so as you know my wonderful life continues to get better today i found out that my grandfather on my fathers side is in a coma, I'm not the least bit sad cuz ive never met the guy, but I also found out that my father is also in the hospital but hes there due to liver failure. I'm not really sad all that much just numb to it i guess i mean like I'm a lil sad bcuz if he dies then ill never get to see him again.

but at the same time ive kinda forgotten what its like to see him i don't have much of a memory of him and the memories that I do have are of when well... lets just say he wasn't the nicest. i honestly don't know what i would do if he died.. i cant guarantee that i would even cry.