Shiva

Ghabrahat ho rahi h, kya karu pehli baar apne jigar ke tukde ko aise akele choodha h.... accha ok, hn, akele nhi chooda...still... I walked in my office and I knew worry was written on my face... Chavi today didn't asked as she knew it was something related to rudra only. And as said, she doesn't like children

Today is the first day Raavi is going to be looking after Ru . To me she seemed more than capable of handling him, but we are talking about rudra here and he can be a bit of a terror sometimes but again he liked raavi so he'd behave aur maine usko bataya tha ki kisiko khush rakhne ke liye usko pareshan bilkul nhi karna cahiye aur isiliye usse raavi ki nigrani mein chood ke aate time he jumped on me and said

" Agar main raabii ki sarii baat manunga toh woh mujhe pasand karegi na? "
I laughed at his question but then he looked at me confused so I just shrugged that out and replied

"Bilkul, agar tum uski sarii baat manoge aur usse tang nhi karoge toh woh tumse khush ho jayegi"

"Mtlb implesss na? " Isse advik se durr rakhna padega aaj se --- is what I thought

"Hnn hnn wahi impress ho jayegi tumse " And he gave me his very beaming smile

"Fr woh humesha mere sath khelegi aur hum mil kr dhamaal machayenge " Aur yeh shuru ho gaya iska... I shook my head at his very excited form....

But it felt strange to not pick him up from the playschool or help him with his homework or make something good for him to eat.... It felt like I was being strangled from inside with worry and doubt
I composed myself taking a few calming breaths in and out.....
I started working but every now and then I looked at my phone does that happen with you as well or am I overreacting but I can't help it... Rudra meri zindagi mein aise khul gaya h jaise chai mein shakkar aur uske bina chai, chai jaisa nhi lagta I mean meri life, time, moment ghadi, pal sb incomplete lagta h.....

"The documents for your new clients . I'll let you know about the opening stock price before the market opens " The HR said before giving me the stack with a smile... I'll soon be able to be the new boss if I played my cards right. .. I've always wanted to have my own company that would only be under my name but with Everything happening now and then and with ru coming into my world I had to push it aside until now.....

I tried to focus on my rest of the work... But I feel sooo excited I think I feel like rudra when his grandmother bring him candy .. I got all my work done and finally left very late that afternoon.... It was dark out. I grimaced. I hated leaving my boy for soo long but he was in capable hands so i know my fears are unwarranted. .. Don't know why I have this much confidence and trust on raavi when I would have called my mother too until now but with raavi I feel rudra is very much secure I guess because she saved him two times.... Don't know....

I gave her the keys to my house when I also have her the employment contract, so she can easily let herself in and I informed the security at my gate too about her... So they would not create any problem

I parked my BMW in the garage. The 2020 ford Fusion that I bought once was sitting there gathering dust. I rubbed my chin frustrated at what time it already was. Raavi ko ab to ghar bhej dena tha as stated in the contract already. .. I strutted to the door unlocking it. The house was silent except for the television. I walked in and found rudra sitting on the table and drawing a picture... Ok toh ab isko artist banna h.... This baccha of mine can't choose one profession kbhi bolega ki poet banunga, kbhi soccer player toh kbhi mere jaisa want to work in corporate world and now aaj naya profession i.e. artist.... When he saw me he stood up jumped from the table and ran up to me

"Daddy" He ran and lunged towards me and I returned his hug

"Missed me alot???" I asked , today the answer was a little different he stood for some time clueless before nodding his head in yes but I knew he the least missed me today as he did when I would leave him with his grandma or advik... The big smile he had on his face told me he did not as much as he did usually... I looked around but didn't saw raavi anywhere and my heart sunk...

"Sayad already ghr chali gai " I thought but decided to ask rudra instead

" Where's your nanny? "

" Call her raabii please " Rudra stated crossing his hand , I chuckled

"Ok, where's raavi? "

He pointed towards the playroom and got back to his drawing...
Just when I walked into the room raavi came walking out which caused us to collide she made a loud off sound as she was headed to the floor. Luckily, I caught her just in time, unfortunately, it was an awkward catch and I became unbalanced so i came crashing down on top of her

For a second i just looked at her studying her features, her eyes, brown, emerald brown . .. She had the most beautiful eyes I ever saw or practically will see . I snapped from my daze quickly standing up since I was crushing her....

