Your POV

Little do you know.

I hate my life

Little do you know.

I feel alone

Little do you know

I'm dying inside

Little do you know

My life is hell

Little do you know

I want to die

Little do you know

I'm hurting

Little do you know

I'm picking up the pieces one by one

Little do you know

I'm sorry.... Mom...Dad...I couldn't stop him. I couldn't stop him from hurting you. I couldn't bring myself to shoot him. I couldn't have shot him on the balcony. I couldn't have found the will to hit him with the bat. Maybe... Just maybe..you'd still be here.

We would have moved. Had a better life. Forgot about it all. You could have seen my children. You could have walked my down the isle...Daddy..

You could have helped me with the kids... Mommy.. You could....you could have helped me picked out a dress... If only I did things differently.. If only I shot him...if only...if only...

If only I had the balls to do it...I wouldn't be here...you'd be with me... Alive, warm, breathing, happy, laughing, holding, kissing....me....

But nope! I had to be so...stupid...and allow him to live... Now i live with his ass...and I see him everyday...and i can't...find the nerve...to kill him...the way he killed you...I can't...do it...

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Those are the sane thoughts. That have ran through my head. Since I got here. Since they died.  Since I couldn't pull the trigger.

But do I let them see this? Do I let him see this? Fuck no! The only person that could ever see this. Would be Slender himself.

I don't know what it is. But for some odd reason. I can reach out to him. I can let him see me in my worst hours. And yet. I don't care.  I don't care what he sees, thinks. Anything really.

Could it be because he's the only one I can trust? Only one I look up to? No, its because, he's like a father to me. Weird right? It makes no sense to me. So for now. I'll stand here. While tears flood my vision and cascade down my face. Staining my cheeks and shirt.

So until that day comes. That I can understand why. Is the day these tears stop. After all everything happens for a reason right? So for now...I think I'll write a poem... I was always told I was good at those...

Understanding

You will never see
Or understand.
The tears that fall from me
So for now we'll stand

For now I will be strong
Even though it is wrong
So sing me a song

But until then
When you understand
But tell me when
So for now we'll stand

Hand in hand
Maybe its for the better
That they're in the sand
And will never get my letter

So please understand
What I've been through
So together in hand
Together we'll sew

On the words
Long forgotten
Lost by swords
In ears that are rotten

"I love you"

For now that little poem will be long forgotten in the back of my mind. Never to be read. Never me to be held. Never to be seen. Never to be anything. But until then. I hope you'll understand. That I love you.

And even though I hate what I've become. I have learned to love it. In its short time. I will love it until the day I lay by my parents.

But until then. I hope to see you look at me. All of you. Even that bastard snow white.....

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I sigh and lay on my bed as I take the poem. I read it over before standing. I walk out if my room and creep down the hall as everyone in the mansion is asleep. I kneel down his office door. And slide it over the floor. Until it reaches the darkness. Of his office. So until he sees it tomorrow morning. It will forever be unknown.

I Creep back to my room and snuggle into my bed. Although it has been a long night if remembering and writing. Tomorrow will be a better day. Filled with fun, hate, and murder. So for now. I'll be enveloped in sleep. And until I am ready to face the new day to come. And see their faces. Sally, BEN, Eyeless Jack, Slender, Smile, Laughing Jack, Masky, Hoodie, all of them. And tomorrow I will smile. Even maybe...just maybe..at Snow White.

Dude... Six parts already whaaatt? Awesome...I hope you like it so far. Idk if its good at all or not but...those that read...Thank you! You guys are that light...at the end of the tunnel... In my darkest hours...you make me write...you make me forget...you make me lose my reality...to go into one...for you guys...I love you for that...I owe you everything...all 289 of you...thank you... I love you...💜💖💕💟💞💝💘💗