Raavi

Mujhe yaha kaam karte huye accha khasa time ho gaya hai and rudra and me are bonding well too.. He is well behaved for most of part but he did get cracky around dinner time as the little boy get tired from working the whole day.... Tonight I made him noodles and some strawberry cupcakes as they are his favorite...., my cooking skills are somewhat great and 3-years-old are okay with what I make........ Shiva asked me to work late tonight and i agreed as I didn't had too much of college stuff... Moksh too was also working late like he usually does so my choice was easily made....

Rudra was sitting on the couch watching his favorite cartoon "oggy and the cockroaches" ( ps. Author's as well) in his pjs. I looked at him studying his face. He didn't looked very much alike his father other than his hair that covered most of his broad forehead and of course his cute little nose that was straight and pointed just like his dad.... And ooohh, not to forget about that alluring smile... It was so very radiantly entrancingly irresistible that could very well light up the whole town working as an icing on the cake.... Rudra definitely got the best features from his dad...I wandered upon my thought but nevertheless it was true rudra was exact copy of his father not only have I heard this from the neighbors but it was true as I have seen on my own self as well..... The way he walked and the way he glanced sideways give a lot of resemblance as what his father does... Also he has the exact habit of ceasing his eye brows and Furrowing it slightly whenever irritated just like what his father does. I saw him doing that when I walked him to the park and there one of the girl was irritating him my walking in between his soccer practice... Must say the little guy is very particular about his practice and soccer... A true sportsman indeed.... Also he has the habit of eating a lot of meetha which could be seen by his love for strawberry cupcakes.... Shiva too never ever would think if his dinner being completed without any meetha... And that too in bulk... If unka bas chale toh he would eat out the whole container of rasgulla and gulab jamun with chashni as well...... I was smiling at my own thoughts
looking at rudra when he suddenly said,

"Kya hua strawberry, everything ok?? "

"Ya... Oh...yes it is... Kyu kya hua? "

" Why we're you looking at me like that then???....kahi mere cehre pal kuch laga toh nahi haina? "

He asked horrified and roamed his little palms on his whole face... I laughed

" Oh no cupcake, there's Nothing dear.... I was just wondering something that's it" I said in between my laugh

"Oooo, ok" And I heard shiva's car in the driveway....The door unlocked a few minutes later..... Rudra jumped up and hugged his dad...

Shiva looked worn out from the work but nonetheless, he picked rudra up, kissing his forehead and ruffling his hair and he set him down...

The awkward situation we had last week flashed back to me when he fell on me because I bumped into him... He was pressed against me, skin to skin, I shook off that image... I shouldn't be thinking about this... I have moksh afterall...

I stood up and turned off the television

" Hi, I'm going to tuck him in quickly and then get dressed for my date. " He smiled at me saying that and then sauntered away... Rudra was half asleep till now. And so, he picked him up and went to Ru' s room to get him to sleep....

Date??? I frowned and could feel my stomach drop.. What is this even? Why was he going on a date all of a sudden?
I suddenly started feeling strange. He was bound to be in a relationship, I mean look at him 6"1 dark and handsome, with a good physique, broad shoulders a well built chest and flat stomach.. Not to forget his Biceps ofcourse. Lord those biceps of his could easily make anyone wanting the urge to touch and press it between the palms.... Also working for almost around 1 week I have seen him let alone in vest as well and since them I can't help but wonder why were his biceps always shining looking soo smooth that even the rough to the roughest thing could slip down easily if placed on them...does he apply any kind of a lotion, or moisturize it with something....... I let out a sigh and went into the kitchen to pack away the leftover dinner in the fridge... I was busy in emptying the contents when shiva came in, his hair damp from a shower and he was dressed casually... Dark jeans and a button--down shirt. Looking tempting as usual.. I shook my head again to make the thoughts go away....

"I need your help with this" He said with a grin, while holding up a pair of cufflinks. I looked down at them.

"I can usually do them myself but, these are a bit different.. " I looked at then and took them from his hand, our skin grazing softly against each other, he looked up at me and I think I flushed pink... The tension building up... I tried my level best that our skin doesn't gaze the slightest also while putting them up for him.... But he seemed relaxed as if not caring if our skin meet each other Consciously or unconsciously... As if he enjoyed nit that I didn't but I was shy and scared whereas he wasn't... Oh god what am I even thinking.... Focus raavi focus.... Is what I could only tell myself when he was practically near me and his hand was under my command... Those hand with light veins visible that filled me with the urge to touch it, push it.... Those big rough hands in front of whome my hands felt to be as of a miniature version which I wondered how would look when pressed against my..........
No no raavi galat direction.... Wapas aa wapas aaa ....

