Varna came out from nauseating place.Losing her heart and mind.She could feel her breath.Giving away as she.Went to garden area outside.She ran away from there.Getting back home.She knew how she survived.For this time.Same feelings and torture.Words felt like to her.She shut her eyes.Opened them showing fury and helplessness.She was shaking with anger.She clenched her fists.Remembering words spoken for her.Which pierced her soul.

Var-"Every time.Every time they do this.Why I have to.Take all this.Why am I destined.Hear same thing.I dont want to.I dont."

She covered her ears.Then face with her palms.Her eyes were filled up with tears.Making way down her cheeks.She was sobbing.Her misery was unplanned.Yet planned all the time.She had to go through.Same situation.In life.She dreaded of.She could still hear.Words and taunts for her.Fresh to her ears.She heard ladies speaking.How Ramya passed away so soon.It was unfortunate.They had to get her twin married to Vivaan.But she was nowhere close to Ramya.Not sweet and social like her.She had attitude problem.She cant be like Ramya.She was a well behaved.Cultured girl.Another side she heard.Women discussing how.She doesnt wear.Any symbol of married woman.Poor Vivaan had to get wife like this.

Her face was red with tears.Leaving traces.She looked at her palms.Frowning and could.See same things happening to her.She is compared with her own sister.Ramya always.When she thought.She can try to run away from these things.She had to face same fate.She was again taken back.Same point.Truth was that.Varna cant be Ramya.But they want her to be Ramya.Vivaan was unfortunate lose wife like Ramya.Get Varna.She knew.She has this to face.Nothing more.Why did she choose to even go.She covered her face again.Feeling broken for she didnt knew.How many times she had to.Go through same feeling.Shattered and alone.

Vivaan came back.Closing door.With Pranush in his arms.He was rubbing his eyes.Feeling sleepy.He made cry face.He doesnt sleep without Varna.For long time he wasnt seeing her also.Vivaan knew what he had seen.heard in function.He has seen her running away from there.For some reason he wanted to avoid.Function too.Because he was aware.Things still need time.To get back to normal.But he was feeling guilty.Wished he would have let her stay home.

He put Pranush in his cot.Patting him to sleep.He kissed on his head.Then started look for Varna.He caught his head.Didnt knew what to say.How to face her this time.It will be difficult.He checked every place.When found her outside in lawn.He was about to call her.When remembered what he witnessed.In function.

Varna felt uneasy around.So many unknown faces.But she had to stay because of one person.It was Shivani who requested her.Come with them for night.Stay for few minutes.Then she can leave with Pranush.She couldnt say no to her.She had done alot for her.In this time.Varna was amazed with her own self.How in this time.She has developed at least.Some bond with family members.She was looking for Pranush.Finding himself having good time.Being in his fathers arms.She looked at him.Faint smile came on her lips.He was growing so fast.Unlike other babies.He wasnt cribbing around all strangers.Vivaan handled him easily.She was about to turn around.When bumped into some one.Drink fell on that persons dress.

Var-"Im so sorry.I didnt see.Let me help you."

Lady looked at Varna.Closely and frowned.Varna stared at her.With guilt on face.Both got up.Lady was continuously eyeing her.From head to toe.She smiled then.Catching Varnas hands.Making her feel scared.

L-"Hey you are.Ramya right.Shivanis daughter in law.Oh no.We met after so long.Remember Im Jaya Aunty."

Varna looked around.Some staring at them.While she could feel.Same old emotions haunting her.She was getting back to something.She doesnt want to.Lady wouldnt stop.Saying what went above Varnas head.It was clear.She thought Varna was Ramya.Reason was obvious.Varna shut her eyes.Taking her hands back.She wished to run away from there.When someone else came.Joining them.

L-"Ramya why arent you saying something.I heard you have boy now.Sorry coulnt visit you.I need to meet Shivani too.Where is your husband.Last time I made him.So angry.When took you with me.For few hours.Remember."

Ladys voice and words.Were torturing Varna.She excused herself.Without being rude.Going away from there.When heard another woman.Speaking to Jaya.

"Jaya you dont know.Ramya is no more.Poor soul left too soon.Her son and Vivaan.Whole family were devastated."

J-"What are you saying.Oh god.But who is this girl.She looks like Ramya."

Varna clenched her fists.Getting grip on herself.Each passing moment.Was sending shivers down her spine.She didnt knew.If she was more scared.To be in same place anymore.Or be there to hear more.

"She is Ramyas twin Varna.Identical sisters.Heard Vivaan married her.For his son.Poor baby.had to be without mother."

