Hi everyone :) I want to begin by thanking God for helping me to even write and post this update because I had no intentions to update this week, however, I decided to for some odd reason. I want to thank all amazing readers who continue to read this story and thank you for giving so much love and support to this story :)

This is NEW UPDATE MADE ON 2/14/2020 :) Wedding Update next and will be hopefully made later and soon :) Anika and Chaaya uniting in Chapter 39 :)

MATURE CONTENT WARNING: THE CONTENT IN THIS CHAPTER IS APPROPRIATE FOR AGES 18 YEARS OR OLDER.

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Are updates long?-Yes I am giving long updates and please take your time reading them because updates are very slow right now just because I need some time to write the wedding track :) So, I am giving the sub updates as one big update that you can read anytime you like in one place :)

Is the story moving slow?-Yes

Am I moving the story slow on purpose?-Yes because all these chapters were supposed to be released as part of the wedding special and due to issues I now am releasing them slowly instead of consecutively. I am working on the wedding chapters, but I am so scared of publishing them because I feel like they are boring and I am not doing full justice to them, so that is why I have delayed. I feel like readers are going to be so bored and disappointed, so I am not publishing them and not ready as of yet :( I am so so sorry.

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Gentle kisses. Delicate brushes. Dancing silence. He continued to hold me against his heart while laying his love upon me and I relished it...drowning into it... hoping and praying this moment would never end. That he would always hold me...always love me...never letting me go.

Tears slipping down my cheeks finding my heart beating and skipping finding itself burdened by the amount of adoration and admiration it was getting at the moment which it hadn't for years...

For many years where my heart stayed in silence...loneliness...hallow...observing the love around it, but failing to grasp upon it...wishing and cursing fate why...why was it the victim of a broken heart.

"Anika...I love you...And I am so sorry..." He continued to repeat over and over again beating into the part of my soul that was telling me this was wrong, but I was not listening. I was not listening for a moment because I was consumed with the idea of being in love and being loved.

The water continuing to rush below us now drenched with our love that we seemingly had laid upon in moments of passion and drops of lust. Love has lust in it...it has to or else why will two unite souls unite? Lust is the need to fulfill one's desires to embrace their lover and lay upon the fire of compassion filled with a hunger to taste the purity of a lover...Hence, lust is borne out of love.

His lips trailing at the edges of my neck while he continued to lay tender kisses coloring me with a mosaic of his shades full of his darkness with tinge of light. "I know you love me Shivaay...I know you do," I whispered as Shivaay met my eyes finding tears in his name.

"Are you okay Anika? Did I hurt you in any way?" He questioned with concern before beginning to consume my tears with his swollen, rugged lips that still held a taste of me from the love we made in these raging waters.

My feet curling at the edge of the bath tub feeling waves of heat simmer up my legs and into my waist realizing how much I still wanted to continue to unite with him...to continue to merge our souls together and stop this night from proceeding.

"Y-yes...I am okay Shivaay. You did not hurt me...You were perfect...caring and gentle." My voice shaking with demure falling upon me as I wrapped my arms around his bare back pulling him closer ensuring myself that this is not a dream, but reality...that tonight Shivaay is in my arms.

We had made love many times tonight and yet we both somewhere had the yearning to continue to merge and mold into one soul because that is the love we both have...My love is ugly, disfigured, but it is still there for him and I am not ashamed of confessing such because I know that my life is now nothing if I don't have him. I cannot live without him for a moment and it's horrible I feel this way knowing he has wronged me, but still somewhere I want to forget and just be with him...because I cannot leave him.

"Baby, you are my life. I will always try my best to make you feel protected, comforted, and cared for...and most importantly I will ensure that you always feel loved by me each and every moment in this new life that we will begin together. I love you so much." Shivaay's words embracing my fragile love as my smile widened before I let go and looked into his eyes that appeared mesmerized.

"S-Shivaay...You don't know how I feel right now...This feeling is unusual Shivaay. I feel as if a dark, mold is now slipping away from my heart that was growing upon it and slowly killing my love for these five years. It took a lot of prayers to bring this moment...this moment where you are holding me and l-loving me. This appears as a dream to me...I never would have thought that you would come back into my life and we would once again reunite...Shivaay, I missed you so much...You do not know how much this heart has yearned for your presence...I really want us Shivaay...I want us to be the way we were before..."

Tears erupting from sacred wounds of my love before rushing out of my eyes...memories crawling back to me to remind me how I have lived so many years alone...begging...and praying to meet Shivaay once again...even if it would be for a moment.

Shivaay's palms wrapping around my cheeks as he began to wipe my tears away.

"Anika...I missed you too. I was in denial, but I now know that all these five years I loved you each and every moment because your memory was found in each and every thing I would do...You were everywhere and I kept trying to push these memories away, but couldn't. I am so sorry Anika, you had to suffer because of me...Anika, believe me...I didn't want to leave you. I didn't. There is a bigger reason and you will find out soon after our wedding. I just want this wedding to happen because I am scared...scared that if this wedding doesn't go through then I might just lose you and the twins forever...that you will leave me knowing why I did this. Anika, I am so scared...I am scared..." Shivaay's voice meeting a halt with tears now streaming evidently out of him while I sat still trying to figure the reasons why he is scared of telling me the truth and why he isn't saying it now.

"What is the truth Shivaay? Why did you leave me for her? Tell me...Please," I spoke with a sense of plea wanting to hear the truth because I know my heart is telling me that he did leave me for another reason which he doesn't want to reveal. There is a bigger reason and yet he still is not telling me.

Shivaay's gaze meeting mine revealing his bloodied eyes that continued to redden with tears burning them revealing a sense of shame. My fingers trailing gently against his cheek as I took hold of his tears and made them mine.

"A-Anika...I-I'm scared what you will say...but I also know you will be happy once you see the blessing that you will get tomorrow evening. Tomorrow you will be full of happiness, but also have anger...towards me. I am scared. I am scared what you will say...I am scared...that you might just leave me..." My heart scattering down my chest hearing his lines with fear now taking hold of it.

