*Wednesday*

Y/n's Pov

I woke up feeling too hot. Opening up to get my groggy mind awake and in senses, I slowly opened my eyes. My limbs felt as if I was tied up somewhere. They can't move.

Waking up fully, I realized I was tightly wrapped up in several blankets with only my face out. Several freaking blankets.

I groaned trying to free my arms.

"You woke up? How are you? Can you hear me? Are you okay?"

"Jungkook?" I groaned out. My voice hoarse and weak.

"Mark. But you want me to get him?" He asked me in a calm tone.

I saw his worried yet soft features. Getting his help to unwrap myself, I lifted up and leaned against the headboard.

"We faught." I said in a tiny voice to Mark.

He looked down at his lap mumbling. "I know."

"Did you... did you tell him?" I asked fearing what his answer would be.

"I did."

"Why?"

"It wasn't fair for him. He didn't know anything."

"He didn't have to know." I said.

"He did! I told you to tell him. So many times cause it's better he knows but you were scared. Why were you so scared?"

"It's not a pleasant thing to say to the person that loves you." I said feeling guilty.

I should have at least let him know. But I was scared and reluctant. What if he leave me for that?

Was I selfish?

"He told you of all the stuff he did knowing full well that it isn't pleasant. He trusted you with his entire life and told you everything of his past. Yet you didn't." Mark pointed out making my heart ache. I'm such a failure when it comes to communication.

"Don't make me feel guilty." I mumbled.

"No. I want to make you feel guilty. You have only ever opened upto me and Mina. It's time you let Jungkook in completely. He loves you. I can see that like very well. Heck even dad saw it. Yet I'm... getting mixed feeling from you." He said honestly.

"I love him. I love him so much."

"Then trust him. Show him that you trust him, that you love him. Do you want to?"

"Yes."

This is all my fault. I should have let him know. It is all my fault. Gosh how stupid am I to hide something important like this?

But even if he knew, will that have changed how he reacted to that situation?

If he had known, will he ask the same question still?

"Do you want to talk to Jungkook?" He asked.

I do. I miss him so much.

I nodded and smiled at Mark who returned the smile back. He got up and leaving a kiss on my forehead, left me to go find Jungkook.

I feel nervous about meeting him. The fault was on both of us but now it's mostly on me. I should have told him. That I have the fear of abandonment. I always feared that he would leave me. Seeing the girls he used to be with was hard enough as I found myself comparing to them everyday when I see my face.

When he saw my body, I felt the panic attack rising but I stayed calm to enjoy being with him. I was scared afterwards thinking that he would leave now. But he didn't. He never did.

When he started telling me his past, I knew he trusted me. Even after seeing all my faults and plain body, he still trusted me with his whole life. It made me feel safe and happy.

It made me feel like I don't ever have to worry about being separated by him. It made me be sure that we would always be together so I ignored my own negative thoughts to enjoy being with him.

But I forgot the fact that people argue. That we might argue one day. That there will come a time when we have different opinions which could lead to a fight. I was not prepared for that. I was not ready. So the moment it happened, I was left in shock.

His eyes that conveyed the sadness and pain is carved in my mind as I felt the rising panic of having to watch him leave. When he didn't call me to stop me from going out, I felt my breathing increase. I felt the fear. It escalated because it felt too familiar.

Like it happened before. But I calmed down when I was thinking about it.

It only rose again when I was stuck in the balcony. Like what I felt being stuck on the plane.

Plane? I suddenly got the memory of myself crying in the plane to not go. My mom holding onto my crying form as I screamed to get off of it.

Maybe it's the time when we came to our country where I was separated from Jungkook when we were youn-

No.

It can't be.

Is he the person I always felt like I left behind? Is he the one...

He was the reason. He is the reason for my fear.

Having to leave him from my life, feeling that loneliness of the new place might have triggered my mind to have the phobia. The fear of being abandoned. Like how I had to leave Jungkook.

Tears fell as I started crying hard.

