Ashton's POV

I spent half an hour just sitting there, not really knowing what to do, I stood up and walked home

My flat partner, Liam greeted me with a huge smile "hey Ash, what's up?" He said

"I'm a jerk" I said falling on the couch

He chuckled "I know that, but why?" He was my best friend, the same as Zayn

"Well, I met a guy, Luke, yesterday at school and... I just messed up" I didn't want to talk about the whole 'kiss thing' with Luke

"How did you mess up?"

"I took him to the cave and--"

"Wait, you took him to YOUR cave?" He said "I have never been there" he pouted

"And you never will, Liam, Zayn's never been there either" I said "anyways, I took him to the cave and we watched a movie and he was tired so he fell asleep, I woke him up late and we stayed there but..." Tears started building in my eyes as I remember what succeeded earlier, he noticed them and said

"It's okay of you don't want to talk about it" I shook my head and continued

"I woke up at 6am and I saw him outside the cave and, he was... Cutting, he sat on the floor and closed his eyes, when he woke up, around 30 minutes later, we talked and I..." I stopped, should I tell him that I kissed a boy I met less than 24 hours ago?

"You kissed him, did you?" He asked, I sighed but nodded

"After that, he kissed me and then, we argued and I yelled at him, I didn't mean to do it, it just happened, but then he left" I said letting tears finally escape my eyes

"Don't worry, you go to the same school, you can talk to him on monday, but be careful, don't mess this up again, I want to meet the mysterious Luke" Liam said smiling, his smile was full of sympathy and it made me smile as well

"Do you think he'll forgive me?" I asked

"I don't know, maybe it's time for you to talk about that" he said, my heart broke remembering that day

"But, I can't, I had been months without sleeping, and if I did, I woke up at night crying" I said, I couldn't tell Luke what happened

"Tell him how you felt when you did it after that day, it took me a long time to know" he said looking at me "just tell him how you felt"

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