i'm afraid
that i don't mean as much
to them
as they do to me

i'm afraid
i'm not cool enough for them
not interesting enough for them
not enough for them

i'm afraid
they'll become
so much closer to one another
than i am to any of them
and they'll grow tired of me
being the fourth wheel
and they'll kick me to the curb

(and for the record,
that exact thing
has happened to me before,
but that was deserved.
i like to think
i've improved enough
as a person
not to deserve it now.)

the thing is
they're the most important
people in my life
and i don't know
what i would do
without them