His words weaving mystery and confusion into me while I sat still trying to decode his lines, but failing. What blessing will I get in that will give me happiness, but also give me anger towards him?

I might leave him...What? No. Never. I am not going to leave him now. I don't care what the truth is or what it will do to me, but I am not leaving him. No, I finally have gotten him and now I am not walking away. I need him...I want him...I am falling for him and despite what big sin or mistake he committed, I will not leave him. I am not breaking my family...My children need him and me...My children are the important and I will not walk away.

My hand immediately taking hold of his neck as I pulled him closer forcing him to look into my eyes. "No...baby I am never leaving you now. I don't care...what sin or what misdeed you commit...I don't care what worse you do because I...I cannot leave you...You mean so much to me and I cannot describe it, but you are the reason why I am still living this damn life. I am falling for you Shivaay and again it's hard and fast just like the first time...and it sucks, but I cannot stop the feeling. So even if the biggest and worst truth comes to life, I will never leave you...Okay? I will never leave you..." My voice holding determination knowing that I am not going to leave him no matter what comes to be...that this time these sacred vows are for forever and eternity.

Shivaay's eyes standing still appearing stunned from my confession and not knowing what to say. Lifting himself up from the burning, simmering water in the bathtub, he looked down towards me trying to catch whether he had heard me correctly.

"W-what? Anika...you don't even know the truth yet...How can you just decide?...Don't you think I am being selfish by marrying you first and then deciding to tell the truth? Am I not being selfish?" He questioned while he began to pull on his wet hair finding himself drifting in guilt upon realizing what he was doing.

Selfish?...I don't know if I will call this selfish. He loves me of course, but then he loves his children. He perhaps is being selfish in keeping me, but then he wants his children to have a family which I also do too.

A weak smile touching my lips. "Saving your family and giving your children a good life is never selfish Shivaay. You want what I want...We both want our children to have a good life and loving parents which are us...We have to heal for our kids Shivaay. Our children are our life and for them we have to heal and bury our arguments, bitterness, and memories. Once I find out the truth, I may be angry and upset, but I am not going to leave and walk away...I promised my father and my children to be with you forever. Honestly, even if these promises were never in the picture, I would still choose to stay with you and not leave you. Because now this heart...my heart only wants you...so if you are ashamed or feeling guilty that we made love tonight despite you hiding the truth, then don't. I just want you to love me now, so just love me..." My voice sealing shut realizing how much my love for him was now beginning to strengthen...how reminiscent my love was like the one I always had for him...that intoxicating, insane love that made me completely submerge in it.

His hands grabbing on to mine as he slipped his fingers into them before pulling me up. A small smile touching his lips as he began to play with our hands before twisting it around my back and pressing his body against mine letting the heat of our damp skins to submerge into each other.

"You have won me Anika...Tonight you have completely won me....What good deeds did I do to get a woman like you as my wife? Anika...the way you understand me is insane and yet so real. How do you know me and my thoughts so well? Truly...I cannot tell what it is, but something connects us Anika...something connects the both of us. The way you understand me...complete my words...complete my thoughts and the way you read me. You...are my soul Anika...and now I just want to build our family...our family where you, me, and our children are live together with love and care and protection...I really want that Anika and I truly have a good reason why I left you and..."

My lips immediately crashing into his sealing his words shut only wanting to revel in this moment knowing somehow things may change and I may get upset with him...but still aware that somewhere I will still come back to him and embrace him... like always...

He is my true love and now I will do everything to build my love again for him.

The heat of our lips drowning into each other letting the drips of water skim against our bodies which now were drenched with soap soaking the both of us. His lips gently moving up and down across each and every corner of mine while I pressed back tightly only to deepen the kiss...knowing I wanted to guide him back to me once again, so we could dive into this heat and make love again.

His hands tracing the damp strands across my cheeks before pushing them back and wrapping his hand into my wet hair continuing to devour on the same dull taste which he had found fortunes in this entire night...appearing to catch different flavors that I couldn't find myself.

My hunger reaching peeks as I began to increase my pace forcing him to match mines wanting him to take control and take me back to the moment we just had escaped minutes ago.

Tracing my hand slowly down his chest, I slowly rubbed the soap into his muscles that began to flex under my touch becoming enticed. His lips separating in an instant as he began to push me back lightly leading me to the exact spot where we made love.

A smile touching my lips as I continued to rub his heart wanting to tempt it, so it could push him over the edge and force him to make love to me. His lips hungrily taking mine soaking them with bitter layers of soap mixed with his toxic flavors that I got my high upon.

His hands pulling on to his shirt, that I wore, before sliding his blazing touch down my bare waist taking a firm grasp of it and pressing me against his manhood that slowly was finding itself aroused by the possibility of indulging in another adventure. Our breaths winding down, but the gorging demons of lust telling us to not stop and to continue to lay in the satin clear water where we could love again.

A moan erupting from me as he began to give me a hit of ecstasy with his tongue ravaging my inner folds while I began to tug on his lips wanting a hit from his drugging taste. My hands layering burns of seduction down his navel and to his waist where pleasure hit him.

"We...shouldn't do this...Anika...you're pregnant..." He spoke breaking out of the kiss in an attempt to touch reality knowing how unsafe we were being at the moment.

Annoyance hitting me from his cowardness as I shook my head in frustration and wrapped my arms around him trying to pull him down with me knowing the moment we will dive again into these streaming rivers, where we have laid pieces of our secrets, petals of my love, and seas of his pleasure tonight, he will once again begin to unknot me and leave pieces of him upon my heart letting it know that it is loved.

"Anika, what has gotten into you?! We cannot do this again for now...We have to be safe for the twins!" He exclaimed shaking my cheeks trying to bring me back to reality while I pouted my lips and wrapped my arms around him pulling him into an embrace.

"No! I want you...I want only you...The twins are okay alright? We are being careful, so why can we just not continue?" I questioned eagerly wanting to end our conversation and just dive into our thirsting needs that were beating within our souls begging us to unite once again.