"Sorry, I didn't see you, are you alright? " I gave her my hand which she took warily , she then dusted herself off and nodded...

" I'm fine , that's going to leave a bruise though " She shook her head with a chuckle as she rubbed her shoulder

I noticed the toys scattered out from the bin she had been holding
I helped her pick up the toys as she started gathering a few up. I looked up to her from my bending position. Fortunately, or unfortunately, whatever u say. I got a glimpse of her back as her top got up due to her bending position.... For a moment I enjoyed the view, her milky back was really something that could easily make anyone's mood after a full tiring day. I reverted my gaze back to the ground, I felt a sensation pulse through me... My body heated up....

Strange..... I guess after soo many years, it was expected when a beautiful woman was in my house isme meri koi galati nhi... Apne aapko meri jagah rakh kar dekho... Itne sallo ke baad agr aas paass itni khubsurat ladki rahegi toh rokna toh mushqil hoga hi na..... I sighed and stuffed the last of the toys in the bin....

" Sorry to keep you from your studies... Main over time de dunga at the end of the month" I said

"It's ok I enjoyed being around rudra.. Not a problem " She replied

" Still, I'll pay " She nodded shyly

I placed the bin on the counter and she took her bag. I walked her to the door where rudra bolted to her hugging her goodbye. He really was the hugging type.
No I'm not jealous 😒...

" Itni jaldi kyu jaa rahi ho... Thodi der ruko ... Daddy make something for raabi

" He ordered and I looked at him in disbelief
I can't believe baap yaha thaka hara kaam se aa raha h aur yeh janab ulta mujhe hi kaam pr laga rahe h.... (Bin pendi ka lota).....

Raavi chuckled before she said

" It's ok rudra I'll come tomorrow don't worry until then u know what you have to do.... "

" Oh come on raabii !!!! I told you so many times to Call me Ru " He said over dramatically and I raised my eyebrow.... Such a nautanki also......

"Oops !! Sorry, will take care from next time " Raavi said by placing a hand on her mouth...... Ek aur nautanki.....
Both laughed together at God knows what!!!!!

" Bye Ru see you tomorrow " Raavi said and rudra stood beside me clinging to me as she walked to her car. The old car reversed out of the drive away into the streets. I stared at the car for a few seconds before it got smaller and smaller. Finally Out of sight... Maybe she could use my Ford , it's in rudra and her best interest. I nodded as I agreed with myself. ... I'm glad rudra has a mother figure in his life, even if it's a nanny, it's still the closest thing that he'll have to a mother. .... I woke up to my haze by rudra's not soo very good expression

"Haaayeeeeeeee" Rudra said placing his small hand on his heart I creased my eyebrows... Ab yeh kya h? ....

"What?? " I asked

"What?? " He said

"Yeh kya tha ? " I asked

"Kya, kya tha?? " He too asked

" Khel raha h mere saath, jldi bata yeh hayeeee ka kya mtlb tha? "

"Nothing.... Just humare beech ki baat.... U won't get it..... " He said flying his small hands in air..... Ab toh pakka isse advik se durr rakhna hi padega

"Accha bacchu.... Apna size dekh aur uska.... "

" Size, colour, caste doesn't matter dad.... It's all heart that matter... Aisa grandma bolti h and I agree"
Ok toh mumma se bhi durr rakhna padega isse

" Tuna ander chl tujhe batata hu.... Ruk tu... " I dragged him inside by his right hand

"Aree morii maiyaa., bachao" He shouted placing his left hand on his left ear for extra dramatic effect and I laughed....

