We just lost our insurance so I can't take my medication like I usually do (I take anti-depressants and mood stabilizers) and instead have to take it every other day, but just by not having those stupid pills for one day I'm easily frustrated and I'm crying for no reason and I know it's probably all in my head because I've only gone one day without them. Damn it I just wish things would go my way for once, first my dad had to take on a second job because we needed more money and even then it wasn't enough then we lost our insurance and now this. I know it probably sounds like I'm complaining and believe me I've already yelled at my self to get it together and do better but I'm trying my best and it's just not enough, I'm still not allowed out of the house alone because I ran away and now I stuck between feeling extremely guilty even though it was months ago and feeling angry at myself for still feeling guilty.....I just.....want to be happy, I want to be able to be happy without the help of medication....why does it have to be like this? I just....don't understand...