Trailing my lips down the edges of collarbone, I began to savor the drops of water upon it slowly letting my tongue press against it before sucking it. His hand wrapping into the waves of my hair with a groan escaping from him finding pleasure in that sweet spot. A coy smile touching my lips as I began to trace them down the waves of soap on his shoulder before laying fragile hits of kisses that would slowly lead him to a high of sensual paradise.

"Anika I have the... same desires as you, but we... need to stop...You need rest now and it's almost morning...you need some sleep right?" He whispered trying to bring me down from lakes of euphoria in which I was dipping myself shamelessly.

Taking a cusp of warm water from the one that surrounded us in the tub, I smeared it gently against the rough skin of his chest. My smile widening as I let seduction bewitch me knowing it was needed.

"Here let me help you...then we can...rest..." My voice lowering to softness knowing it was enough to allure this demon.

Shivaay's eyes closing with his jaw clenching tightly as he began to reel himself back to the cave of dangerous temptations. A shade of red coming across my cheeks finding my own self quite surprised by how I was taking the reign, but somewhere finding thrill in commanding the man in front of me knowing how no one else has ever dared to do such. Tracing my fingers down his chest, I let the soap shift and collapse with warm water now spreading in waves across his flesh which I began to rub and swiver across his heart...before stopping and then increasing the pace once again.

"Anika...what are you doing?" His voice getting louder resulting from his own frustrations that he was holding on to with dire patience despite wanting to unleash them. His chest quickening its rhythm upon my touch as I continued to lace him with hot water.

A giggle wanting to escape from me as I bit my lip firmly to not disrupt the seas of pleasure that now were escaping from his heart and rushing down his navel they soon will be mine. Letting my lips cling to his chest, I began to move them down and kiss each and every part layering him with brushful, soft kisses wanting him to now lust over me.

"I...am helping you Shivaay...That is what I am doing...Don't you want to help me? Don't you want to prove what a loving, caring...husband you are?" I whispered continuing to ravish him with kisses that now I was increasing against his warm flesh moving down to his waist letting them linger before tracing up to his neck taking a hold of it and biting into it.

His hands now beginning to drag down my back appearing to surrender to the edges of my shoulder which he began to feed upon it. A smile catching me as I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him closer knowing I was luring him back to me.

"I love you and I want this, but Anika you are pregnant...Now being the loving husband I am, I am saying we have to stop for the twins...We have all our lives to have fun and I will make sure we have fun..."His lips laying a gentle kiss on the edge of my neck making my smile widen. My cheeks turn a shade of red in an instant finding myself being reminded of our romantic trysts when we were married before.

"Shivaay...I just want to resume from where we stopped...I want us to be the way we were before things changed. I want to be that couple that we were in our happy moments not the bad ones, but the good ones. I want those good moments back...please, will you do that for me?" My heart dropping beats finding its wounds once again resurfacing that Shivaay himself gave.

I know many will say why I am with a man who has hurt me so much and why I am giving him an easy way to come back, but what can I do? This heart is not letting go of him and now can never knowing how it will be vowed to him. He is now going to be my husband and how can I just not even try to love him? Fate is telling me that Shivaay has always been meant to be my soulmate or else how is it possible that he and I are able to reunite again after everything we have gone through? How is it that fate is now giving me my rightful place back in his life if we were never meant to be?

Shivaay smiling weakly before he began to rub my cheek gently looking into my eyes and revealing a set of tears. "Anika I also too want to resume from where we hit a pause. I will do everything to make up for the time we have missed and I promise to shower you with the love you deserved from me when we were married...I promise to do everything to make sure you are happy, comforted, secured, and loved..."

Tears escaping from my eyes which Shivaay wiped away in an instant wanting to treasure them. "I love you and I will keep saying these three words all my life because you are my life. I never thought that...I even had the ability to love anyone Anika. Never. I never knew how to love and still don't, but I am learning Anika and this journey will be tough for me, but will you support me in this? Will you allow me to love you?" He questioned with his voice trembling before he lowered his gaze trying to hide his tears.

Silence touching us as Shivaay wrapped his arms around me pulling me into another embrace before beginning to brush his lips in circles upon my neck trying his best to make me feel loved.

Somewhere my heart fears this marriage and fears that it might be like the first...somewhere there is hesitance not wanting to fully accept this marriage, but then a part of me is not allowing me to ponder upon this hesitance...something just isn't allowing me to leave Shivaay and rebel.

That something is my heart...My heart holds him and cherishes him and has this ugly love that it hopes to add beauty to one day.

Tightening my grip across his waist, I kissed his shoulder gently. "Yes love me and only me. Tonight, I felt loved... and I felt loved that day when you held me when I was crashing in that hotel room after finding out about this pregnancy. I felt loved that day when you held my hand and stood in front of our families...and took responsibility of...our children and me...I felt loved when instead of yelling at me or being upset...you hugged me when you found out about our pregnancy. So, keep loving me like this...in simple ways...and I will be yours'. My heart tells me that I will be yours' when you continue to love me in such simple ways..." A smile touching my lips before I grabbed his cheek and pulled him into another kiss.

Our lips pressing gently not forcing...not tugging...not trying to win, but only feeling the embrace of our souls that continue to hold on to each other through these subtle, heated kisses that allow us to taste the love that our souls have continued to nurture all these years.

His lips still continuing to hold mine as we slowed the pace allowing us to taste each piece of ugly, dark, beautiful, and pure love that somehow was threading and holding our hearts together.

"Can we just?...Please?" I spoke in between our kisses knowing somewhere I still hold a gorge of hunger that is stampeding within me wanting me to make love to him again...wanting another taste of his love that has bitter poison in it from grays shades he still holds, but also a subtle sweetness that he is now nurturing in his love.

A chuckle escaping from his lips as he immediately let go and shook his head in frustration realizing I was not letting go of the idea. His hands grabbing a firm hold of my shoulders before he began to shake me back to reality.

"Anika...your hormones are getting the best of you right now and considering there are two little ones, I think these hormones are raging fiercely within you making you like this...I mean this is good for me of course..." A smirk touching Shivaay's lips as he began to chew upon it looking at me up and down finding himself lusting over my flesh knowing how badly he wanted a hit of it.

