I wanted to continue this as a story about moi. Because if anything, I would love to have somewhere I can just talk in, without a story. It's exhausting to make so many stories, I don't think I look after my health properly. This is here for rants and shit because I really need something. Okay?

Anyway, I wrote a song today, a song I am very proud of actually. It's actually inspired by my I would say best friends. caffeinetea and Hello_Im_Crazy279 so yeah, it was fun to write.

Although I know I could never be good enough to get any attention, I love music, almost as much as I love writing. It's nice to me, calming. Kinda like what my relationships with other people always are.

Anyway, I mentioned having a crush a few times, didn't I? I ugh, no, no more. I don't have that anymore. Why? Well, let's just say... 'I'm not sure' feels like a no when it's been said enough.

But hey, I met this boy a few years back. Kind and always smiling. His name is... oh fuck me, starts an A again. I'll call him Arin, mainly because it's close.

He's got freckles, brown hair, brown eyes and a kind smile. Plus. He's a total dork and a fucking pervert, although, i don't like him much seeing as he is with his girlfriend RN (long distance) but it's still nice to like someone respecting for ones. And a boy? I haven't liked one in 4 years!

There is a nice girl as well, let's call her Minnie. Minnie is a pretty ginger who sits next to me in my replacement for religion as I'm an atheist, she's kind and has piercings, something i want more of. Plus she is... how do I say this? Probably not meaning the things that sound like flirting. Seeing as I have heard she is very straight.

I could go to new people, I really could-fuck it.

If there is something I'm very annoyed at myself for it's liking people too easily. Well anyway.

Nobody else really matters to me as much other than maybe... Ada and fuck... if I call her Jay, that'll sound like I'm talking about J. Well, Jess, let's call her that.

Jess is this really funny person and I don't know really anything other than the fact she likes somebody else. But yeah, still beautiful.

I also have a tradition of flirting with my friends. So yeah. It doesn't always mean anything.

Ada is my lab partner. OH FUCK IF THEY FIND THIS I'M RUINED! But yeah, Ada is super nice but if she doesn't learn to use a microscope I will get very annoyed at the fact she does reading while I use it. But whatever, we have good chemistry, I should become friends with her, would make it better I think. Really, I like her but I want to be friends before anything. I got her to laugh ones, I have to try more.

I have one more chapter to make, which is about my journey to where I am now with my gender.