Raavi

I was so happy that yesterday was over. First of all i made a fool of myself by asking him his age. Okay, I might have be overdramatic but it surely have felt like that. What might he been thinking that how utawali ladki I'm and does his age should matter at all? Ok, Sidelining my not so very important questions for once yesterday was not good also because my poor cupcake saw a horrible nightmare and was more than frightened by it. Also I for the very first time saw him like that.

That child My Ru has always been a happy to go child, always so bubby and jolly for once making others cheerful as well by his soo very infectious smile but yesterday I saw him sombre, longing for a mother. I saw his eyes, his actions told he was craving for a mother's love no doubt that boy ru is more that mature of what his age children usually are. I never saw him complaining his dad about not having a mother or bothering him by showing that he yearn for a motherly touch. But somewhere in his heart he surely does. When he requested me to stay with him whole night I felt helpless at that very moment. Without any relation how could I? I never felt that before not also when Yash cheated me with my own little sister. And yesterday rudra made me feel as if he includes me as well in His Family. I too am part of His Little World. And I was happy with that. He addressing me as his 'Apna' is something I ever wanted.

I woke up early since I had class. I braided my hair and resorted to my casual and comfortable clothes. I missed wearing high heels since I became a nanny, high heels weren't really an option. I turned on some music. Moksh didn't came last night but most nights he was working late and would fall asleep in his office.

I was dancing around and in my off tone voice singing
'Country Roads' loudly, luckily my neighbors were an elderly couple and half deaf.

"Country roads, take me home, To the place I belong"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jfMWN6bQapg

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My class was long and i had a few assignments to do this week.

My class finished just before lunch. It wasn't time for me to pick rudra up yet but i have to switch cars from my old Renault to the Ford shiva was generously letting me drive. I can understand it was best for rudra's safety.

I reversed out the car but then I ran over the garbage can. I hurriedly picked it up. It had a nasty dent in. This time I reversed out without a problem. I hope he doesn't see that, warna kya sochega ki mujhe car reverse karna bhi nahi aata and how is he going to let his only child be in my care whole day. Also I am worried about what if he asked me to pay for it. mujhe toh pata bhi nahi kitne ka hai aur yeh ameer logo ka kya hi bharosa dikhave ke liye sayad 1500 2000 ka dustbin le lia ho?

A few minutes later I stopped at rudra's school. I stood waiting in the crowd some of whome I knew as they were nannies too, so the conversation was light.

"Are you still working for the Khanna's ? "One of them asked
And I shook my head

" No, I finished there. "

"So whose child are you looking after then?" Divya asked curiously.

"Mr. Pandya" As I said Some of the ladies gawked at me.

"Really??? Oh I wouldn't mind working for a sexy beast like him. That's unfair that he didn't even interview any of us. " I was about to reply but then the school bell rang. The kids came rushing out, I waited for my cupcake. That's strange he is always the first one to show up. All excited to meet me and Always coming running up to me and spreading his little arms around my neck engulfing me in a warm hug.

Something definitely was wrong and i could sense it. However I still waited for him and he came at the very end.

When I caught the sight of him I was relieved but then he came nearer and I noticed.
He looked frazzled and shaken up, I rushed to him.

"Ru are you okay? " He sniffled and didn't say anything. He ran to the car door flinging himself onto his seat and buckling up. I was right. Something was wrong with him.
I could talk to him it would help but, at this moment he clammed shut.

We arrived home after a quite ride. Usually he would be talking to me about everything that happened during his day and about his friends. But today my ever soo jolly cupcake is silent and I surely ain't liking it.
I gracefully parked the car in the garage focusing not to run over anything again.

When I opened the door leading to the house, rudra ran upstairs and closed his door.

I sighed and set my bag down on the table. Right now he wasn't going to talk to me. I learned from the previous boy i looked after I would plead, ask him nicely but nothing would make him budge until he calmed down. Also I read it in my psychology book. Children usually doesn't open up immediately and in cases where the children are like rudra it is more difficult for them to open up easily who doesn't want to bother the other person. I need to handle the situation smartly and carefully.