Pouting my lips, I began to rub my hands back and forth on his chest trying to dig into the soap and let it slip away before piercing needles of pleasure into him. Shivaay continuing to clench and unclench his jaw repeatedly in an attempt to hold on to that thirst he was beginning to once again have.

"Uff...then take advantage. Let's make love again in these simmering waters where we can let your love boil and seep and soak through me..." I whispered embracing a flavor of seduction that now I was delighting upon.

Shivaay's eyes widening realizing the double meaning of my words knowing their exact implications. A smirk touching my lips while beginning to trace my shaking fingers against the buttons of the shirt I wore finding myself nervous yet thrilled with how I was leading him in.

Trailing my fingers to the first button, I began to open it letting the soap smother through before revealing the laces of cleavage where he last claimed finding himself charmed by the subtle rose petals that he fetished upon.

His mouth slightly gaping open with his eyes falling right at his sweetspot knowing that is where rivers of pleasures are aroused within him. Continuing the traces of persuasion, I let the buttons slip open one by one revealing the delicate bites and passionate kisses he laid in each and every part of my damp skin. Leaning in closer, I let the heat of his lips blow against my bosom helping him ignite his fire of love that he held for me.

In an instant, he took a grasp of my arm pulling me against him before his lips took a firm hold of my collarbone only to lay deadly, poisonous kisses which began to drug me and bring me

on that high which helped breathe new life into me.

His lips blowing waves of heat while slowly beginning to glide down the dips of my cleavage. My eyes closing shut not able to bear the admiration that he was now beginning to leave with his kisses increasing their pace reveling the corners the two rose petals on my bosom letting them bloom and become firm indicating they were ready for love. Taking a firm grasp of one of the petals, he began to suck upon it wanting a taste of their sweetness knowing how they were now readying themselves for motherhood.

Grabbing a hold of the tub, I let the water splash as bubbles began to flow in the air around us finding themselves shake from the rumble of passion that was being formed with drugs of lust now erupting within our flesh.

Pulling me up, he crashed his lips into mine leaving urgent, supple kisses wanting to take each and every bite of my swollen lips and color them with his shades to leave his aftertaste that would stay with me forever. His hands grabbing hold of my shirt letting it slip off.

"Just make love again...please.." I whispered feeling his lips drift up to my neck where he began another tirade of smothering, light kisses from the heels of my cheek and down to my shoulder repeating the cycle. My hand lavishing over the wet waves his hair finding my lips burying into his hair where I began to enrich them with kisses.

Suddenly, something warm wrapped itself around me with his lips meeting an immediate stop. Confusion hitting me as he grabbed my arms forcing them through the warm fabric. My eyes shooting down as my mouth gaped open finding him wrapping a blue bathrobe around me.

"What the hell?!" I exclaimed with anger now hitting me realizing I have been fooled by him.

My eyes catching his wicked smile as he began to swiftly, merge his fingers down my bosom letting them linger there finding himself attracted to the mysteries hidden behind it...as he licked his lips letting the heat of his palm drop to my bare midriff before taking a tight hold of it making me gasp. His lips leaning against my cheek as he let out a chuckle.

"I think you forgot who you are dealing with Mrs. Oberoi. I understand each and every move of yours' and don't ever think you can seduce me with your will...I allow the seduction which allows you to lure me...This Shivaay can control his urges and knows how to. You can never seduce me until I allow it...Do you understand?" He hissed letting his fingers brush against the drops of water upon my waist where petals of pleasure had flowed out in moments of love...

A whimper escaping from me feeling my heart skipping its beats while beginning to feel his fingers rub and dig into the tension of my waist wanting to tantalize me and let me know how I couldn't have him on my own demand.

Dragging the laces of my bathrobe, he held them tightly before wrapping them into his hands. "Baby, you can never seduce me without my will. Never. In the sheets of seduction, only I dominate not you..." He spat throwing his challenge at me.

His hands pulling me as they brushed against my bare skin before closing it shut with the laces that he began to knot with a sense of dominance found in how he roughly tied them to hide my secrets.

My nerve hitting a loud knock as I felt tinkers of my temper turn on letting them fall into the beats of my heart realizing how he had challenged me in the reigning of our relationship indicating how he was the dominate one and likely will be in these matters.

Taking a towel, he wrapped it around his waist before stepping out while I pouted looking towards him and stretching my feet into the tub not wanting to leave.

"Acha ji? So you are challenging me huh?" I questioned trying to play off innocence to see if he could be lured back and I would win the challenge of seduction. Shivaay's eyes appearing to hold a sense of playfulness as he looked back at me while I continued to pout trying to see if he would come back. My hand grabbing on to his wrist pulling him towards me trying to hold on to the last remnants of a possibility of this moment changing once again.

"Well...it is worthwhile to challenge one who actually can take up the challenge. You don't have it in you Anika...you are too naïve, innocent...These realms are not for you to walk upon...Only I can walk within them..." He whispered huskily leaning closer towards me before lightly blowing air on my lips making them tremble as a light blush hit my cheeks reflecting in a minute how I could weaken in his demonic and wicked ways of persuasion.

My eyes tracing the edges of his muscles finding myself oogling them realizing how much I wanted them to press against me and how much I wanted to take a taste of them again. His blue hues appearing divine for a moment realizing how much love he was holding them.

Damn it he is right. He is better at this than me. No. This is the first step in our relationship...If he sets his dominance first then that is it. I am screwed over again. Absolutely not. No. I will take up this challenge and win it...I will tease him, tempt him, and then leave him in the moment...Yeah, that is what I will do. A giggle escaping from my lips as I looked up at him.

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"Now...let's put you to sleep or else little Miss Anika will get cranky like she always does," He badgered and before I knew it he lifted me up in my arms making me shriek in surprise.

"Shivaay! What are you doing? Let me down!" I ordered tugging on his shoulder as he chuckled before beginning to walk.

"That wasn't what you were saying a minute ago...You wanted me bad and I won!" He retorted before throwing me a smirk trying to portray his small win.