My entire life has always revolved around Jungkook and I didn't even know it.

"Y/n?" I heard the soft voice that pulled me out of my thoughts.

Suga stood by the door peeking in. Signalling him to come in, he closed the door behind him before coming to sit next to me.

"Why are you crying?" His voice unbelievably soft that it made a sob escape as I cried again.

He pulled me in for a hug patting my back softly.

"Y/nie, can you tell me why you are crying?"

I gathered my voice to answer him. "I-I have the p-phobia because of J-Jungkook." I stuttered.

He pulled me out of the hug and looked at my face, scanning.

"What do you mean?"

"I've had this fear ever since I was little because I lost s-someone. I didn't know who. But... it's Jungkook."

"Your pasts are connected and you guys were together when you were little right? So leaving him made you have it?" He asked me to which I nodded.

He hmmed softly before patting my head. "I can understand why you didn't tell anything to Jungkook. But now that he knows, are you okay?"

"I don't know. I want to talk to him about everything." I said.

He gave me a small smile. " You should always talk about anything that might cause a problem or misunderstanding. Specially things like this."

"I will try my best. I don't want to keep anymore secrets."

"That's my baby sister. Now promise me to tell him everything." He said before ruffling my hair playfully. I giggled.

"It's nice to see you smile. You look ugly when you frown." He said then making me frown. "See what I mean. You look like an angry gingerbread man."

I burst out laughing to that which made him smile watching me.

The door opened to reveal Mark again.

"I'm sorry Y/n. Jungkook is a little .... busy with something." Mark said sheepishly.

I know Mark like the back of my hand so it wasn't hard to know that he was lying. But I accepted it.

"It's okay. He can come when he is ready. I won't give up." I said with confidence although my heart felt heavy.

"We are right by your side no matter what happens. Remember that." Suga mumbled before getting up.

Right when he turned, Mina came in through the door. Both Mina and Suga stopped in their tracks as they looked at each other, tension growing in scales between them.

"I'm go-going to go n-now." Suga stuttered.

"Y-yea. Ookay." Mina stuttered back earning a confused glance from both Mark and me.

None of them moved which made me exasperated.

"What the hell happened between you two while I was sleeping?" I exclaimed loudly which made those 2 flinch.

"N-nothing." Suga answered earning a glare from Mina.

"What? Nothing?" Mina suddenly asked.

Suga watched her with big round eyes.

"You are telling me that nothing happened?" She slowly edged closer to him.

"N-no, that's not what I meant."

"Then what happened?" Mark asked.

"Nothin-"

"How can you tell that nothing happened you jerk? You couldn't keep your hands off me! Having sex is nothing to you?" Mina exclaimed.

Suga gulped. "I w-was just going to say that it's not something that concerns him. But Mina it meant everything to me."

This time Mina blushed.

I awed at how cute they both look with flushed cheeks.

"What are you awing at?" Mina asked me sheepishly but annoyed.

"You guys finally had sex." I said in a cute voice.

Mark laughed while Suga smiled dearly at Mina. "You snitched us."

"Sorry." Mina mumbled before she got pulled into the embrace of Suga who kissed her forehead with a gummy smile.

"It seems like even the angry Suga is scared of our Mina." Mark pointed out earning a smack from Suga on the back of his head.

"Every guy is afraid of their girl. It's a hidden secret. You should know that."

"Hell yea. Julia is pretty scary too."

We talked further about the two of them.

It was almost lunch when Jin called the others for lunch while bringing a soup for me.

"How are you feeling?" He asked me as he watched me eat.

"Okay I guess but restless. Feel like something's incomplete." I answered honestly.

He chuckled. "You and Jungkook are more alike than different."

"What do you mean?"

"He said the same thing when I asked him."

"Then why doesn't he want to talk to me?" I asked.

"Give him a little time to think Y/nie. He is just trying hard to wrap his head around everything. But trust me he is trying."

I sighed. "It took me 3 months to digest his past so I don't blame him."