I put on his cufflinks for him in a hurry , my hands shaking a bit and my eyes not daring to look into his I can't help but think of what he was doing right now... Was he looking down at me? Or was he just concentrated on his cufflinks?? was he too thinking about me??? Oh no why would he after all he was going on a date...... I put them and he nodded in thanks before he went back to his room... I looked after him for sometime.....

I cleaned up the counter a little bit and then decided and headed upstairs to make sure rudra was asleep... I peeked into his dark room and noticed him rolling on his bed.. Ok so he is struggling to sleep... I went inside and sat beside him, he thought it's shiva sitting and hence asked him to read him a story so that he could sleep in peace... I chuckled and he looked up at me and was shocked to see me

"Strawberry, tum yaha... Wow!!! toh aaj tum ghar par hi rahogi? Thank you...." And he jumped on my lap... I smiled on his excited state

"Yes cupcake, as I'm your caretaker it's my duty to look after you and hence not going anywhere until you are fast asleep"

I said by running my finger in his hair and he frowned at me... Again just like his dad

"This means that when I will sleep you will go away? " I nodded at him

"Okay then,,,, we are not sleeping today! We will play games all night and you will be here only" He said by sitting up straight and clasping his hands together in excitement...
I shook my head at his reasoning

" Ok dear by games as you say, then let me first start with one. I'll sing you a song " He looked at me confused

"It's a game.. first I will sing you a song and then you will sing let's see who get's to sleep first.. Me Or you "

"You're going to sleep beside me? " He asked amazed and I could see a slight hint of tears in those big eyes of his

"Yes, why do you ask? Does that bother you? " I asked

" No, not at all... It's just that I have heard from my friends ki sleeping beside moms help you sleep better aur fr sapne bhi bahut acche aate hai.... Mujhe nahi pata yeh sach hai ki nahi par dad ke saath kabhi kabhi sota hu toh neend toh acchi aati hai sapno ka nahi pata " He said pouting and I adored him... The poor child never had someone whome he could practically look up as a mom figure ... He do deserve the love and care of a mother... I know his dad is more than capable if fulling the duty of both a mother and a father but still.. Maa ka pyar maa ka pyar hota hai and no one in the world could fullfill the place of a mother... I wondered how come his mother was even able to let soo precious sooo valuable thing far from herself... How come anyone in the whole world could even leave this child at the first place... He was soo cute, soo adorable and sooo very cute... He deserve the love of the whole world I don't know what happened in the past... But if shiva doesn't want her to meet ru then there surely is a matter

"Aaj pehli baar yeh bhi try karunga... Par agar tum pehle so gai toh? " He asked "

" Welll We'll see that my sweetheart " I cooed at him and he smiled...

I asked him to lay back on my lap and he followed like a good boy but then suddenly asked

"What if you walk out of here after I slept? " He asked looking up at me which those beautiful puppy eyes of his

"I will certainly not and if I did then you'll have your father my your side... Don't worry" He nodded and I started with my lullaby slightly stroking his hair by one hand and dabbing him on his stomach lightly with another..
I started

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d3ZHbnPGrFE

Tari ra ri ra ri ra rum
Tari rari ra rum

Tari rari rari ra rum
Tari rari ra rum

And I stroked his hair... Moving them away from his forehead

Sun sun nanhe lori ki dhun
Ho ja meethe sapno mein gum

Sun sun nanhe lori ki dhun
Ho ja meethe sapno mein gum

Tu mera suraj hai,
Tu mera chanda hai,

Tu meri aankhon ka tara hai sun.....

Sun sun nanhe lori ki dhun
Ho ja meethe sapno mein gum

As the lyrics dissolved in the air he closed his eyes on it's own accord..

Suno ae hawaon, na tum shor karna,
Tute na nanhe ki nidiya kahin.....

Bade bhag se hai, mili aisi raatein
Main gaati rahungi lori yunhi.....

His lips forming a faint smile I noticed immediately....

Sote huye nindiya tujhko hasati hai,

Aise hi meethe sapno ko chunn.....

Sun sun nanhe lori ki dhun
Ho ja meethe sapno mein gum

Sun sun nanhe lori ki dhun
Ho ja meethe sapno mein gum

Tari ra rum tari ra rum
Tari ra rum ra rum
Ummh ummh ummh ........