Anger hitting me realizing he was wounding my ego at the moment. No I will win this first step in our relationship. "Oh really? Well I think you are mistaken Mr. Oberoi. I can walk the realms of seduction and I will! You have no self-control and I know it, but the fact is that you just don't want to admit it. So...hmm...I challenge you that I will win this. I will prove to you that you have no control of your urges and I do seduce you without your will all the time!" Determination now setting in within me knowing I was going to win this small little challenge knowing it was going to determine who will be in power in our marriage.

Shivaay raising his eyebrows caught by surprise from my declaration considering I broke out of character.

"You? You will do such? And when and how long does this challenge last? I want to know...really. Tell me when you will begin this and end this considering that you never complete anything you start. You always start a challenge or project with passion and leave it right in the middle, so my dear Anika tell me when will you even try this challenge and finish it," He spoke condescendingly trying to beat down the truth in me somewhere being right that I do have a habit to leave things in the middle.

Biting on my lip holding a layer of anger, I looked up at him knowing that this time I will not give up so quickly. "Really? I will win this challenge starting right after our wedding. Until our wedding, this challenge will not come forth, but after it I will enter the playing field and you will regret challenging me. In fact, I will seduce you twice and you will lose it. I guarantee you...Don't take me lightly," I sung the tune before kicking my feet up as Shivaay's smirk widened before beginning to walk out of the bathroom.

"Really? Now this is a shade I will like to see Anika...I am looking forward to see this side of yours'." His words having cruel intentions as lust rang through them indicating the unusual fantasies he likely was weaving.

This idiot doesn't know what I am going to do. He thinks I will seduce him and then we will proceed with love making...well love making is a possibility, but I will give him a tease that he will repent and regret...I will win this. A vicious laugh erupting from me realizing what a plan I was weaving in my mind.

"Why are you laughing?" Curiosity hitting him while I continued to giggle before wrapping my arms around him and laying my head on his heart.

"N-nothing for you to know yet...Now put me to sleep!" I commanded hitting a tone of childishness as Shivaay let out a small laugh before walking to the messy bed where pillows laid collapsed on the floor and sheets were ripped out indicating the night we spent.

"Anika! I swear your pregnancy makes you a child yourself. Do you know that?" Shivaay remarked continuing to hold me while I sighed.

"Oh says the man child himself!" My eyes widening as the lines slipped out of me realizing how that loose, secretive wild child side of mine had let these thoughts slip out unintentionally.

Shivaay immediately dropping me down on the bed as I felt a slight fear that I might have caused a little injury to his demon, but also happiness that for once I spoke the truth.

A giggle escaping from my lips as I began to sing a tune knowing it would annoy him.

"Anika..." He repeated clenching his teeth aware that I had hit a solid nerve of his on purpose.

"Shivaay..." I repeated with a wink as I wrapped my hand around my womb looking at the twins knowing they were a witness to this.

"Poor twins they don't know how their Papa is like...full of himself, a complete narcissist, and a child as well..." I noted before drumming my fingers on them trying to nudge the twins from their slumber and let them know.

Shivaay's mouth gaping open not being able to believe what he had just heard from me considering my blunt side is a rarity which comes out about a few times a year.

His lips twitching up while he bit on them trying to hide a smile before he crawled on to the bed and lunged upon me. His hands taking a firm hold of my wrists pinning them above me while he pressed his legs around my waist knowing what I liked.

My cheeks turning a shade of red realizing how close he was holding me beginning to feel the tinges of bare muscles from his chest leaning down towards me while the edges of his towel barely were holding on to his waist.

"What did you say? Man child?" He hissed while furrowing his eyebrows showing bits of his wounded ego that now were coming to life.

Shrugging my shoulders, I laid in silence trying to play it off with a smile realizing I had ticked him off and I was enjoying it. He deserves it after challenging me openly and denying me. Our eyes capturing one another letting them stay with either of us not looking away knowing we had to stay within this challenge.

"Yes, a man child who is full of himself, cribs and cries over nonsensical things, and thinks he owns everything and everyone. But, you know what's worse? This man child cannot even make love...He is so old that he doesn't have it in him..."

His eyes widening hearing my statement finding surprise I had spoken them. He began to lean closer brushing his chest against mine revealing a burning lighter in his eyes that flamed red upon hearing his truth... perhaps. Okay maybe I overdramatized it, but I am being somewhat honest.

Heating the scales of my neck, he traced his fingers gently down it making it tremble with lights of fear now hitting me realizing I had gone overboard. My waist clenching in finding his hand dragging itself down hitting the laces of my skin that hid itself underneath the robe before dipping it into the edges of flesh. His lips beginning to lean in closer finding his eyes grazing my lips before letting them tremble under the touch of his fingers.

A wicked smile appearing upon his face as he found fear in my eyes. "Oh really?...I made love to you five times tonight and this is what I get? Now...Anika don't be this cruel...Minutes ago you were only saying my name over and over again...wanting me to continue and lead you into depths of paradise that you found when we were..." He paused finding my cheeks reddening hot while I laid like a plump, solid tomato that was being reminded how it was soaked in sweetness by a lover.

"Now don't blush...baby. Didn't you just say I cannot make love? Tell me didn't you just say that..." His voice hushing into a whisper letting it skim into my heart making it skip finding allure in his voice.

His lips leaning closer letting the heat of our bodies swelter with his damp chest pressing against mine reeling in warmth that gently tugged on my navel and scattered down to my blooming flower that was begging him to once again make it feel loved.

Letting his lips speak, he took hold of mine slowly entering the inner folds of my mouth letting his tongue graze the edges of them and sponge upon their dullness.

A smile touching my lips as my lips pushed back lightly wanting to increase the pace while he continued to torment me by dipping only on the edges of my tongue. His hands tightening their grip on my wrists while he continued the kiss letting our lips close and open allowing heat and coolness to crash and dive while the taste of the kiss continued to hold pure intentions.

"I did say...you cannot make love...because you didn't listen to me...I should be your first priority..." My breaths hitting lows as he began to brush his lips in hits of passionate, lustful kisses with his tongue lapping against my neck before continuing his small play.