The week flew by , I was mostly working late and raavi was taking care of rudra....
Thankfully I have weekends off and I could spend them with rudra.... Currently, we were sitting at the breakfast island, he was in his dinosaur pajamas and me in my boxers

I looked at my bare cupboards and fridge. I was soo busy lately that I didn't noticed that I was running out if stock.... Last night was our pizza night since I came home early and i now only noticed.
"Well big guy, We need to do some shopping if I want to feed you. So what I'm thinking is let's have our breakfast at a diner this morning and then we'll do some grocery shopping"

"Yesss, finally.... Ghal ke boring khane se chutti " He looked at me excited and then scurried away. I guess he understood he needed to get dressed. Sometimes he's very adept to listening to me and sometimes not so much

I changed into a jeans and tshirt with
some shoes. I ruffled my hairs around, gelling it back slightly. Rudra came into my room after he was changed. I looked at him as he was holding his teddy, he was soooo small still.... My chotu baccha. I just picked him up, hugging him while i swung him around. He laughed his heart out as I did. I set him down when I was felling out of breath.

"Did you brush your teeth? " He shook his head

"Well I haven't either, so let's get to it " At the double sink in my room he and i stood side by side brushing away. Pehle baap bete honge jo fully dressed hone ke baad brush karte h.... Unique though

I drove to the nearest diner. It was a cozy place with light brown walls and dim lights emanating the retro orange booth and wood tables. A waiter greeted us when we took a seatseat at the booth beside the window.

Rudra ordered a big stack of pancakes and fries. And since he wasn't going to be able to finish that i just ordered a toast and a Cappuccino... Some females were looking at rudra and me intently --- women have always been intrigued by me. They swarm on me but because of rudra I just cannot or in any way return the sentiment. . . .

I need to start dating again since rudra needs a more permanent mother figure and i for one need someone to love (and by love you know.... Sex) our order came along with rudra's thick chocolate milk shake. It looked divine, really divine. I sipped on to my cappuccino looking around the room at people minding their own business. My eyes landed on a woman.

I kept my eyes on her, she turned to the side looking at the menu, it was raavi. I just couldn't take my eyes off she was wearing a ruffled top with a skinny jeans.... I just couldn't take my eyes off soooo simple yet elegant..... I was bedazzled but then I frowned, there was a guy sitting in front of her probably her boyfriend. I studied them intently while he smiled at her, she smiled back but then suddenly looked uncomfortable I saw the reason it was because he was drawing circles on her palm.... She shifted in her seat . .. He leaned on his chair to kiss her cheeck and that's when i looked away.

I kept my gaze on rudra as he drew a picture with the syrup on his pancakes, making a messy pile on top. I felt a pang in my stomach, it was clear I was attracted to her. Physical attraction. That's all it is.... Aree hn yaar attraction hi h bss.....

I need to date. So four sex - less years. I really really need to date. I had to stop feeling like this, she's beautiful woman no doubt but for once she has a boyfriend, secondly I was just sexually frustrated so it was bound to happen when a beautiful woman was in my vicinity. Who am I actually explaining all this to?? Lol it's getting soo very confusing... I was lost in my thought when I heard some noice from a little away from me. I looked up to see the table on which raavi was sitting, the boy who was with raavi banged his hands on table and stood up leaving. Raavi was frowning slightly but then went after him. Don't know what's going on but let's just forget it as it's their life...

Raavi

Today I was very excited as finally moksh and me are going somewhere out practically to a diner for breakfast. As we came in the area looked simple and beautiful. We got seated at a table and were just casually talking when a couple too took a seat beside our table. They were looking too much in love..... Practically being the very immature couple too childish to be precise. We were waiting for our orders when moksh asked me if I was comfortable with his eyes and smile and i nodded and smiled back then suddenly he started drawing circles on my palm... Not that it's an inappropriate act but after being in public it's actually not required.... I signed him not to but then what he did Widened my eyes..... He kissed me on my cheeks like seriously there were soo many people around children too what would all this just looked like.... Common I might be sounding like 90s pr apne pyar ka tamasha banna jaruri h kya. I don't think so i was like this too. I was saying the couple beside me as childish and here my own boyfriend is being so weird. I was purely embarrassed and that's why I jerked my hands back and told him to not do any of this again in public and he got angry and stormed out of the restaurant and i however didn't wanted to go after as I knew an argument was waiting for me but have to...... i walked after him and saw him busy on phone. I came to him and he turned disconnecting the call...

