I'm honestly... just lonely

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So heeeeeeere i am With another part!! If you still haven't figured out who the last pov was, theeeen. bad for you, cuz you ain't gonna get to know yet.

Unknown pov

I shouldn't have let myself trail of like that.... I just miss the old times... when there was only us two... side by side... heart beating rapidly.. With mutual feelings for eachother. I wish it was still like that. But the male i now know... is not him.

He's not the same anymore. He's changed since last time. His face, his tan, Spanish skin... his body, hands, and his hands... Oh and how i miss his full, light tinted lips of his, and i can't ever forget the gaze from his dreamy, Brown eyes, that his parents must had picked Diamonds to make.

I miss the male i grew up With. not that nasty, good looking fuckboy that every one wanted... I wanted my one and only, Colorful, nerdy, more likely gay, cute, little bean, back. The sunshine of my entire childhood... 

I knew all his Secrets.. I knew what happened after his mother passed away, after his father turned his back on him and sent him to an orphan... Even through all that... he remained strong, yet not a happy little boy. His face was always bruised and he had marks from being attacked With blades.

Most of his scars was... only his... it was his masterpiece, as he called it. He had periods where he was completely out of his mind, he was insane... He murdered a teacher at Our School for not understanding his insecureties and difficulities...

On the inside... he knew that he was wrong to do that, and i know he was just scared. By the age of fourteen he started rebeling, he started doing drugs, smoking, getting tatoos and piercings. He was in a gang, no not a gang... the gang...

Their gang was named: La muerte sin rostro

(i'm not spanish so this is probably wrong, honestly i just used google translate eheh)

After that... i lost track of him... He was gone and i couldn't help it... i couldn't help him...  But finally after all his four years in that gang, we met again. We were eighteen then... His scars had started to fade, but there was times he never showed his body to anybody, but one person. And that person wasn't me... I was not the chosen one... He chose someone else...

Sometimes i even wonder if he knows about his past with me... or if he just.... forgot it all. At times... i hope he has, yet on the inside i know that i don't... And i will never let go of the feeling he gives me... The feeling of being warm, og my face burning so hot when he's around. Seeing him better off with someone else breaks my heart. It breaks down me...

This one male that i truly love loves someone else...

I'm not alone either, i'm with someone else.... that i thought i loved... that i brought myself to love... That i forced myself to love... To make myself stop thinking of him..... Why? why did i do this to myself? Because i don't want anyone else to feel sad... so i take the pain away for them, but as many times i've done that... i just hurt myself more and more...

Wait... why do i even love him? He's just a fuckboy and he has cheated... but he's so damn hot, he's yet so Nice and adorable. When he looks at me my heart just skips a beat and i hate myself because of it... but to be honest... I'm just lonely...


Cole's pov

I was gonna give in on Lirit's wish, fake my love for her until she's weak enough for the rest of Our team to beat her. Hah! It was a bulletproof plan! Nothing could stop us! Beside.... We need to find Coleen, Nya and Pixal. And where the hell is Zane?

I dried my tears With my hand and got up to the hut. What i came back to see was just horrible, it burned my eyes and killed me on the inside. A person who was supposed to be loyal towards me... seen in a not so loyal habitat...


Unknown pov (Not the same as the other)

Our lips met again and again. The love between us two had become reality, there was no stop to what was happening.. I knew we were both doing something so wrong, yet, how could it feel so right? I was sitting against the wall With him on my lap facing me, pecking my lips now and then followed by long, passionate kisses. I had my hands in his messy, blond Locks, yanking in them softly at times.

His arms was snaked around my neck both shirtless, damn he was cute. His green eyes almost glowing up the dark of the hut. MI moved my hands to his hips and then Down to his butt only holding them there. I hated the fact that this body was really someone else's rightful property. I wanted this paleskinned, green eyed and blonde haired boy With such a fragile and cute body to be my rightful property.

This was Our little Secret, if nobody sees then when we get Kai back... We can all just go back to the normal... right?

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