"Yea. So give him a little time. He will be back." He assured earning a smile from me.

We talked randomly about everything until I finished my soup. Advicing me to sleep, he went away so I lied down again.

Thought after thought accompanied my mind. My entire body missed Jungkook so much that it nearly drove me crazy. I want to feel his touch so damn bad!

Soon sleep engulfed me while I was busy wandering through the thoughts.

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Groggily getting up to the now darkened room that's only iluminated with the moon light, I sat up trying to wake up fully.

The darkness of the room blinded me momentarily.

After gaining a little sight, I moved my legs to get up from the bed. My body feels really stiff having laid down the whole day.

I was about to head towards the door when something caught my attention. Something in front of me on the floor. Narrowing my eyes, I looked closer.

No. No. It can't be.

I gasped. My hands went to cover my mouth with the shock an involuntary sob escaped me.

His head bent down. Hair hair covering his face. His hands on his thighs as he knelt in front of me.

He is kneeling.

"W-what are y-you do-doing?"

He shouldn't have to be on his knees. Why.... why?

"G-ge-get u-up Jun-Jungkook."

"I should have believed you. I shouldn't doubt you. No. I don't doubt you. I- I- I- I shouldn't have done that. I should have known." He said without lifting his head.

"J-Ju... Jungkoo-k. Plea-se get up." I slowly made my way towards him crouching down right in front of him to kneel. Gathering his face in my small shivering hands, I lifted his face up.

His eyes red, tears spilling from the corners  as he looked at mine.

"It's not y-your fault. It's m-mine. I should have trusted you with everything." I mumbled. My fingeres hastily wiping the tears escaping his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." He chanted while sobbing.

"No. Please don't." I pulled him for a hug crashing our bodies together hard and tight. He burried his head in the crook of my neck savouring the touch that we both missed. I felt his tears on my skin rapidly falling.

I missed him. I missed this so much.

I stayed hugging him tightly as he tightened his hands around my small frame.

"I'm sorry. For doubting you." Jungkook started. My tears were falling fast that I could only manage a weak sob when my words got stuck. "I'm sorry for not being the person you deserve to have. Your secret that you kept from me deserves an ear to listen to and make sure you don't ever feel that and I'm sorry I couldn't be that person for you."

A shudder passed through my body making my crying stop and pull out from the hug. His words... they sounded as if he is letting me go.

"Jung-Jungkook? You are... Are you b-breaking up with m-me?" I asked through a stutter. Scanning his face for a sigh of denial to the question, I couldn't help it when my heart rate escalated waiting with impatience.

He smiled at me. Through all the tears, his small curl of the lips was enough to calm my beating heart. That smile is a reassurance, it's a promise.

"Love, I will never let you go. Not even in your dreams baby. Even if I have to go through hell, I will be right by your side. I will be with you wherever you go and if you have any doubt, just look to your side and I'll be there holding your hand. Okay?" He asked me with his hands now holding my face in his firm grip.

My eyes only focused on his. My soul only watching him.

"I will try my best to be the man you deserve. I will do everything I have to do to be the guy you can trust. To be the one to make you smile everyday just like how you deserve it. I'm yours my princess."

I sobbed with a smile lighting my face. "And I'm yours."

We crashed our bodies together again. None of us letting the other go as we collected our shattered shelves. Helped each other gather the pieces that was strewn about.

Slowly pulling out of his embrace, I held his face again. "Don't even kneel in front of me. If we make mistakes, appologize. If we have a misunderstanding, let's talk and solve it. If we ever fight let's make up afterwards. But don't ever kneel. It broke my heart seeing you like that. It's not your fault Jungkook. It's entirely mine. I should have told you. I wasn't being honest when we agreed to tell everything. I'm sorry about everything. I'm so sorry."

"Shhh... Shhh. It's okay now. We are okay." He mumbled before crashing his lips on mine.

