Next morning Vivaan woke up early.Last day was spent with worrying about Varnas decision.They werent involved in any more argument.She has become quiet.He wasnt scared about her decision.He was expecting her to leave home.He knew his behavior has been inhuman.Inconsiderate towards her.He apologized for that.But he was kind of sure.She wasnt considering him.He smiled at thought of relationship.They have been hating on each other.From start without any reason.He wondered about his perception towards her.

Door to her room was open.Vivaan entered and found Pranush on crib.His eyes were wide open.He was awake.Not making any noise.Seemed like his stomache was full.He picked him up in his arms.Wishing him morning.He was happy to be in warmth of fathers arms.He played being joyful.Vivaan looked around for Varna.It was complete silence in room.He thought if she already left.He came out of room.Walking outside to open area.Taking seat there.Covering baby properly.

V-"So its Pranu and appa time.Lets play.Tell me do you like spending time with Appa."

Pranush giggled as if giving response to his father.Vivaan was elated to see.His son happy and smiling.From birth he has seen his baby.Sufferring and being on bad health.Poor soul had to bear so much.He kept on giving him kisses.Making him giggle.He threw his tiny hands and feet.Enjoying time with his father.After some time Vivaan held him close to his art.He shut his eyes and spoke to him.

V-"Your amma left us.I promise I wont ever let.Anything happen to you.No matter who is with us.Leaves us.Its ok.We are here for each other.Right Pranu."

Baby frowned.In his language expressed his anger.Vivaan smiled sadly and kissed him.Patting his back.He knew one who have to suffer most.If Varna leaves will be his son.He cant do anything.For his selfish reasons he cant ruin her life.She has right to live.No one has right to force decisions on her.He has understood her this bit till now.She wasnt someone.Who would accept others decisions taken for her easily.He wanted her to be happy.So he was ready to be there.For his son.

V-"Im sorry Pranu.Appa cant get her for you.You are very good boy.I know you will understand right."

His face broke.As Vivaan embraced him in hug.Sharing his pain and heart out.He was in such dilemma.He couldnt do good for his son.By doing something bad to someone elses life.Varna has right to live.Her life way she wants.He wont let anyone judge her this time.Least he knows why she went away.Because he was one who gave her choice.

Whole day he had to skip office again.Helper came but she wasnt able to handle Pranush.Varna never gave him to anyone else.She was only one taking care of him.From morning she was gone somewhere.Vivaan checked her room and found her luggage wasnt there.He understood from that.Wasnt he expecting such move from her.He wasnt blaming her any way.Handling Pranush wasnt easy.He had to find some way.It was difficult for him to attend calls from office.As well as calm down his baby.Who wasnt showing any mercy on helper or his father.

It was evening when helper left.She wanted to stay.Vivaan asked her to leave.Saying he will handle Pranush.Baby have been acting stubborn from morning.When he realized Varna wasnt taking him.Vivaan wasnt surprized one bit.He have understood bond that girl shared.With Pranush and he was helpless in situation.He forcefully fed him milk few times.He cried whole day.Since helper left he again started crying.His face gone red.He didnt knew how to calm him down.He tried giving him some warm water from spoon.Pranush wasnt taking it.His cries got louder.Making him worried.He caught his had.Thought to call for doctor.

Vivaan was inside room when heard doorbell.He covered Pranush with blanket.Patted him but he was crying again and again.He hurried way to open door expecting doctor.As he opened door and turned around.He stopped in his steps.He looked back finding Varna standing.Her face was drenched in tears.Eyes puffy and red.She didnt look at him.Before he could question her they heard cries of Pranush.Varna run inside room.Vivaan stood with sense of relief hitting him.But he didnt knew reason why she came back.He thought she left.Deciding on her life.

Like magic he saw his son.Being kissed by her and taken in her embrace.He was crying but not like before.Varna went to bed.Wiping her tears and didnt let Pranush.Away from her for a second.She shut her eyes.In relief feeling him.Vivaan just stood near door.Watching this and he didnt want to question her.

After some time.Varna was patting Pranush to sleep.When she felt Vivaans presence.She adjusted her stole.Carefully placing baby on crib.Checking on him.He had his milk and was lulled to sleep.By one whom he was used to.She kissed his head.Tiny hands and wiped her tears again.Vivaan was seeing all this.Varna looked at him.She had no answers to give.He will ask him.What will she tell him.Both came out of room.Silently maintaining their hold on themselves.Vivaan broke silence with much difficulty.

V-"Why did you come back Varna.I thought you chose your way.Which will make you happy.You didnt have to do.This for others.Its ok.I understand your decision.You didnt have to sympathize Pranush.It will take time.But he will be fine.Lets not get into this again.I did tell you about what I feel.What should be done in this situation.One cant live whole life.Like this in confusion.We have to take decision.You dont have to worry about anything.I will answer everyone.Whatever has been done.Its for everyones well being.Why are you silent now.Say something."

Varna raised her eyes.Meeting his and he could see pain in them.He wondered how come he never had sense.To think from other side.He was lost in his grief and pain.There are times when you have to.See other side of coin.Varna was fumbling.He was seeing her like this first time.

