Week has passed since Varna.Faced one of harsh truths.Of her life again.She didnt say word to Karuna or Prakash.She returned that day.Quiet and calm soaking her tears.Within herself.They couldnt ask her anything.Shakthi didnt make any call.Varna didnt do any contact.With his house anymore.She has made up her stand.For Varna Shetty her self respect meant everything.She wont beg for love.She never did in life.She asked to return to Chennai back.How long they going to stay.No one was left.Ramya has gone.

Vivaan packed his bag for office.Looking at his son.Playing in his cradle.His face gives him breathe.Every day to live.Till he comes back from work.He had Pranush on mind.Shivani has been staying home.Take care of Pranush.Others started work.Everything has to become normal.It was Vivaan for whom.Life stayed still.He was on dilemma.How to work and care for his son.

Sh-"Vivaan have breakfast then leave.I wanted to ask you something."

Nandini helped with breakfast.She left for hospital.With Reyansh leaving too.Shivani and Vivaan were left.On table.Pranush was brought down.By Vivaan settled.On his cradle there.He kept his eye on her.Shivani smiled at his son.Worries her how he was.Tiring himself with work.It wasnt possible.Care for infant in that way.

V-"Yes Mom sorry.This little one.Keeps me busy.

He will be naughty.Once grows up."

Sh-"Like you.You were same."

V-"No like his mom.He is reflection of Ramya."

Sh-"Vivaan I think.We should keep nanny for Pranush.

He is too small.He needs someone.Every time.Look after.We cant take chance.Im there.

But not enough."

V-"Im there for him.Mom and what if whoever we keep.Treats him badly.

I dont want him.Suffer any kind of pain.Please I will manage."

Sh-"Try understand Vivaan.You have to go for work.How will you run like this.

Will hamper your health.She will be there day time.I will also keep eye.You can be with.

Your son from evening."

Vivaan didnt have heart.Give his baby's responsibility someone else.He shut his eyes.Shivani was right.He cant be with him always.He needed care.He looked at Ramya's pic.Wasnt a day.He wouldnt wish she left.He fought with her.For leaving him and their son.He had no option.Say yes for nanny.

Varna standing in open terrace.She looked blank.She has become stone.Emotions doesnt hit her.Shakthi came from back.He tried to touch her.But shut his eyes.He wish nothing would happened.His brother sent him in excuse.Didnt have any urgent work.He knew and he had fight with him.How he ruined everything behind his back.When he came to know.He was shocked.Find them inhuman.Telling truth to Varna.As well as her home.He came this morning.In evening he couldnt stop.Form visiting Varna.

Sh-"Im your culprit.Punish me you want.Varna I dont deserve you."

V-"I see no one wrong Shakthi.Its all my fate.

Please dont punish yourself.Live your life."

Sh-"Life is with you.Ever I started seeing you.As part of me.

My love for you.Cant fall down in any situation."

V-"But it can weaken.For my weakness.Which may cost you.

Your happiness.Not possible."

Shakth went to her.Held her from shoulders.She met his eyes.Hers have gone cold.More than he saw.Earlier and he felt bad.Being reason she did that.To herself.He didnt say word.Crushed her to his arms.He shut his eyes.Tightened his arms around her.He wanted promise her.For life he is there.With her and his love.Will be her strength.Varna shut her eyes.For once she wanted.To depend on someone.If she can get some love.At mercy and sympathy for her life.

Few days went like that.Life was slowly settling.Varna thought things would be better.Prakash and Karuna were relieved.After Shakthi promised them.He would bring his brother back.Have talk and fix date for wedding.He apologized for mistake.Varna didnt have hopes.From his family.She knew they were right.In their place.Where was she wrong.She asked for chance.Which no one ready to give.

Few days Varna and Shakthi met.He came to drop her one evening.After dinner and Karuna could see.What she havent for time.Smile on Varna's face.She prayed for keeping smile.For long.Varna felt life could get back to her.She was sitting in front of dresser.She touched saree.Shakthi bought for wedding.Her eyes teared up.She remembered Ramya excited.For wedding and plans they made.She went to open.Her luggage and saw everything.Shopping for her big day.In life.It would always be impossible.For her be happy without Ramya.

