Author's Note: This chapter is quite freely. I'd grab the kleenex box......

Jace

I wake up early and decide to make Clary and I some breakfast. After a while, I don't see Clary, but I decide she must still be sleeping. I don't want to wake her up.

Twenty minutes later

I hear the stairs creaking and go to greet Clary. "Hi-" I start, but when I see her, I stop. Her face is red and puffy. Her eyes are swollen and her hair is astrew. "Love, what's wrong?" I ask concerned.

"I.....I thought you left me. I woke up and you were gone, so I figured maybe you w.....we're having second thoughts," Clary cries.

"Come here baby," I coax. Clary slowly walks closer to me. I pick her up and carry her back up the stairs. Clary quietly cries into my chest. I lay her down in her bed and crawl next to her. Once she's back in my arms, I start talking, "Clary, I was making some breakfast. I swear I'm not having any second thoughts. I'm sorry baby, it's okay." I gently pet her head as she cries. "Are you listening?" Clary nods a bit. "Good, because you need to know this. You and Willow are my number one. I wouldn't know what to do without either of you. When I was without you and Chloe dug her talons in and tried to keep me, it took me to see that you and Willow were being hurt to get away, but as soon as I did, I regained my senses. I'm literally a stupid lost idiot without you. I get companionship from you that I've never had before. Just talking about the past, present, or future with you means the world to me. Hearing your laugh can put a smile on my face. It's so cute when you blush. Despite the cards you've been given, you're innocent, caring, sweet, and you've made them work. I love how loyal you are, but I want to make sure no one ever takes advantage of that. I want to keep you safe and happy. I love you."

"Jace, you and Willow are my number one too. I was lost without you. Willow is just so loveable and cute, I can't resist. I know you will always be here for us. It's okay to make mistakes. You're special smile melts me into a puddle. You're honor, integrity, and gentless make me fall harder. I never feel unsafe with you, but I'm never scared of you, not anymore. I know you'd protect me with brute strength, but I know you'd never hurt me physically. I also know that you're heart has been broken, and I never want you to have to feel that way ever again because of me. Jace, I love you too." I really want to make love to this beautiful girl, but she's not ready. I'll wait though, as long as it takes.

"Love," I say.

"Babe," Clary quietly replies.

"Kiss me?" I breathlessly ask. Please know it's a question, not a demand......

"Yes," Clary answers before she leans her head up and connects our lips. She turns her body, so she's comfortably on top of me. I know we won't go as far as I want to, and as far as we go is more than good enough for me. Her hands find that sensitive spot in my hair, and I can't help but let out a small moan. I run my hands to her torso for support. Eventually, our Clary pulls away. Thank the Angel, I was about to be out of air too. But then she suddenly starts kissing and sucking my neck, and I hold in a groan. How is it she's doing the kissing and I'm breathless? "Don't hold back for me, please," Clary pleas. "I want to hear what I can do to you. How much you're enjoying this."

"Baby, I want you to enjoy this too," I manage between fast breaths.

"Don't worry, I am," Clary whispers. I gently turn us over while she's distracted. I leave sloppy slow kisses on her neck. She runs her hands through my hair, just how she knows I like it. Once I get to her collar bone, I start going toward her ear. Don't say anything this time?! She's not ready, just keep it in. I slowly lick her ear and she moans. Her fingers tug at my shirt. I give her one last kiss before I pull away to take my shirt off, but Clary keeps her hands on me and pulls it over my head. Angel! That is hot! Okay, just calm down a bit. Her lips reconnect with mine while I'm distracted.

She inches my hands down to her waist. Let her lead........she's in control. At the end of her shirt, she lets go, and I gently slide her sweatshirt off. She's only wearing a lacey bra underneath, and I just about die. I guess I stare for too long because Clary suddenly looks worried. "I....is something wrong?" Clary asks nervously. "I....I'm not as big as Chloe......."

"What?" I question dazed. "No, I mean no. Nothings wrong," I reply.

Clary goes to cover herself with her hands and I know I screwed up. Ugh! Stupid brain! "Love, you look beautiful. I just got a little caught up on you," I try to explain. My little baby monster is throbbing as I try to talk. It's not exactly helping me right now.

Clary slowly removes her hands. I reconnect our lips. Clary's hand wanders, and I grab it. She's the one who's not ready. Not helping love....... "Love, we've already discussed this," I try.

"I know, but maybe it'll be okay this time," Clary quietly defends.

"Maybe it won't be," I counter.

"Jace, please let me try," Clary whines.

"I....I can't," I reply honestly.

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Anyone a little frustrated?

I do not own any of the Mortal Instruments books, materials, etc. All credit belongs to Cassandra Clare.

Author's Note:
I hope you all like it! Please leave comments, votes, and feedback. I'm going to update, when I'm done and it'll be random.

Originally posted: 5/28/18