"Kaun tha? "

"Boss need me to complete some work, main ghar ja raha hu tumhe chalna h? " He asked

"Nhi , abhi jane ka mood nhi after some time maybe" I replied

"As you wish... Byee" And he went and i frowned and went inside back. I decided to do a little shopping as it's at instant stress reliever.

Shiva

After breakfast which was me mostly eating the pancakes rudra had left that he whined he cannot eat more, we headed to the grocery store. Rudra was happily hopping around with the teddy still in his hands as I picked up a few things. He was sneakily trying to Put some candy into the trolley. I saw him but didn't say anything. He and i had the same sweet tooth and a big appetite. I was struggling with the things when rudra happily jumped and shouted raavi he ran up to her. I too looked up from what I was seeing and saw rudra running in the supermarket and moving ahead I saw raavi too running that's when I saw that some workers were trying to put up some things on the shelf and the shelf slightly shook resulting in making the things fall that were over it and rudra was running to that shelf only. Rudra was just about to got hit by the items and Before I could move or do anything I saw raavi picking him up and moving to a side as the whole of the shelf fall on the ground with a loud sound and ran up to them and took rudra in my embrace and kissed his forehead and cheeks and asked if he was fine raavi searched for any kind of bruise or injury but their weren't any and I released a sigh of relief. I looked towards raavi with glassy eyes I just didn't know how to thank her. I put rudra down and just hugged her tight

Raavi

I didn't know what to say or do. I was just looking around the shopping complex trying to find some thing suitable to buy but was unable to that's when my eyes fall on shiva he was looking handsome as always trying to figure out between some items I guess. I decided to go to them and before I could start walking I saw rudra shouting my name and coming running towards me. My eyes fall on the shelf and i too ran with him to come towards him before the shelf could land on him I was signing him to move back but he doesn't seem to understand I ran as fast as I could and before anything could happen I had ru in my hands and the shelf dropped behind me with a loud thud. Shiva ran to us and took ru in a hug I searched for any Injuries and by God's grace their weren't any. Shiva looked at me with tears in his eyes. This was the second time I was seeing him like this... Shi kehte h loog, jo admi dunia zamana kissi se nhi harata woh apno ke aage haar hi jata h as shiva was all teary and looking at me like he was out of words...and before I could register anything he took me in a tight hug and heard his muffled voice

" Thank you soo much raavi, thank u very very much, raavi kaise thank you bolu aur kitni baar bolu... Tum farishta ban kar aai ho meri life mein.....Tumhe nhi pata agr rudra ko halki si bhi chot aa jati na toh meri saase hi ruk jati.... I am indebted " He said and hold my hands in his

"Aree shiva yeh kya bol rahe ho, rudra ke jagah koi bhi hota toh yahi karti main toh yaha toh rudra tha and please don't say thank you afterall uski caretaker hu main uski hifazat is my responsibility" I said with a smile and he too smiled back and before we could say anything else rudra jumped in

"Koi mujhe bhi toh attend karo" He said by throwing his hand up so that shiva could take him up in his arms

" It's attention ru" He smiled and took him in his arms

" Aap pehle yeh batao apko kitni baar kaha h ki iss tarah nhi daudte kab sudroge haan.... " Shiva siad with a little frown

"Sorry daddy jyada excited ho gaya.... " Rudra said looking down making me go aww . The father son moment got broken by the manager's voice

"Sorry sir it all happen by mistake... Don't know how this carelessness took place.... We are really very sorry" The manager said and all the workers looked down with guilt

" It's ok as my son is absolutely fine but pls be more careful from next time onwards and stock up the materials when the mall is about to close or when there are less people around " Shiva said

"Sure sir.... Again sorry for the inconvenience caused" And he walked away leaving we three alone

"Raavi what are you doing here? " Rudra asked

" Just wandering around, tum batao ? "

"Hum yaha shopping karne aaye h. Mujhe shopping pr aana pasand h tumhe bhi pasand h? "

" Bahutt"

"Toh hum saath mein kare waise bhi
Daddy se nhi hoti" Rudra giggled and shiva frowned

"Hn chalo why not" I replied

And i asked shiva for the list and he gave. I started searching for the items as per the list holding rudra's hand and shiva was behind us with the shopping cart.