Shakthi was trying to convince his brother.He was adamant.Shakthi too stated he would.Marry Varna only.His brother had no option.He said yes for having.Talk with Prakash.They were to come.Next Sunday for tea.This made Varna hopeful.For change she wanted things.To go smooth.They cant plan marriage.For least some time.Ramya's grief havent left them.It will take time.

Varna was seen in kitchen from morning.Karuna was shocked.See her.She touched her head.Varna smiled lightly.she sent her to rest.Get ready for evening.Varna was trying hard.Work it out with Shakthi.He was one who.Loved her and she believed.His faith on their relationship.Kind of restored her gloomy life.She got ready.Checked herself on mirror.Wearing her ear rings.One of them fell down.She frowned.Karuna came running.Taking Varna's name.She looked tensed.

V-"Aththai what happened."

K-"Varna Pranush.He is serious.

Taken to hospital."

Varna felt her feet.Swayed in ground.She couldnt move.Stumbled back.Ear rings fell from her hand.Her world was in panic.Again Ramya's face.Voice came to her.She couldnt see her last time.Now her last symbol.Was Pranush.How she forgot him.Being selfish.He was only one.Breathed life to her after.She lost Ramya.Varna was about to collapse.

Vivaan paced outside room.In hospital as he saw.His baby treated inside.Nandini was with senior doctor.Attending to Pranush.He had fever from weeks.They thought it was normal.It worsened when fever didnt come down.From last two days.He wasnt eating anything.He had lung infection.As well another tests were running.Vivaan joined his both hands.Covered his face.Felt stressed and failure.He feared.What if he loses Pranush too.Like Ramya.

R-"Anna I have called home.Asked them.To stay back.We are here.

Think we need to.Keep Pranush here for tonight.Hold yourself Anna.Need to be strong."

V-"Know Reyansh.I dont know.How to be strong now.

If I can any longer.Its my fate.Cursed I think."

R-"Anna nothing will happen to Pranush.He is an angel.

He will be fine."

V-"I just want to see.My son healthy.

Fine and smiling.He havent been.Fine since weeks.I was busy working.

Ignored his health."

Their talks were stopped.Nandini and doctor came out.Were informed Pranush had infection.Which fever wasnt healing.He has to be for a night in hospital.Another heart breaking news.Came in form of.Pranuash having weak heart.Vivaan felt broken from inside.He remembered Ramya.She has wished.Her baby to never have.Illnes like her.She knew how it feels.Suffer for long.Vivaan shut his eyes.Feeling Reyansh hand on his shoulder.He heard doctor.Pranush's case wasnt critical.He was baby.He had chances of recovery.Diagnosis was in initial stages.

Pranush was in emergency.Slowly taking breathes.Tiny nose where attached.Small oxygen pipe.He moved lightly.His hands.Tiny fingers.As he felt some touch.Varna caught his hand.Kissed them.His feet and head.Softly and mumbled something.Nandini,Reyansh and doctor were outside.Shocked with response of baby.To Varna's touch.They waited for hours.See any improvement in his.Condition till Varna came.Barged inside room.Finding shocking sight.Her heart couldnt see.Small bundle in such heavy room.

D-"Dr Nandini I had doubts.Baby would improve.But now.

Looks like miracles do happen.Ask her to stay.Who is she?"

N-"Sir she is.Like mother.

One who can connect.To Pranush.Like no one can."

Nandini smiled.Faintly and Reyansh too felt same.Varna and Pranush's bond.Was same as that of hers.With Ramya.Reyansh looked back to find.Vivaan standing.He heard them and didnt like.He was happy Pranush was improving.That was one day.When he didnt mind Varna's presence.If she had more effect on Pranush's life.Than him it didnt matter to him.He was tired of losing.To fate and now he needed.Even if miracle could save him.

Varna kissed Pranush.On his head.He opened his eyes.Giving powerful smile.Just like his mother.Melted everyones heart.He was released from hospital.After a week.Everyone felt relived.Nandini and Reyansh were busy with formalities.As she gave him back to.Nandini from her lap.Pranush tugged at Varna's stole.Breaking his face.He wasnt happy.Parting from her.Vivaan saw that.He rubbed his head.Kissed baby.Patting him to ease him.Varna tried do same.Their hands came contact.Both frowned and moved.Nandini took away Pranush.Vivaan asked Reyansh drop Varna home.