I quickly made his favorite lunch and walked to his room.

"Ru I made you lunch" I said smilingly but the door didn't budge, I sat down beside his door with the plate in my hand.

"Cupcake dekho toh sahi. Yeh tumhara favorite hai. Dal, chawal, matar aloo aur rooti. Aur desert hum dono mil kr banaye. Tumhe pata hai kya? Strawberry cupcakes. Tumhare favorite haina? Darwaza kholo na baccha apki strawberry wait kar rahi h bahar." Nothing came from the other side.

"Ru baccha please. Ek baar mujhse baat karlo. Accha chalo baat nahi karni, nahi karenge par darwaza toh kholo please, apni strawberry ko aeise pareshaan karoge kya?" Still no movement...

"Okay, lagta hai aap mujhse naraz ho. Koi nahi aaj main bhi khana nahi khaungi aur aur main bhi ab room mein lock ho jaungi fr thik h? Baccha ek baar bahar aajao mujhse koi galati hui kya? Aap batao aap jaisa bologe main waisa karungi. U can punish me too. Main kuch nahi bolungi. Par please gate kholo. Please." And my voice cracked. But the door still didn't budge.

Tears were treating to flow and were about to come when I heard faint footsteps. I shot my head up at that and within minute the door opened. I was about to come inside when I heard rudra.

"Strawberry I don't want to eat aur baat bhi nahi karna hai abhi. Please I'm sorry. " And he walked back inside. His voice. He was crying and i could feel my heart sinking. My cupcake was crying but why? And and he don't want to talk to me about that. My heart pierced at that thought. But i composed myself. Right now this is not important. The only important thing is he needs someone whome he could talk his heart out. Someone who can solve his problem. I can't let my baby suffer alone and so I called shiva.

I reluctantly pulled myself up. After about 15 minutes shiva came.

"Hi, where's rudra? " He asked as soon as he entered the kitchen.

"He's in his room. First he didn't wanted to open up for me but somehow I convinced him to. And now he doesn't want to talk to me either." His forehead formed a frown. I tried to hold back my tears. But the thought of rudra not wanting me to come to him hurted alott maybe more than an ugly breakup anyone might have seen or faced.

It's silly I know I'm just his nanny neither his close near and dear one nor a family member but I can't help this feeling it feels as if I failed in my work. But right now these thoughts are not important. The only thing required is to have someone by my cupcake's side and by someone it's only and only shiva.

He untied his tie and placed his jacket on the chair.

"I've been worried about him. When he got a bad nightmare I just knew something was wrong. Did he say anything? " I shook my head.

"Not a word. I tried but he didn't budge. " And with that I guess shiva saw my glassy eyes.

"Don't worry he sometimes does that with me as well. Opening him up is not an easy task. Alright, let's see if i can get anything out of him." I nodded and blinked my eyes to hold on to the tears.

Shiva walked to his door and opened it slowly. And slid inside. I was behind him and all ready to get inside with him but the door closed. And I again felt offset. I took this as a sign that I'm not needed here so i walked back to the kitchen beginning with ru fav dinner.

Toh kya hua agar rudra ne nahi bataya kuch toh. It means you have to work hard more. U have to win his trust.
I made my self understand but whome was I lying to. It still hurt. I never saw rudra as someone's else child. I always thought of him as mine. Why? I also don't know. Maybe it's because he never made me feel stranger or outsider. But today it felt and it hurts. It surely does.

I frustratedly put the vegetables in the pan and mixed it until it threw out of it. I was frustrated since I couldn't do my job properly and rudra couldn't talk to me. It was understandable mujhe abhi aaye huye kitna hi time hua hai ya usse mujhe jante huye jyada time kaha hua hai, but still it's my job to take care of him and i can't do that if he doesn't let me. Ok now I'm over reacting. Stop it raavi. He is merely 3 year old what do u want from that little munchkin. Maybe to be with me? To let me care for him? To let me make him his favourite food? To take him to sleep?

No.......stop it.

