The past week was good my wounds started to heal up, Shizou took off time from work, and I was now living in the comfort of his house. I headed down for breakfast. "Morning Shizu-Chan." Was all I said stifling a yawn as I walked into the kitchen. "Morning, so listen flea today I'm going back to work today and you're going to stay here, alone." My eyes widened slightly. Alone. The words repeated in my head over and over again. I gave Shizou a crooked smile and simply nodded, not trusting my voice. He gave me a smile that made all my worries go away and butterflies no wait pigeons flutter in my stomach. All I could focus was on him. On the perfect monster in front of me. Wait a second what the hell am I thinking?!

  Time Skip

  "I'm leaving bye flea!" Shizou yelled while walking out the door. He slammed the door and I immediately dropped to the floor. "Please don't go. Don't leave me all alone." No I'm going to stay strong. I'm going to pick myself up and think happy and positive thoughts.

Ok you've got the whole day to yourself Izaya do something fun and don't listen to the voices. Yes I know something fun and you can't escape us. No, no, no nothing you make me do is fun. Oh but I'm sure you'll find this fun in fact this will be the most fun you'll ever have. Most-no snap out of it Izaya. Yes the most fun you'll ever have, I will show you a good time Izaya . Promise? Promise.

   Ok where do I go; what do I do? Ok go to the kitchen get a knife and then go straight to the bathroom. What? Where is this going? You'll see. I did what he told me to. Curiosity just got the best of me, I guess.

   Once I was in the bathroom I sat on the toilet. What are we going to do? We're going to paint a pretty picture and you, you're going to be the canvas. What? I want you to slice your skin with that knife. Why? No I don't want to. You'll do it because it will relieve the pain. The pain of you knowing that you're just a ugly, stupid, narcissistic, fagot and that Shizou will never love you. You're wrong. Am I? Y-yes, I think. Are you doubting yourself? No. Tell the truth Izaya. Yes. Then, see your own body and mind knows I'm right. It also knows that I'm right about the pain. Do it, cut yourself.

    I took in a deep breath and let the knife slide against my wrist. The blood poured from the cut spreading around my arm onto the floor. The dark red staining everything. Then, I did it again and again.  More blood just poured creating the most beautiful sight ever. No. Snap out of it this is most definitely not beautiful. Oh but it is. Look into the blood and see the intent in it. Intent in blood? I looked into the blood to see he was right. I can see the pain and dark intentions in it.

   Suddenly the cuts didn't look so pretty to me anymore. What have you done to me? I've only made you beautiful. I've shown you a good time. A good time?! How is this a good time?! Oh not for you but for me. As you can see I said I would show you a good time but technically I am you. I'm just a better and more improved version of yourself. Oh by the way you better clean up before Shizou comes back. Shizou that's right! What would he say when he comes back? Will he kick me out?Will he hate me? No he won't, he won't because he won't even know. Yeah I'll just have to keep this a secret...for now.

A/N: YEP I FINALLY UPDATED! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE 200 READ! I LOVE YOU ALL EVEN THOUGH YOU PROBABLY HATE ME FOR NOT UPDATING. I'm sorry.

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