Now to the angst

Yoongi walked alone through the hall, his hand resting on the wall as he struggled to keep going. His knees felt weak, like he was going to collapse anytime soon and never get up again. He stopped abruptly, his head spinning out of control while his free hand rested on his chest,  he felt like he was having a heart attack. The only sound resonating through the hall was his heavy breathing.

This began with Jin Hyung and the pancake incident. He remembered his own teasing and Jin hyung’s warm grip on his thighs. He remembered the synchronization of their rapid heartbeats. Jin’s lips making a trail of kisses down to his collarbone. He could almost recall the smell of smoke that invaded his lungs, and Namjoon's smug eyes as he scolded him and Hyung for almost burning down the kitchen. He would never forget the nights, the warmth, and the lack of nightmares and anxiety as he cuddled his only hyung to sleep from that night to now on.

Yoongi's fingers touched the suave skin of his collarbone, licking his lips with just the memory of it all. He didn't want to believe what he heard before. He didn't want to believe his hyung could reveal such intimate moments to the others

And then Jungkook at the gym,ever since that day it was hard to look at the maknae. With just one glance at the young men his mind traveled to dreamland and once there he could not stop thinking of all the scenarios of what could have happened if he hadn't interrupted Jungkook’s approach. Yoongi frowned, he felt the panic grow inside him, the terror and paranoia of it all was hurting his chest as he struggled to breath.

Yoongi felt betrayed, hopeless, like his whole world has just crushed.

The sweetness of Taehyung lips, the  warmth of Namjoon's hands and Jimin's everything, all came rushing to him and he felt like puking.

Quickly he rushed into a room, just in time before he truly broke down. With a hand over his lips he muted the broken cries. It's far too late, he has fallen in love. But for what, a bet? A game for them to play? He fell down to the floor, pain barely registering because he only noticed the darkness surrounding him, and he felt alone.

Warm hands gently grabbed his shaking shoulders before a hug made him look up in surprise. There was Hoseok, looking sick and worried.