"You are my priority Anika..." He spoke huskily continuing to make plunges into the creases of my cleavage make me gasp in an instant as his lips began to steadily suck the skin that lead to peaks of my bosom.

My back arching up finding a heave letting go of me while I tried to wrangle my wrists out of his hands as he let out a chuckle before beginning to drug my cheeks with traces of toxic elegance that now he scattered with dishes of kisses.

"Prove...I am your priority...I want you to prove by the end of our wedding night...that I am your priority...Prove you can make love in your own special way..." My words holding determination and a dare knowing how much fire dares incite within Shivaay forcing him to go crazy until he wins them.

Digging my cheeks into the pillow, I attempted to hold the sleek rose petals that were now wanting to escape from within me as a smooth, milky liquid.

His chest beginning to pace against me allowing us to move a perfect rhythm with the momentum of kisses beginning to increase from the supples of my cheeks and down to my neck where he knew pleasure hit me. Hunger now being found in his kisses which continued to vigorously tempt and untie my knots.

"Don't dare me Anika...come on you know that...you should remember where your dares have led us to be..." He hissed with a giggle escaping from my lips remembering how my dares have gotten us into unusual romantic encounters. Memories of our romantic escapades hitting the curved bottoms of my heart reminding it of how we would make love in the most insane places.

"Well I dare you...I dare you to beat me in this challenge of seduction. We will see who wins first and who gives in...and the idea has to be original and creative," I spoke with a loud tempo as my dare ran its wings into the air hovering above the demon who continued to fulfil his crave by laying dashes of tempered kisses.

His lips lifting up as he immediately looked into my eyes appearing amused by the dare, but lights of fire flaming within him that now was taking the dare to his heart.

His hand grabbing my neck and pulling me closer wanting to speak. "Dares...oh Anika you will regret this... We both will seduce each other twice and if we tie then we will have a third round, but if one wins both rounds then they will get a gift from the other..."

"W-what kind of gift?" My eyebrows raising hearing the last line not able to catch on to what the gift may be or entail.

His hands lazily dragging down my robe making me flinch in an instant with shivers now waving through my legs and up to my shoulders. My mouth widening completely shocked by the gesture, but excitement hitting me liking the way he was seducing me though knowing I was losing.

"Honeymoon gift...The one who wins will get to choose the place for our honeymoon..." His words singing their wicked, salicious tune as he dragged my robe off of my shoulder before gorging on their taste with bites and temptation filled kisses.

My eyes shooting up with my heart beginning to bolt. Honeymoon? What? Layers of memories from our first honeymoon coming in filled with those passionate kisses...many trysts we took in each and every place shamelessly in public....the crazy, insane madness we both indulged in for two weeks...A nervous laugh escaping from me not knowing what to say realizing that we likely were going to dive into those escapades considering the speed we are going at the moment.

"H-honeymoon? When will we go? I-I'm busy at the hospital...I cannot go now," My voice trembling and shaking while Shivaay sighed taking a deep breath before dragging his hand up to my cheek and lifting himself above me.

"Damn it Anika...why do you have to ruin everything with these disturbing reality driven one liners? You are the fantasizer remember and I fulfill your fantasies." He leaned in again kissing my collarbone before gently biting it making me moan finding petals of pleasure dropping down my waist.

A shy smile touching my lips before pulling him into an embrace. "But I cannot go Shivaay...you know that," I spoke while Shivaay shook his head and grabbed my shoulder before beginning to rub it gently to persuade me.

"Well, I am your boss Anika and you are my employee, so baby listen to the boss. I will find a way out. We will go for two days alright? Come on don't do this to me. We have to go Anika and it will be fun for you and me of course..." A teasing smile touching his lips before suddenly I felt a tickle on my waist.

A giggle escaping from me before he began to rummage and drag his fingers against my waist inciting more tickles. "Shivaay stop!" I reprimanded him, but failing as giggles now were lifting their way out of me not once stopping.

"Why?! First say yes! Agree that you will go on the honeymoon!" His hands continuing to incite the breathless tickles within me while I continued to giggle trying to push his hands away, but failing as I rolled over and grabbed a pillow to only slam it against him.

"Hey! What the hell?!" He exclaimed with his jaw dropping finding himself caught off guard by my action.

Suddenly a force of a soft pillow squishing against my shoulder letting forces of shock grab hold of me. "Oh you are paying for this!" My hand grabbing the pillow as I slammed it against his head wanting to knock his senses back.

"Here you deserved that hit! Idiot!" My anger escaping while somewhere I was enjoying this small pillow fight we were now indulging in.

Shivaay's eyebrows furrowing upon hearing the blunt insult while his eyes held a gentle tease. "How many times have I told you to not call me an idiot?! Why do you always start using this language when we are married? Last time, also, you were so lovey dovey until we got married and this little devil came out of you!" He proclaimed before blowing a pillow towards me as I slammed it back with my own pillow.

"Well who was busy partying and drinking with those moron friends?! I had a right to call you an idiot for being with them and not paying attention to your new bride! And now I will say it again! Idiot! Man child! And a complete demon! That is what you are! Teasing your pregnant wife like this and not listening to her and what she needs...you deserve this hit!" I spat before slamming the pillow against his back letting feathers spill out now falling and drenching his damp hair.

My mouth widening realizing what I had done. Feathers now sticking like glue to the wet strands of his hair before collapsing on to his chest. His breaths deepening as he puffed out the feathers from his lips with anger striking him equivalent to a chicken.

A sudden laugh escaping from my lips before my giggles caught me not able to bear the sight in front of me realizing the man who incited fear was now a joke of the moment all due to me.

"Oh my God...Shivaay you are like one of those rare species...the blue-eyed white chicken who never lays eggs! Or do you? Hmm...I don't see any eggs here maybe they are outside? Should I go and check on your babies? How many chicks hatched today?" I pestered as Shivaay's eyes shot up towards me holding a grudge now realizing what I had done to him...how I demeaned him from his throne to a mere, little weakling chicken.

