shower closing my eyes. Tears mixed with water and kept flowing. I couldn't stop crying. How am I going to face Taehyung and Areum mom? They trusted me with Areum safety but I failed them. I got out of the shower after quite a good time. I sighed when I looked in the mirror. I look awful with dark circles and red puffy eyes. I have huge mark from forehead to cheek on the right side. This must have happened when he strangled me yesterday. I checked my neck remembering he bit me in the dream. My neck was red and it was paining but no mark was there.

I must be going crazy after everything. I changed in to jeans and hoodie pulling my hair in to ponytail. I went downstairs knowing I have to face all of them. "Hey, how are you feeling?" I asked Chayeon when I saw her sitting on the sofa in living room. "Not ok" I felt stupid for asking her now. I was asking about her wound but I forgot the fact how she will be feeling seeing her sister on the verge of death.

"I am sorry" I don't know if I said that cause I couldn't save her or because I asked her this. Either way I felt I should apologize. "Its not your fault" she sighed before getting up from the sofa. She looks terrible with bruises all over her body. "I will go and see mom and Areum" I got up with her knowing I have to meet them too. "Can you check upon Taehyung once" I looked at her confused.

"Isn't he with Areum" she shook her head. "He went out saying he need sometime alone" she left the room and I decided to look for Taehyung. I made my way towards back door which leads to woods. I walked the same path which I went on few minutes back. I saw a figure sitting down on the rock near the hill. I made my way towards him. "Thought I could find you here" Taehyung turned around to look at me.

"What are you doing here?" I took a seat beside him on the rock. "To enjoy the weather" he sniffled wiping his tears. "You should be with her Taehyung" he should spend last moments with her. Even though it is hard for us to accept. "I can't not when I know she won't be here tomorrow" he was crying hard now. "That's why you should be with her" my heart clenched at the sight of him crying.

"Everything will get better" I side hugged him rubbing his back while he cried. "It won't. She is dying and I am left alone. I can't live without her" he was rambling at this point. "I can't live without her. I was about to marry her and live happily. If only I left her there with her family she would have been fine" he got up and I could see his wolf on the surface. "Tae" I said slowly but cursed myself when I saw his eyes. His eyes changed in to black indicating his wolf has taken control.

Jimin come to the hill. Taehyung got out of control

Taehyung shifted in to wolf and jumped on me knocking me out. He lost the control completely. Jimin, I hope you come soon. 

AUTHOR NOTE:

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New chapter. Namjoon will come in next chapters. The story will change a lot in next chapters....

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