Your POV 

It's been about  7 months since we were told about Emily's death. The news has been hard on everyone and especially Reid. He's been showing up to mine and JJ's house for the last 10 weeks crying his eyes out over it. It never takes too long to calm him down but I hate seeing any one of my friends this upset. 

Getting a call from Hotch in the middle of the night, I started what was usually my morning routine and made it into work. Looking at the rest of the team we were all a little on edge. Moving to the conference room we were told to sit before the news was broken to us. My heart hit the floor as I looked at Hotch and JJ. 

"You mean to tell us that-" 

"Emily's alive" Reid's voice was a whisper as he uttered the two words. He looked like he was in a daze. Turning to see the one person we never thought we would we stood as the most of us rushed her for a hug. Morgan stood back as he was with Reid. She turned to look at us after she gave us hugs. 

"I'm really so sorry for everything that I've put you through." she said as she hugged the rest of us. Turning to Morgan she walked over to him and hugged him as he returned it slowly. "Please don't be mad." she said as we looked at her. 

"I have so much to tell you all, but for now I need some help" she said as she briefed us on a case. Getting on the jet we took off. After we landed we got off and got ready to get back to work. 

Emily had tried to talk to Reid about her return and he's done nothing but avoid her. He's pretty upset with JJ and Hotch for not telling him even though he went to her house for 10 weeks straight crying. Biting my lip I grabbed his wrist as he sighed and let his head bow. Pulling him to me as I turned him around he looked at me. 

"Don't be mad. She's alive and back with us again." I said. 

He nodded gently. "You weren't the one that showed up at your house and JJ's for 10 weeks straight and was never made aware" 

"No, but I was the one who cried into my pillow every night before bed, the one who woke up bawling over dreams that she wasn't dead and was still apart of the team. You had people to lean on no questions asked. I grieved alone." I said as I let him go gently. 

He looked at me for a moment before he looked back over to JJ. "I couldn't tell you, Spence" 

"Couldn't or wouldn't?" he asked as he turned to walk off. "I couldn't" 

"Do you know that I almost started to use dilaudid again?" 

"But you didn't" 

"I still could have" he said as he walked away quickly with a file in his hand. The rest of the team watched as I sighed heavily and shook my head. "Let's get this case over with" I said as I walked by the rest of them and followed him. The case was done soon enough and we were already on our way back. Reid was in the back of the plane by himself before Emily got up from her seat next to me and walked over.

Sitting down in front of him he ignored her as he read. "Reid. I'm sorry about what I put you through. It gave me an ulcer, please don't give me another one." he looked up at her as he leaned back in his chair. "I know you grieved a friend, and I grieved six of them" she said as he looked at her. 

He nodded gently as I watched Emily walk back over and start catching up with JJ. Getting up slowly I moved over to where Reid was. Sitting by him he continued his reading while we landed. Everyone got off the plane while I grabbed my things and got ready to get off. I stopped when Reid stood in front of me and wrapped his arms around my waist. Looking up at him he looked at me. 

"I don't want to hear anything about you not having anyone to lean on. Whenever you need me call me, I don't care if it's 3 in the morning. I will run over and even though I'm not good socially, I'll do my damndest to make you feel better." 

Blushing gently I nodded before he hugged me. Pulling away I kissed his cheek as he tried not to smile. Letting me go we made it off the jet and to the cars as the rest of the team was leaving. Morgan was picking on Reid as we got into the car since he had some lipstick on his face. He wiped it off quickly as he tried his best not to look at me. 

Getting home we got to our cars and I grabbed his hand gently. "Wanna come over? I have some new books and documentaries that need reading and watching." I said as he looked at me. Smiling he nodded before we got into my car and drove over to my house where he read a book while I made dinner. Hearing his frequent page turning I smiled gently as I looked over to see him. Closing the book he had he picked up the next one. 

"Do me a favor?" I asked as he looked up at me and hummed. 

"The next time you think about using, you call me." I said and he put his book down before he came into the kitchen. "Is that an order?" he asked as he looked at me. 

"It's a request, I don't want you to ruin that brain of yours, and I don't like the Reid that pretends to be my friend when you use." He walked over and hugged me tightly as he sighed. "I won't do it again, I promise. I hate seeing you upset like that."