Suddenly he lunged towards me slamming the pillow against my legs as I shrieked and jumped up on the mattress. "Shivaay the chicken! The blue-eyed chi-chi-chicken!" I exclaimed making my arms into wings and flapping them while he immediately jumped up going after me as I grabbed a hold of the canopy taking a step away.

He now was huffing and puffing in lashes of red shaded anger and rage that now was running through him not wanting to hear another triggering joke from me. "Anika stop it now! I am warning you stop this!" He ordered before puffing another feather out of his mouth.

A giggle escaping from me before I grabbed my pillow and battered it against his bare chest letting the feathers fly once again. "Attention everyone! We have a rare species that was born in the ultra, high class Oberoi family...the name is S. Chicken Oberoi who finally has spawned after 35 years and has come to life except now...now this chicken must learn the pains of birthing five children or little chicks! Oh my God Shivaay! We are not only going to have twins, but now possibly five of your own babies, so we will have a total of seven? Right?! What will we do now?!" I exclaimed before yelping as he pushed me lightly and hurled a pillow directly at my shoulder letting it fly and hit the wall.

A small smile touching his lips appearing to hold back a laugh while I continued to giggle not knowing why as complete giddiness took over me.

"Anika you are going to get it bad! I swear! I am a chicken huh? I am?!" He blasted before grabbing his pillow beginning to blow its way towards me while I grabbed mine and slammed it against his pushing him back.

"Look the man himself confessed he is a chi-chi-chicken!" I spat before blowing the heat of my lips towards his knowing that he would melt in an instant one allured by these lips.

Shivaay's eyes wandering dragging themselves down my lips and to my robe finding himself tensed and frustrated knowing he wanted to do the deed once again.

"You come here now! I will show you what I can do..." His voice holding that dark seduction alluding to another tryst while I giggled before hitting him once again letting feathers fly before he slammed another against me and soon we indulged in tails of feathers while letting the fabric of pillows fly off.

The mattress tumbling under our weights while we continued to press upon it and dance our way through punching and slamming pillows against one another with mostly me winning of course.

My pillow slamming against his pushing him back forcefully while he continued to ramble his way through me to only almost slip against the mattress.

"Uff...poor chicken doesn't know how to trout the walk! Shivaay how are you going to survive? This is essential for you!" I exclaimed before slamming my hand against the wall loudly and beginning to jump up and down on the bed making him scramble while he attempted to balance.

"Anika! Something is seriously wrong with you! Why are you being so childish?!" His hands boring out towards me while I giggled and continued to jump up and down letting him stumble and grab on to the mattress.

"Childish? Me?! Oh look at the man child himself! Man child! Man Child! Maaan chi-ld!" I sung the tunes over and over wanting to create my own harmony and annoy the hell out of him. I was frankly enjoying this small tease knowing how much it would incite the challenge of seduction we both have taken upon.

"Okay that is it!" His hands in an instant grabbing hold of my waist before pulling me against his chest while I continued to giggle and step back and forth upon the mattress. My hands wrapping around his neck pulling him closer pressing myself against him wanting to tease him with what I hid beneath my robe knowing the possibility of once again touching those secrets.

In an instant, his lips crashing into mine as he began to stampede and lead his tongue into mine while I giggled pushing him back not allowing him leeway knowing I was going seduce to the hell out of him.

Our lips entwining into one before escaping while he began to press his way through as I tugged and pulled only to retrieve away letting him toxify me, but not to a point that would give him hits of pleasure. Trailing and grabbing on to my robe, he began to let the knots loosen before clutching on to my waist wanting to unravel the mysteries underneath.

My smile widening before I grabbed on to his hand tightly escaping from his grasp.

"No no...no Shivaay...we should rest...right? You were right...we should rest and I should get some sleep," I noted pretending to yawn before I pushed him back lightly and collapsed on to the bed.

Shivaay's eyes widening while he stood above me not able to believe what I had just done. Giving him a bright smile, I fixed a remaining unwithered pillow and clasped it underneath my head.

"I am feeling so...so tired right now. Like it's unbearable right? The frustration and tension...." My voice drifting away before biting my lip and looking up at him revealing that innocent pout. His tongue licking his lips finding a thirst for lust that now was reveling and dropping within him.

Moving my hair to the side, I rubbed my neck gently revealed to him his favorite sweet spot.

"That increased tension...building up...simmering...pushing you...tugging on you...to sleep of course!" I snapped his dirty thought as I turned on my back and dragged my hands against my bosom revealing my cleavage ensuring he would see it.

His eyes trailing down and lingering at the view that was quite inviting. Sighing loudly, I looked up at him before revealing a smirk. "Those men are lucky who get wives like me...who are willing to indulge in their fantasies, but then I guess those lucky men do not realize such..."

Shivaay lifting his eyebrow realizing that the taunt was directed towards him and he immediately dropped down next to me. His hand grabbing my waist and pulling me towards him forcing me to look into his stoic eyes that held temptation, but were not willing to act upon it.

"Anika do not do this to me now. I know exactly what you are doing and I am telling you to stop," He spoke sternly trying to be the adult in the relationship.

Hiding a smile, I dug my feet into the sheets and kicked them back before stretching my arms and barely missing his face which he immediately turned away surprised by what I was doing.

"Uff...I'm hot," I whined loudly hitting a high tone before spreading my legs and looking towards him.

"That you are. Hot...ravishing...and those curves of yours' drive me crazy..." A wicked smile touching his lips as he began to lean over me and began to trace his fingers gently across the nape of my neck making me shiver revealing how his subtle touches have an effect on me.

"No duffer! I am feeling hot!" I exclaimed before slapping his hand away from me and stretching again before feeling a playful smile touch my lips knowing just how much I was amping Shivaay's heated, filthy desires and thoughts at the moment.

"W-what? You're feeling hot in the middle of winter?!" Clearly his mood turning off now realizing we were not going to go further from first base.

"Yes! I am pregnant Shivaay! What do you expect?! These children are likely moody like you as well and feeling hot now," I noted nonchalantly before sighing and beginning to fan myself dramatically though I was not feeling hot at all and only continuing this game of seduction.