Vivaan didnt have idea.Overhearing conversation.Being a witness.What he should have done.He looked for Varna.It was too late.She went away from there.Leaving him in mess and confusion.If he would confront people.What will he say.It was truth.Sisters had same face.But he even knew that.Understood it well.Ramya and Varna were different.he wished if some people.Could understand that.He left place without second thoughts.In same moment.

He stopped taking a step.When found view.Surpising as well.Amazed with it.Alice was sitting down.Staring at Varna with her eyes on her.Varna was aware of her presence.She didnt run away.Unlike of her.She opened her eyes.Uncovering her face.Looked at Alice.She was calm.Her face fell.Seconds after Varna saw.Alice eyes tearing up.She tried approaching Varnas feet.When Varna moved them.Alice was crying.Varna cried more.Not being able to stop her tears.

Var-"Go from here.I dont need anyone sympathy.What do you think.I dont know.From time you want to be.near me.Why you want.You also search for her in me.Dont you."

Alice didnt respond.She stayed quiet and calm.Staring at Varna.

Var-"You think Im Ramya.No Im not.You will also feel same.I cant give love.She gives to everyone.Be like her.Kind and gentle.Im rude and arrogant.Im a curse.To every persons life.Im curse for my own life.Do you hear me.Go from here.I cant give you what you want.Im not her."

Varna broke down further.When she felt something touching her.Alice was up.To her level.Trying to touch her hand.Hair and she was crying.It was her way of showing.She was there for her.With her.Varna didnt knew.How to argue.Any further.She touched Alice head.Her hands and cried.She rubbed her head.Alice responded to love.Varna realized she have behaving with her.From time saw her.Witnessing duo was Vivaan.Standing at some distance.He could feel affection.A dog has for someone.Here people fail to consider.Human emotions while saying anything.He was thankful to Alice.Someone was there.Whom Varna needed.

Varna came back to senses.She was gentle with Alice.She rubbed her own tears.Made distance with her.Alice understood it.

Var-"Go from here.I dont need anyone.Im not the one.You looking for.I cant be someone else."

Alice pulled Varnas stole.Till it was away from her.It was her way of conveying her.She wanted her.As Varna.Not Ramya.Alice started barking.Varna was already broken with happenings.She didnt have energy to fight back.

Vivaan took Varnas stole from Alice.Getting her back to her house.He returned with it on his hand.Did have idea what.Must be waiting for him.He found Varna sitting still.With hard expression on face.He took seat beside her.Why is it that.When he thought things were getting easy.Something had to happen.He wanted to trigger Varna.In way which will get her out of this.World of hers.She has locked herself.But he didnt want any emotional damage for her.He wasnt saying word.He looked at Varna.Her face had traces of tears.Eyes went red.He observed her keenly.Wasnt first time he was doing that.He shut his eyes.Refraining himself from few things.As he opened his eyes.Looking front.Varna was about to get up.He held her hand.Not looking at her.

She used her force.To get out of his grip.She wasnt in state of mind.To argue with him.She wanted to be alone.What she does always.Be with herself.She was getting angry and frustrated.With each second.Vivaan was rigid.In his mind and decision.His grip on her hand was strong.Varna couldnt fight.She felt weak.

V-"Stay here.Wont let you go.Till you face it off."

Var-"You are last person.Want to be with now.Leave me.Else."

V-"Do whatever want to.I wont."

Var-"I said leave me."

Her nails left marks on his hand.As he flinched.Letting go of her.He could see her in rage.Standing ready to give it back to him.Her breathes were getting high.Vivaan also stood facing her.She looked in mess.He tried taking step closer to her.But she showed her hand.

Var-"Stop right there.I have never accepted anyone.Forcing me.Its different that I have to be part.Of few things without consent.But its my compulsion.You.Stay away from me."

V-"Varna I think you need to talk.Dont do this."

Var-"Why dont you get me.I dont want to talk.With you.Hear you.See your face.It tortures me.hear that?It makes me.Feel insulted.Every day and every moment.When I see you.I feel.Im devastated.My life is ruined.Broken into pieces.Go away from me.Just go away."

Her voice was so loud.He havent heard that from her.Wasnt expecting also.It hit his ego equally.He didnt have any other option.he pulled her from shoulder.Their eyes met.She again started with her attempts.Freeing her from his grip.

V-"You need to get grip.On yourself Varna.This happens in life.We cant change people.Their thoughts.What they say.Shouldnt affect us.Not you at least.I want you to know this."

Var-"Didnt you hear me.I dont want to.Hear or understand.Anything from you.Dont mean anything to me.You are no one.To me."

V-"Shut up Varna.You are losing it.You cant fall back again.Because of someone else.Saying anything.Even person whom you dont know.Let it go."