Var-"I dont know.How one can live in confusion.I dont know what to do with my life.I left today.Taking decision for myself.I wanted to do this.Always and I thought.I will be happy.But happiness is far away from me.I dont think I can ever get reach.All I know and care.Pranush is my life.He has become part of me.I cant live without him.Please dont separate me from him.Your hate for me.Cant lessen love I have for him.If not as mother.I will be his helper.Let me be with him."

She broke down into sobs.Vivaan was stunned to witness strong Varna.Breaking down into pieces.What was she doing this for.He was taken back.Not in state to question her.Look for any words match hers.

V-"I dont know who have wronged you in life.I know that I dont want to.You are free from any shackles.That bind you to any responsibility  forced on you.I wont judge you.Pranush wont and.Ramya wont.You dont have to sacrifice your life.For your sisters son.I have been harsh towards you.Maybe I wont be able to.Give you respect you deserve.Even if I do give now.Wont sound genuine to you.Its difficult for both of us.This situation and unwanted relationship.Better if you make your life.Way you want to."

Var-"I thought whole day.What to do in my life.Where to go.Whom do I have with me.No one except myself.I know you love your son.He is your wifes last symbol.You want best for him.But trust me.I will do everything for him.That keeps him happy.Just let me.Held on to this last string.Please I request you.I have lost everything."

Varna fell down on her knees.Whole day she has been walking on fire.Trying to make her mind.Understand what to do ahead in life.Wasnt her life meaningless.She wanted to run away.Tortured and tired from people.Judging her and forcing decisions on her.She has right to live hr.Life way she wants to.But her life has no meaning now.She has stopped feeling anything.Except the pull she feels towards baby.Who was flesh and blood of her sister.Whom she loved more than her life.Was she attached to Pranush.Because of Ramya.She didnt knew anything.Except one thing.She was sure.She cant leave him.He has become his life.From time she held him.

Vivaan made her stand on her feet.He was helpless.Being in such situation.He thought he was right.On guessing what she wants.But she was Varna.He cant try to understand her.He looked at her dishieveled state.His eyes bored into hers.

V-"If there is anyone who can give.Same love to my son.Like Ramya.Thats you.I knew this.You dont have to beg for your right.Pranush is yours.You have every right to give him love and care.Im no one to give you authority.If you have made up your mind.I think it will be selfish for me to say.I could give this much happiness to my son.You deserve him.As mother."

Whole night both couldnt sleep.Turning and tossing on bed.Varna knew why she came back.For Pranush she gave in to her adamant decision.About going away from everyone.For him she can bear being close to all people.Whom she cant bear to be with.Vivaan was in equally confused state.He was at point in life where he knew.He has taken decision for his son.Varna will be mother to him in every sense.But this relationship was like.Burden on them.He feared how things will go on in near days.He dreaded every situation.All he knew he has to.Live and not fall back.Under any circumstances now.He promised to himself.His ego wont hold back himself.From doing what he has to do.

Few weeks passed in same manner.Vivaan tried to keep things minimal.Normal between them.Their visits to Shetty house was limited.Starting from going office in morning.Till he came home at night.Varna conversed in minimal words.If necessary but there was change.Hatred wasnt feeling their eyes showed.Every time they were in each others presense.It lessened and gone or not.Time will decide that.Varna kept herself busy with Pranush.She knew he meant to her.She will do anything to keep him happy.Be with him.Vivaan noticed her every move.For Pranush.How far she could go for his sake.At times he wanted to initiate conversation.With Varna but he could sense her avoiding it.

Like this duration for their stay ended.Finally it was time to get back to home.Vivaan wasnt pleased either.Like Varna.Both were in deep thinking.How will they manage to.Hide truth of their relationship.Despite of their married status.Being away as strangers.Living under same roof alone is different.Now it will be difficult.They have to face others.Their last night in Chennai was spent.In tension and both couldnt let their eyes feel heavy.One bit thinking what will tomorrow bring.

Karuna kissed Pranush shedding tears.Vivaan touched Prakashs feet.Varna took blessings.She wasnt familiar with her own family.They could sense her reluctance.They bid farewell to them and prayed in mind.That they get deserving happiness soon.In life.

Sitting at airport.Vivaan looked at her beside him.Tucking buttons of Pranushs jacket.He was being so easy with her.He does opposite with him.He touched his head.He wanted to have word with her.But he wasnt sure how to start.He knew he has to.before it gets late and they reach Hyderabad.His family didnt have idea about few things.That took place in these months.He cleared his throat.Trying to grab her attention.She didnt pay heeds to him.

V-"We need to be clear about this.Before we reach Hyderabad.I hope you are aware of.What our family expects from us.They knew in what situation we have gone for this.But now things will change.With time expectations will increase.I dont know how it will be managed.We have to be patient.I have hurt enough people.In my life.Now Im just tired.So its better if we keep some truths.To ourselves.Rest let everyone think what they want to."

As Vivaan went ahead carrying Pranush.Varna stared at him.She hard him wisely.But she wasnt sure herself.How to face his family.Its been three months she was tied up.In unwanted bond with him.She wasnt an easy person to deal with.More than that she was scared.To be around so many people.Who may judge her again.She felt tired.Thinking how much she has to be patient.Difficulties wont leave her ever.

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