We melted into the kiss as our lips danced together. The kiss was promising as if we were mending the unspoken words of trust to each other. It's love. Just pure love with no hidden desires.

Soon breaking the kiss to catch our breath, I mumbled. "We should talk."

"Yea we should."

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Talking about everything in each others embrace to clear all the misunderstandings, we were finally on good terms.

After taking a quick wash, we made our way downstairs.

Jin cooked a dinner with me helping him and we all sat down to eat.

Conversation flowed well and soon everyone filled into their own rooms. Suga left with Mina to go to the hotel while Mark stayed back to play games with Jimin and Taehyung. Namjoon also left to go to his girlfriend's house. Me and Jungkook went into our room.

Getting under the sheet, I hugged his side.

"I missed you." I mumbled.

"Me too."

"By the way, I'm coming with you to the office on monday." I mentioned.

He tilted his head looking at me. "Why?"

"I gotta show that bitch Jahe who you belong to."

He chuckled. "It's Jeha."

"I don't even care. If she doesn't keep her eyes away from my man, I might break her leg."

"Do you trust me?" He asked me in a small voice. "To not cheat on you?"

"Yup I do. Now with my whole heart. I just don't trust anyone else. If she touch even a small hair of you, I'm gonna-"

"Okay okay! Break their legs. Calm down little bear."

I huffed making him chuckle and kiss my forehead.

We huddled in closer. I was closer to his chest while he leaned his head on top of mine. Not being able to stay without kissing him, I kissed him on his chest and collarbone, slowly moving up his body to reach the sweet spots.

His breath increased as he gasped which made me smile.

Right as I was about to kiss his neck, he stopped me. My smile dropped.

"We shouldn't do this today." He whispered with heavy breaths.

I lifted my head upto look at his darkened pupils as they gazed at me. "Why?"

"Cause Mark said that all I have been doing is having sex with you without talking to you and it's been in my head." He mumbled. "So this makes it feel like he was right."

I sighed. "We did talk Jungkook. It's just my fault for not telling you." I pointed out.

"Yea but still. I don't want our relationship to just be about sex."

"It's not. It's not just about sex baby."

"Y/n, we love each other. Relationships are about being in it, both of us together while giving it our true selves. We are one in this, my love. There shouldn't be any secrets. But if you can't trust me then we can take things slow." He mumbled.

My heart aches listening to his soft yet sad voice. "But I trust you and I don't want to change anything. I like how things are now."

"Then please don't hide anything anymore."

I quickly looked up at him. "I won't ever hide anything from you again. I promise. This is completely my fault. I forgot that we could also fight. I'm sorry." I muttered.

"It's okay. I'm sorry too."

We stayed gazing at each others eyes. I smiled softly. "We should stop saying sorry now."

He smiled back. "Yea."

I slowly inched closer while I held his gaze. Our smile vanishing slowly as we craved for the other. Our breaths mixed in between us making us both feel the heat.

I clashed our lips together hungry for his lips not being able to hold back anymore. I turned so that I was on top and kissed him harder, devouring his lips completely. He let me take control.

Pulling away from my lips, he mumbled. "We can't toda-"

I kissed his words not letting him finish. I need this today.

"Y/n... hmm... Stop." He mumbled in between my kisses.

"Shut up and let me do this." I whispered harshly.

He pushed me away from him slowly and carefully before making me gaze at him again.

"Y/n are you doing this with something else in mind?" He asked me while scanning my face.

"What do you mean?"

"We faught and made up. I just want to confirm that you're not doing this because you are afraid I would leave."

I sighed as I fell on his body, hiding my face in his neck.

"It's not that exactly but maybe a little?" I answered honestly.

"Y/n, why can't you just trust me?" He asked with a slight hint of anger.

"I do. I just... my mind is making me have doubts. It makes it hard to believe."

"Believe what?"

"That you are willing to stay with a broken girl like me." I whispered feeling embarassed.