Var-"Let it go.Right.Its easy for you.to let go and you must have been.used to this.Letting go.Mr Vivaan Reddy.You forget.Thats how you are.But I cant be.Like that."

V-"What the hell.Are you trying to say."

Var-"I dont owe any.Explanation to you."

V-"You do.Because you agree or not.We are connected.By some string.You cant deny that."

Var-"Leave me.I dont want to be here."

V-"Not before you answer me.Tell me Varna.Why so much hate.Whats need for this.Why have you become like this.For whom.Who made you.Suffer so much that you forgot.Your own self.Tell me damn it.Why cant I see same old Varna.Where did she go."

Var-"Its because of you.You brought this devastation to me.You caused every bit of misery.Pain for me.I lost myself.Because of you.You are reason.I hate you.So much.I cant think of.I hate you."

He didnt knew when he released his grip.On her.She also realized.Meaning of her words.What she vent out.In heat of moment.This can raise more questions.Before she could run away from there.Vivaan held her wrist.Pulling her to himself.She winced in pain.Struggling in his hold.She could see his face.Hardened and eyes.Had mixed emotions.He spoke clenching his teeth.

V-"Your words can fool me.But your eyes cant.Your face cant.It says truth.Only truth.But your problem is.You will keep yourself away from.Every truth.Except one you want to say to yourself.Which is big lie.You wanted yourself to accept truth.you hate Ramya.You did whatever you could.To prove this truth.To yourself.Didnt you.You have been living.In lie."

Var-"I hated her.Thats truth.I was insecure of her.Her every happiness.I wanted to be Ramya.But I couldnt.If that makes you satisfied.Thats it."

V-"Your love for her.Made you lose yourself.So much that you distanced.Yourself away from her.From sister who was part of you.Why did you do this Varna.Was your bond so weak.That it would have been broken.With one truth."

Var-"I dont want to answer you.Let me go."

V-"Not today.Till you see.Your own truth.You are a lie.Nothing more.I wont let you be this.At any cost.Stop lying to yourself.When you know.Whats truth."

Var-"From time you came to my life.I faced everything.Except happiness."

V-"Do I matter.So much to you."

She held him from collar of his shirt.He looked at her hands.Smirked at her.Every ounce of emotion.Dropped from her voice.

Var-"You dont.Never mattered to me.You never did."

V-"truth is always bitter.Because if I didnt mattered to you.You wouldnt have been this place.You are now."

Varna sensed the way.Things were going.She released him.Vivaan got grip too.He found her escaping from situation.Like she always does.She ran away.Her stole was with him.He gripped on it.Shouted at her.She stopped.

V-"We are not responsible.For what happens with us.Its fate which decides.Likewise its not justifiable.To blame someone.For something which he never did.Our fear and emotions.Are our biggest enemy.They stop us.From being loyal.To us and those.Who are closest to us."

Varna locked door to room.Sliding down and falling.Hugging her knees.She cried for herself today.What she did.If given thought.Was it right on her part.To do that to herself.But she have been doing that.All through her life.Keeping all to herself.Sharing with none.She couldnt express her wish.Desire for something.She always felt.She was unwanted.By everyone.Including her family.Was she really one.Who was to be blamed.Why does fate had to play.With her only.

Vivaan walked in garden.Wind did no good to him.He felt different from heart.Looked at her stole.Still in his hand.He kicked small rock.That came on his way.Kicking chairs too.Everything he got at the moment.He messed his hair.With his hand.Shut his eyes.Realization struck to him.But its late.Too late to mend things back.It wasnt his fault.That fate had to plan all this.It wasnt he who should be blamed.In this.He wasnt aware of this happening.He wondered why didnt.Varna chose her happiness and wish.That time and why fate had to make.Him biggest pawn in this.He loved and married girl.His heart fell for.He knew this.But he didnt knew.In this journey he had to be part of.So many untold emotions.His eyes teared up.Unknowingly as he smiled at his own fate.

V-"I dont know why you hate me.Varna when you chose.This for both of us.You were one who made decision.For both of our lives.Here I thought.You were nothing but arrogant and selfish.But you are most selfless person.Have seen.Who gave up her every happiness.For her sister.Ramya is lucky.Because she has Varna.We got played.Cruelly."

He looked up at sky.His eyes welled up.Remembering day when it all got clear.To him.How and why everything happened.Like in blink of eye.Three fates changed.From then nothing.Mattered except how two of them got love.While one was deprived and living.In world of pain and agony.His meeting with Priyam.If it wouldnt have happened.He would have been lost.Forever.

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