Prakash and Karuna were sitting.Found Varna coming.Home with Reyansh.Prakash didnt look pleased.For one week Varna.Has gone to some different zone.Busying herself day and night.With Pranush taking care of him.They went to hospital.See him and then.Varna was asked come back.Too that there are people.For Pranush to handle things.She acted stubborn.Staying back and not moving.What worsened in this time.Shakthi and his family came.That day when Varna went to hospital.Shakthi understood emergency.He also went to see baby.Many times.But what got him.Offended was Varna's ignorance towards him.

Sh-"Appa I respect you.And Aththai.Your every decision.

My love for Varna.Considered by my family.Anna agreed for my happiness.

What do I answer him now.Fighting for girl.For whom I hold no importance.

Have been seeing her.She didnt busy herself.With Ramya this much.But baby.I fear if.

He is more important o her.Than her own life."

P-"I understand Shakthi.Varna sees Pranush as last symbol.Of Ramya.

So she is possessive for him.I will make her understand.Give me time.Things will be fine soon."

Prakash remembered conversation with Shakthi.Last day when he came.Reyansh was behind.Seeing look.Prakash gave to his daughter.Everyone back at home.Thought Varna came as angel.In saving Pranush.Vivaan didnt objected too.But he didnt knew.Some thing else happened.In this side.Varna was not giving.Priority to her own life.It was true.She needs to have life too.Any guy in Shakthi's place.Feel offended.

K-"Prakash I have sent Varna.Pranush was critical.Its okay.

Shakthi will understand.If we try to make him.Varna go and rest.Talk to him."

P-"This is my tension.Akka we cant lose Shakthi.He has been for her.In hard times.

That boy has been patient.Tell me.How can Varna ignore him.Pranush has his father.

Us and family.Varna has no one.Shakthi will be her future.Plus her medical condition.

Who agrees to marry.Its Shakthi who came or else."

Reyansh took leave.But he frowned hearing truth.What was Varna's condition.Why Prakash said like that.He went home.In confusion.When he returned.Vivaan saw him in disturb look.What they got to know.About Varna and Shakthi.Was Shakthi's parents.Tried breaking alliance.Due to some reason.But they didnt knew anything.More regarding her health too.

Varna tried calling Shakthi.Number of times.He wasnt answering her calls.He was busy with drink.Trying to stop loneliness.corner him and he couldnt.Endure ignorance from girl.He loved selflessly.Varna shut her eyes.As her head dropped on pillow.She didnt realise when she slept.She was too tired.Her body was also weak.Shakthi changed his mind.Calling her back.But finding no answer.He gave sarcastic grin.Throwing phone away.He looked at their engagement pic.There he couldnt find.Smile on her face.He thought its time.Should face truth.Her truth.His truth he knew.

Another week went.Same manner except.Shakthi ignoring Varna.He answered Prakash's calls.If needed but Varna.Couldnt reach him.She was frustrated.With herself too.Her health problems tested.Her patience.Medicines she took kept her dizzy.She was mostly find sleeping.Shakthi wanted see if she.Tries to reach him as madly.As he did for her.But he was observing her.He was restless.He couldnt hurt her.

Varna was sitting in stairs.Wind was blowing.Harshly and looked like.Storm would start soon.Her face looked strained.Dark circles were there.Shakthi came.Smirked at her.Finding her glaring at him.She stood up.Walking to him.With rage in eyes.

V-"What kind of behavior is this Shakthi.If you want to avoid me.Tell me.

I wont disturb you.Can live your life.Do you know.How I survived this time.Tried reaching to you.

You were busy.With yourself.Do you know how it feels.To be avoided and ignored."

Sh-"Asking me Varna how I feel.Have you thought.I feel when you do same.

With me.Avoiding me.Ignoring my wants.Wishes every time.How does it sound."

V-"Shakthi what are you saying.When did I do that."

Sh-"When did you not.I dont take count.Or keep all things.On heart.

Rather Im here.Today to ask you one question.Can you answer from heart?"

Varna didnt say anything.She stood in disbelief.She felt weak.Dizzy due to medicine effect.Shakthi's face didnt give her.Comfort this time.Unlike it made her tensed.Her heartbeats were not proper.He talked slowly.

V-"Wish I had answer.To everyones question.What do you.

Want to ask?"

He smirked.Then caught her from shoulders.Lightly not breaking eye lock.He spoke softly.With intense look.