His features softened and he hugged me to him. "Y/n, listen to me carefully. Being broken is a charm in it's own way. Trust me, if you looked perfect with no flaws, I would be reluctant to handle you being afraid that I would be the one to break you. That I would be the one to shatter the fragile piece. But if you are broken, then I can help you mend yourself and watch as each little scratch is mended to make you appear proud and happy with all the broken pieces put back together. I would be proud of being the one who helped you to find yourself."

He grabbed my face and pulled me up for our faces to align. "You being broken doesn't make you any less attractive. It makes you more and more attractive. And I absolutely love you for that. I'm not perfect too. I'm broken in my own messed up way. Yet you accept me. So please let me accept you too."

My eyes filled with tears at his beautiful words. "I'm really sorry. I'm so stupid."

He kissed me. This time more slow and promising.

We kissed for a long time before he moved down to my neck. He took the first step and I enjoy the power he is giving me with the little touches.

This time, it's different. Before it was me confirming that he wouldn't leave. Now it's us mending each other with trust, love.

Having sex is one of the most pleasurable yet most vulnerable moments in our lives. This is us showing the other how we trust them to protect us even at our most vulnerable state.

Stopping briefly, he looked at my eyes again. His hands caressed my face as he held me closer to him.

"If you need proof to show that I would never leave, then use me. Use me as proof however way you want. My mind, my heart, my body is all yours. Now and forever."

Tears filled my eyes making me kiss him all over again.

His authority gave me strength. I removed his t-shirt and kissed his whole chest. Everywhere I can get my lips on. His deep throat groans were encouraging me more. He didn't object and neither did he move to take control. I softened at how he is giving me the lead today.

I don't want to prove anything now. His words alone gave me the confirmation. But I want him now. I want him to know that all of me belongs to him too.

Sitting up with my legs on either side of his hips, I looked down at his body.

The purple bruises were started to get visible but his skin remained red. Smirking at my masterpiece, I grabbed the hem of my blouse and removed it. I was braless so my buds started hardening as soon as the cold air hit them.

For the first time, I didn't feel insecure about my body.

Our breaths were heavy although we weren't even doing anything yet. Just the body of the other can make us go crazy.

Lifting myself up from him, I removed my panties before removing his shorts making us be completely naked all the while holding my sharp gaze with his.

Sitting down in between his thighs, I grabbed his shaft in my hand and pumped him a little to make it go harder. I felt him shudder under my cold touch. His rapid rise and fall of the chest, his half opened eyes were driving me full of lust.

I slowly moving upto align my core with his shaft and rubbed him against me coating him with my juices.

Slowly, I entered him into me all until his entire length disappears. It feels really deep but much more pleasurable.

I started to move my hips keeping all of him in me. I was reluctant to lift myself up cause I wanted to feel him all in me before I move.

His hand grabbed my hips as I started circling myself making both of us moan.

Having enough with my teasing, he grabbed my hips hard and started making me move up and down on his length. The power and the force of his move to control my whole body along with my own force was making my chest dance with each jump.

"You look so good riding me babygirl." He mumbled while having uneven breaths. I couldn't form any words as I was busy moaning hard.

I felt the tight knot soon in my lower stomach and my moves became careless and sloppy.

Sensing how I was getting tired, he pulled me to him shiftly before rolling us to get on top of me.

"Let me have you now." He said before thrusting into me harder yet slowly. The combination made me see stars.

He caught my hands that were clutching the sheets and lifted them up over my head, pinning them to the mattress using one hand.

His other hand held him up and he started caressing my face with it.

His thrusts got weak when he got closer making me clench around him.

Soon as if on cue, we both came hard while groaning as immense pleasure washed over us.

Recovering from our high states, he pulled out and laid down next to me.

"Jungkook." I said to grab his attention.

"Hmm?" He mumbled with his lips against my skin, lying his head in the crook of my neck.

"I love you." I said as I hugged him close to me.

"I love you more baby."

"This feels nice." He stated. I was already halfway asleep so I just hmmed in response.

Soon I let sleep take me away.

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