Shiva

We were going through all the sections raavi was seeing the items with rudra clinging to her and i was practically being their assistant following them and their orders. I looked around and saw everyone smiling at her We actually were giving a happy family vibe.... I smiled at that thought but shrugged it away as it is just not possible. An old lady was passing by when her bag dropped I bend down and picked up all the items scattered she thanked me and said

"God bless you... Must say your wife and son are really very adorable.... Always take care of them " I didn't knew what to respond just passed her a smile... I looked forward and found raavi and rudra Standing with all the items scattered.... God these two..... I rushed to them and helped them picking up all the items and putting them back at their places when I saw two mens looking at raavi and smirking I turned around confused but it vanished as soon as I saw that, as raavi was bending to pick up the items her top shifted giving a little view of her very soft and white clevage... Anger rose in me as I turned back and looked at the men not looking but glaring and made a fist out of my hand. I signed them to get lost by my eyes and as if they got the message they ran away. I turned back at raavi and told her to stand up straight as I'll pick up the remaining items.. She looked confused but then agreed.... And as if getting my hint she adjusted her top back..... We were done with the shopping and as I payed the bill and moved out my phone rang

" Shiva, when will you be home? " My mom asked. I heard a hint of excitement in her voice. She has something planned I can sense that. That's my meddling mom for you.

"In a few minutes, I'm at the store. Should I be worried? " I asked

"No no..... Of course not" But her singsong tone of voice told me ki mujhe hona cahiye.... She said goodbye in a rush.... Not good
I cut the phone and looked up as raavi and rudra walked up to me.

"Who was that daddy? " Rudra asked

"Your dear grandma! I sometimes wonder ki main itna normal kaise hu jbki your grandma is soo very strange. I guess it skips a generation.. " Rudra and raavi looked at me and i looked at them and realized what I've just said.

"Buddy, I think you have been skipped tooo" Raavi chuckled lightly and rudra laughed. I asked raavi whether I should drop but she said she already booked a cab... So We thanked her and said her bye and drove back to home.
I stopped at home. Rudra helped me by carrying lighter bags into the house. I trailed behind with the heavier load. Just as I closed the trunk my mother's car came through the gate.

"The devil has arrived I see" I thought. My mother parked and walked to us. We walked inside placing the bags on the counter.

Rudra greeted his grandmother and ran upstairs to play with his very new toys which raavi today bought him. I think he sensed something was about to happen and hence retreated.... That's my boy....

"So I wanted to tell you that....... Insia is back in town.. " I sighed. Insia is one of my mother's friend's daughter. She's been trying to set us up but I always sternly declined.....

"No, I appreciate it but I can't date someone" Lie , I needed to date someone. I was getting lonely and frustrated. It was time

"Shiva , abhi hi toh time h weekends or u are free and now a nanny to is there. I can see you need someone" She gave me a pleading look, with a sigh, i just shook my head...

"I'll think about it, maybe not insia. I can very well get a woman on my own" She snorted unladylike, here it comes

"Mmmh... Really? You don't make such good choices when it comes to women. .. Just look at you and lekha. .. " That name alone made my blood boil

"That was four years ago ! !! " I screamed but them lowered my voice as rudra was upstairs

"Fine!! Jo marzi karo I was just trying to help" She said goodbye and SAUntered off she knows lekha is a touchy subject. I slumped down on couch with my hands in my hair.... Frustrated....
It felt right to start dating again. I felt my heart drop to my stomach just thinking about getting in the game again. I was a Casanova once but after rudra coming in my life I lost my edge.

Maybe just one date.......

A/N next chapter will turn on the roller coaster ride......there's a little trouble in paradise

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