As I finished the song, from his soft breathing , I could hear he was fast asleep... I gently placed his head back on the pillow and made a pillow wall on the side of the bed and walked back to the door... Once again turned to make sure and saw him peacefully in sleep...

I closed the door but when I turned around

there was a sweet smell drifting around in the Hall, I inhaled deeply.... The scent... It was shiva... Shiva's Cologne... Was he here sometimes back?

I can't help but took in his scent... It smelled like....... Warmth..... Apnapan jaisa..... Jaise I know it for a long time.... It let me feel peaceful and content..... I walked back down stairs where shiva walked to the front door ready and about to leave

He stoped and turned around as if he sensed my presence., for a moment things just stood still... He picked up a pair of keys

" I forgot to tell you, you can use that ford in the garage to pick up rudra in the afternoon. Here " He walked to me giving me the keys and I had my head down but thanked him and he left for his date. As the door closed behind him, I slumped down on the plush chair in the living room...

What is wrong with me?

He is a sexy man but I needed to get a grip on myself. I loved moksh na.. Then why this feeling? And I should not be thinking like this, especially not about my boss. He's fascinating Yes, other than that he's just my employer.

Shiva

I was sitting on a chair moving around uncomfortably. I was currently on a date with sahana - a women that worked with me sometimes back. She is blonde, pretty and has blue eyes... I couldn't shake the awkwardness of the date.

" So I hear you have a son, where's his mother? " She was blunt, very blunt. The previous question was about my previous sexual encounter, which I didn't answered.

" I don't like talking about her. " I tried to say with a smile. She tapped her nails on the table, it was beginning to irritate me. I don't even know why I agreed to dinner with her. I was beginning to think my mother was right- I wasn't a good judge of character. Certainly about women

"So what do you do in your free time? " I was relived this time by her question.

"When I have the time I go rock climbing, bungee jumping and exploring things with my son. What do you do? "

"I like to shop mostly spending "me" time in parlour botique etc and hang out with friends.. Partying around" I frowned, she must be what 24 25, around my age and she still talks like an airhead, which I know she isn't since she once worked with me as a financial analyst. I guess she was trying to be cool... Huh,..typical teenage stuff....

"I think I should get going" I signalled for the waiter to bring us the bill

"My place or yours? " She asked

"What? " I frowned at her question

"Where are we taking this, your place or my place?
I guess mine would be appropriate as their are no children" She said chuckling.... Oh Lord, She didn't get it that I wasn't really interested. I wasn't desperate-- yes frustrated, but not at all desperate.

"I'll drop you off at your place and then I'm going home" Her face turned into a scowl

I paid the bill and did as I said , she wasn't very happy about that arrangement.

I was eager to get home, don't know if it was ru or someone else... Time was about 10 PM it was early for a date to end but the sooner it did the better it will be. I also saved her life since I was sooooo very irritated by her.. I practically would have hanged her up by her own hair if I could...

I rushed home. When I gave Raavi the car keys i couldn't help but stare at her. It was like things froze for a few seconds. She was really gorgeous. Soo serenely gorgeous And not to miss her voice.... I couldn't help but get mesmerize. Her voice is so soothing and sexy at the same time. I remembered how I was about to come to this date when I thought to have one glance at rudra. When I came near his door I heard him talking. I put my ears on the door to listen more clearly and heard him talking to raavi.. I attentively listen their talk. And then raavi singing rudra to sleep. Damn her voice. I was unable to stop the urge that stated me to right now right away go and have her in a tight hug. I was happy that rudra had someone whome he could look up as a mother figure to. She was really up to the mark for that title even more than that... How well she handled rudra and his antics and how cheerful rudra is around her. When I came home every night this week I couldn't help but wonder what she was like when she wasn't a nanny. What she liked and didn't like. I wanted to know her... More deeply and passionately..... Shake it off shiva.... Plss for heaven's sake....

I unlocked the door, opening it, the lights were dimmed. Ru was asleep when I Left him so he would still be asleep. I slowly walked in looking for her.

I found raavi sitting at the island in the kitchen when I entered. She had glasses on and was going through a child psychology book. As if Sensing my presence she looked up at me. I smiled at her since she looked super cute with glasses on. Cute? What did I just think?

"Sorry woh I had to catch up on a chapter. But I have done the rest of the chores"
She took off her glasses and ran a hand through her hair.

"It's fine . . Umm where do you go to for studying? " She looked at me curiously.

" Lovely Waterford University "

" I also went there, but it was back in the day" She turned her head to the side. Studying me intently.

