Let me say something straight

We'll as straight as a lesbian can be

Playing sports while being queer

That's just damn terrifying

I play soccer

Both for my club and for my school

And honest to god it would be awful

If they knew how I ran

They talk often of boys and dates

And I nod along

For I have never been on a date

And definitely not with a boy

But if I had to pick a team to know

It would be my club

They seem more open and less terrified

And we don't have a locker room

Now school is a little different

You see, it is high school in the south

My best friend was spit at for holding hands

With her (ex)girlfriend

So coming out is harder there

Harder than it normally is

And while the gay club is the best

It doesn't mean anyone from my team is there

It's mostly theater kids after all

(what a surprise!)

You see,

High school girls soccer is more intense

They have stadium studs 

Not bleacher babes

And we all share a locker room

You know, changing all the time

It's not that it's a problem

I'm fine with changing in the locker room

It's a thing anyone playing sports is used too

But if they found out

That I liked girls

Well, it's Little Boy

You see,

Some would cry that I was staring

I would never do such a thing

Not only is that an invasion of privacy

Bur incredibly disgusting

And demeaning

But alas it would not be

They would grow weary of me

Any action scrutinized

For any semblance of harassment

Because being in sports

Means being in some of the most

Heterosexual places in the world

Because queerness is for arts

Not something 'strong' like sports

However wrong that may be

I do not know where to go from here

It seems it shall not end

The over Christian world of mine

Where I love God but not in their eyes

For suddenly they would not see

The person that I am

They would only see the pervert

The monster in their midst

They would not see my skill

Or my kindness

Because I am an 'anomaly'

Perhaps I'll tell my coach

So we can be prepared

Just in case the dam breaks

And you know,

The floods come down

But for now I'll be the secret gay

Who lives in her existence

Content with being kind and caring

And hopefully they'll see that too

Because one day I will not

Pretend to be their straight