Sh-"Did you ever loved me.From heart.Varna Shetty?

Did you ever.Find yourself.Keeping me top of many.Things of importance in your life.

Did you.Find me.Capable of.Making part of your life?Do you love me Varna?"

His words caught her.Locked in a web.Of emotions and she stumbled.Back slowlyletting his hand.Leave his hold.Shakthi knew.What it meant.He understood it back.But he wanted to hold.On to hope like last string.He gulped hard and braced himself.He wanted himself to lose.Wished she would say.What he wasnt saying.

V-"Shakthi why are you.Doubting me.

I dont.I want to be with you.Very much like you do.Im caught up.badly my head hurts."

Sh-"No Varna.I beg you not to.Do this with yourself.This time.

Excuses have ruined.You till here.Not anymore.As well wisher.I wont allow.That to you."

V-"Well wisher.Why are you."

Sh-"Some answers come.In way we cant discover.But when he do.Meaning haunts us.

I have got this answer.Long ago.My heart wasnt willing.Accept it.But I have to."

V-"Shakthi please.Trust me.

Dont misunderstand me."

Sh-"Dont misunderstand yourself Varna.I request you.Its time need to know.Difference between.

Love and liking.Shakthi doesnt need your sympathy.He needed love.Which you cant give?"

Shakthi was slowly.Taking bac his steps.Going away.With heavy heart.Teary eyes.Varna tried stop him.Caught his hand.Storm has started.It was so strong.Her stole Hist his face.He gave faint smile.Covered her back with it.She tried coming closer to him.He stopped her.In way left her in shock.He pulled ring.Out of his finger.Which she made him wear.During thei rengagement.He gave it back.To her hand.

Sh-"This is last string.That binded us.In name sake relationship.

Cant hold on to weight.Of this.Think you too.Feel same.Listen to your heart.

What it says.Im sure you know.Whom you loved.One day I will face you.With name.

You will then know.And understand why.I took decision."

Shakthi parted away from her.She called for him.Her voice was lost.In heavy showers.Rain poured down.Varna fell down.Sitting in stairs.Rain washing away her.Every hope and wait.She held on to for this time.She felt like crying.Loudly and first time.Not fearing what would.Anyone say.Questions her for her action.Varna let her fears and pain.Face the rain.She sobbed and her whimpers.Had no one to hear.She thought why her life was.Planned like this.Not how normal girl has it.Why she has to face.From beginning being.On two different.Threshold for giving up.On every thing.

Love doesnt come.Planned in life.It happens in blink of eye.Same happened with her too.She was elated.Face love and experience.She felt she could.Live her life like any girl.Discovering new emerging feelings.Before it crushed down.She has shut herself.Wilingly becoming maize.No one can solve.It wasnt out of choice.Out of fear she had to.She shut her eyes.Remembering day.First time he came to her life.Moments he challenged her.Times when he came to her.Why it was planned.Why Vivaan Reddy had to come.To her life first.He had to trap.Her in a web.

Varna remembered day.Vivaan sent orchids.In her hotel room.She wasnt girl.Used to liking receiving flowers.But she accepted them.Her heart was held up.With new feelings.She thought she.Was getting caught in love.Beautiful feeling every person.Would love to embrace in life.Her life came to.Halt when he chose Ramya.Over her.Who has same face as her.Varna wasnt Vivaan's first choice.It broke and gave Varna Shetty another reason.Keep herself back to her shell.She lost willingly.Taking defeat as her luck.She fell for Vivaan.He is her first love.Shakthi was right.She could never love him.She was selfish.Demand his support.Him to hold her hand.When she couldnt become.His even when she tried to.

V-"I hate you Vivaan Reddy.I dont love you.

I dont love you."

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Biggest revelation has taken place.Varna's first love.Was yes many guessed it.Here clarification from my side.Like to request some of readers.Dont judge any character.Too early.Slowly they will come out.

Have lot of things to tell you.Forgive me for not being able to.Ready any works here.I apologize all my writer friends.Im not reading anything.Work and life keeping me busy.I have health issues too.Advised take rest.For sprain on my right hand.Cant put pressure on my fingers.So Im not sure if I can.Provide regular updates too.

I will try to.Get done with books.As soon as possible.Request you to be.Bit patient with me.Will start reading soon.Once I get free.

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