"I don't mean to be rude but...... how old are you? " She asked looking down at the floor somewhat unsure. I smiled at her politeness, way way way better than that sahana's nonexistent manners.

"I'm 26." She nodded. She was about 22 or 23 from what I remember her CV said

"Why do you ask? "

"It's just that..... Never mind. I have to get home, moksh must be worried about me" She hurriedly shoved her books into her bag and hurried out of the door. I too followed. She was just about to leave when we heard screams from rudra's room. Raavi looked at me wide eyed and I too looked back at her. And then together we bolted up to his room. I opened the door hastily and raavi flicked on the lights urgently.

"He sat up straight, and tears were streaming down his face, he shook as he cried. I looked around the room and found nothing strange. My nerves calmed a bit- it was just a nightmare he had. I hugged him tightly and raavi stood behind me witnessing the scene unfold.

" It was just a dream big guy. See you are alright, ekdum fit-o-fit " But he continued to cry.

"Raabi..... " He called out in between his sobs...

"Where is she? "

"I'm here cupcake... " Raavi called out from behind me and he looked up at her tears still streaming down....

"Why did.... Did you left me? See this, wh..at happen...ed... Mujhe bura sapna aaya" Rudra cried out

"Tum hoti toh nahi aata na... I told you earlier too. You said you won't leave"

He whimpered and I saw raavi to had tears seeing him hence took a seat beside me and held his hands in hers... Both their hands compiled and still looking extremely small in front of mine...

"Sorry cupcake... I didn't keep up with the promise" She looked down...

"Can I get a hug Strawberry? " He asked
and raavi immediately shot her head up and hugged him stroking his hair lightly. .. I smiled...

"I...... Dreamed about........ a...... Spider . . Ea... E.... Eating me. "
He looked terrified. And raavi continued to hug him. I continued to tell him that it was all a dream. He was afraid to go asleep again since that spider might come back . I decided to take him to my room for staying with him the whole night and asked raavi that she might go.

Rudra had a problem but then I made him understand and he understood... My smart boy....

We walked back down stairs with rudra in my arms.

As she was about to leave she turned around and spread her arms to held rudra and he immediately went straddling on her. Already pouting....

"Sorry cupcake but I told you. If not me then your dad would surely be by your side... Forever... "

"But I want you as well.... Can't I? "

And raavi kissed his forehead

"surely you can... Don't worry if you ever want me by your side by any time be it anywhere on the earth... I will be there... Okay? "

"Okay... " He replied

Maybe okay will be their always.....

She gave ru back to me and ruffling his hair before walked out. I stared after her as she bolted out. And watching her go with rudra, today I too was really very sad. Strange.

She is my nanny, well rudra's nanny and their are boundaries. I shouldn't even look at her like that.. I made myself a coffee placing rudra at the counter and then went to my room with rudra and undressed. .. When I was about to came out I heard song....... No no a lori... I opened the washroom door and saw rudra playing a lullaby in my phone placing it beside his pillow and stroking his hair... Just like the way raavi did.... I came and spread myself beside him on the bed... Taking him in my embrace I dabbed him and stroked his hair lightly... And he asked

"Dad can't we have raavi all by ourself..?"

I didn't knew what to answer... It's funny even I want that soo...

"She has a life and a family of hers... We can't ask her to leave them and come to us... Would you like to go anywhere away from me? "

"Absolutely no. "

"Then how can we expect that from raavi? "

"Sorry.... " I looked down at him and smiled....

"No problem dear... She is here with you all day always.... it's only night.but then I too am here na? " And he spread his tiny arms around my waist.... Hugging me...

"By the way.... Why did she called you cupcake and you called her strawberry ?"

He smiled at me.... "Oh daddy that's because I love strawberry cupcakes and she looked too much like a strawberry... All red and pretty... " He said all dreamily and I frowned... My own son is behaving like my "sautan".... Wait what?? Oh god I'm being tooo much now.... Rudra slowly drifted to sleep and I stayed with him the whole night to make sure he didn't have another nightmare...

He hasn't had a nightmare in about a year, something definitely was going on with him....

My priority is with rudra, that's the main reason why i couldn't be thinking about Raavi like I was, the other reason being that she has a boyfriend and she's in love with him.

I need to nip this little stupid flame of mine. I wasn't thinking with my brain that's for sure. It's a professional relationship that is all that is going to be.

A/N do you really think so shiva???
I guess destiny has something else in store for you.....

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