I finished making the dinner and shiva and rudra too came down. I looked towards rudra but he didn't came to me and directly went to the couch and sat down at the television. I sadly got back to my work. Shiva walked into the kitchen with his nose in the air.

"That smells delicious" I gave him a weak smile.

"Uh thanks, dinner will be ready in a minute" I tried to focus on dishing up the meal. He after some time, maybe after observing me for a minute, stood beside me helping me with the plates.

"Rudra is being bullied from what he told me and the bruises on his arms. It's bad. Shiva's face retorted into sadness and my eyes began to glisten with tears. He too had tears in his eyes.

"I don't want my baby boy to get hurt. I'm going to have a meeting with his teacher tomorrow morning. It's unacceptable." He said worriedly. I shot my head at ru. My cupcake was in soo much pain and I didn't had a hint about it. How much more could I fail.

"It's good kam se kam usne tumse baat toh ki warna jyadatar bacche chupate hai. "

"We have a rule of no secrets. No one disobeys that rule. "

And when shiva finished with that I knew that however hard I try rudra ke life mein meri woh jagah kabhi nahi ho sakti. I'm just his nanny and it should be concerned only till that but here I'm.... I am just confused with my own self. Why does it hurt me so much that rudra didn't believed me. I decided to not overthink about this topic because my priority at the moment was my cupcake's well being and he is okay as his father is with him. He is His Family. His Little World. His Apna. His everything even if that family doesn't include me. Again raavi. Do not overthink.

I walked over to a very silent rudra. I bend down so that I was in front of him as he sat on the couch.

"Dinner is ready cupcake. " He nodded and walked to the kitchen with me. Without even glancing at me.
I set the table for two. Shiva shook his head.

"You aren't eating with us? " He asked

"No I have food at home which I prepared in morning. It would get spoil if I didn't ate it. You continue I'll go once you two are done. " I said and warily placed another chair at the table.

Rudra to right of me and shiva to the left.

They began eating, I shifted my foot and just as I did i stepped on shiva's toes. I looked at him wide - eyed thinking he would grunt in pain.

"Reinforced leather shoes, for all those feisty women who like to step on my toes." He commented as he took another bite. Without looking at me.

Dinner was over quickly

"Cupcake wait, I made you your favorite strawberry cupcakes wouldn't you have some? Wait I'll bring them there. "

"Sorry strawberry but I don't want them now... " And saying that he went to shiva. My face drop

"Oh! Ok, I can understand. No worries. I'll put them in refrigerator. You can have them if by chance u want to. " I said turning away with the cupcakes and putting them again in the fridge.

After shiva left to run a bath for rudra i cleaned up and gathered up my things.
Shiva came back into the kitchen when I was just about done.

Please imagine them (father-son duo)   like this 👇👇

"He is busy playing soldier soldier in the tub. He knows the water safety drill. Leaving already? " He said looking at his expensive watch. I nodded.

With all these very new found feelings first shiva and now rudra. I want to avoid casualties. It's better I stay away so that I don't get any futher feelings of them seeing and including me too in their family. I don't want to ruin anything. I'm just a nanny and it would be good for me if I fit this in my brain as soon as possible.

He walked with me to the door, before I walked away I heard his deep voice echo behind me.

"Good night Miss Dixit"

A/N We will see that raavi that will they include u in their Little World or not.

Hey my dearest molasses,

Ik ik long time no see. Missed me? Cause I surely did. But what can I do with board exams approaching and all the assignments and practical files pending I can't help but procrastinate. U all have been super supportive until now and I hope will be in future as well. Aur baki itna sarraa pyaar dia h iss book ko ki meri toh aakhe hi bhar aati h 🥺
Itna bhi pyaar mat karo bhai (Fake tears) karo pls karo aur karo jitna kar sakte ho utna pyr karo. Kyuki ek bar paper ka tanta khatam ho then I have some more mast mast ideas ready to be cooked. Baaki toh kal puri koshish karungi ek aur update deni ki cause I know aaj wale se jyda khush nahi hoge aur kaai toh meri tarah royee bhi honge. Main aasu pochte pochte likh rahi thi.... I swear.....

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