"Your statement makes no sense Anika! Why will the twins be moody like me? They are exactly going to be a carbon copy of you! You are the moody one in our relationship!" He argued back as he slammed his back on the pillow next to me now on the verge of losing that throbbing pleasure which was arousing itself within him wanting him to indulge in a rendezvous.

"Oh says the man who changes shades minute by minute! Only I am able to handle you and you have to admit this fact!" Tugging on the pillow behind me, I felt my temper crawl up on me while I laid still and pushed my feet back and forth into the bed.

Loudly sighing and shaking his head knowing he had lost our argument, he grabbed the remote immediately turning on the AC. My eyes lifting up as he appeared to shiver while he laid back on the bed keeping the covers away knowing I was feeling hot.

A sense of uneasiness touching my heart while my eyes traced back to him finding him continuing to shiver while he attempted to close his eyes and drift back to sleep. A faint smile touching my lips realizing how in this moment he was putting me as the priority while he continued to suffer in the cold. Dragging the covers slowly, I placed it above him to ensure he held warmth.

Leaning over him, I looked at the feathers that were still stuck in his damp hair while he laid with his eyes closed shut appearing like an innocent young child though he is not so innocent. Tracing my fingers through his hair, I began to prick the feathers off one by one with a small giggle escaping from lips remembering our pillow fight. My eyes falling back upon his face as he laid still revealing a cute, adorable face that was now making my heart do somersaults finding itself becoming charmed by the innocence he held in this moment. No can guess by looking at this face that he has his own demons....no one. Somewhere my heart tells me he is a good man and was a good man before until something happened. Something changed him that he is like this.

His eyes opening in an instant meeting mine with a weak smile touching his lips as he wrapped his palm around my cheek. "You're right...only you can handle me and take care of me. I am lucky to have you and I will never have it any other way. You are my life and thank you for being here with me...I was scared you were going to leave tonight after we...made love, but thank you for staying here and laying here with me..." He spoke running the strand of hair behind my ear before gently pressing his lips against mine.

My heart skipping a beat finding his admiration scrape the surface of my lips as he kept the kiss soft and simple yet enough to make me feel loved. A shy smile touching my lips as I pulled him closer and deepened the kiss letting him know that we should end our argument in this instant rather than indulge in it more.

"Let's end this fight...I don't want to prolong it," Shivaay speaking my thoughts in an instant as he ran his hand gently through my hair before kissing my cheek tenderly. My smile widening before I collapsed my head upon his chest and pulled him into an embrace.

Reaching out for the remote, I turned off the AC in an instant before snuggling against his chest finding warmth in him.

"Anika you are hot. Leave the AC on okay?" His voice holding concern while I shook my head and ran my fingers against his chest gently rubbing it with affection wanting to return the love he was now showering upon me.

"I-I am fine...I was just teasing you Shivaay..." I confessed expecting a tinge of anger from him knowing how he hates being annoyed by others on purpose. However, instead of his anger rumbling, I heard a chuckle escape from his lips as he wrapped his arms tightly around me.

"So that is what you were doing? Now this is a shade I like...this seductive side of yours' will make me crazy one day," He shamelessly admitted while I began to giggle realizing that somewhere I do have an effect on him that lets him lose himself and he just doesn't want to admit it.

Silence touching the both of us while we laid in the dark night knowing soon dawn was to come. Sleep nowhere near us while we found ourselves dipping into the lakes of love that somehow we both were now beginning to walk upon once again. What has happened? What has changed that suddenly in one night we are so close not once remembering the events that have happened in the past few days? Why is it that my heart is allowing me to focus on these loving moments with Shivaay and forcing me to neglect how he brought our truth into the public and how he...left me? Why is it that my heart doesn't want to be mad and upset with him...why is it that somewhere my heart is telling me that the story is different and that Shivaay truly left me for a bigger reason?

"Shivaay...what are we doing? Why are we becoming like our old selves again? How is it possible that we are forgetting our past and just...living? I don't know what has changed Shivaay and I want to know..." I whispered finding my mind now spinning and entering a pure state of dark confusion not able to comprehend how it is now suddenly turning back to the man who has hurt its owner...Why am I getting pulled to Shivaay again and why am I falling for him again?

Shivaay sighing before pulling me up and looking into my eyes trying to search for an answer, but failing to find it too. "I...I don't know Anika. I don't know how everything has changed so fast again. I want to know also why we are falling so fast again and forgetting everything...Anika how can you forget what have I done? Why aren't you hurting because of my deed? You should be upset...you should be angry...then why are you here laying in my arms and finding happiness in my company? Why have we made love tonight Anika? I don't understand..." His words meeting a pause as he himself began to dive into a sea of questions that now were emerging within his hearts.

A thorn of the sins he committed piercing my beating heart that now was weaving love for him. Confusion setting in, but not finding itself overpower the ugly, pitiful love I endearingly was cherishing for him at the moment. Is it because somewhere him revealing the truth to the world was actually a good deed? At the moment and the way he did it was wrong, but if he hadn't done that then...I would've been married right now...forcefully married to another man...Armaan. The twins would've suffered a poor fate...what would've I done? Though Shivaay was wrong, fate took part in this and saved me from further sin. At that sangeet, my heart was in Shivaay...He was the one I wanted in that moment and now I know that he is the one I need.

Silence brushing us as I lifted my tears looking into his eyes revealing them to him.

"I-I don't know...I don't know why I am forgetting what you did in the past. I-I d-didn't want to marry Armaan... Shivaay...I...I was being forced to by own parents...My heart wasn't with him because it always has belonged to you. That night of the sangeet, you were on my mind each and every moment and everything was unbearable until you walked down those stairs and took my hand. I was upset and angry and still am over how he decided to tell everyone, but then....then you unintentionally saved me and the twins from further reckoning...We would've been separated from you if I had gotten forcefully married to Armaan...how would've I lived without you and what about our twins? You were wrong and...I cannot ever forgive you easily about that, but still I want to give us a chance. My heart wants to trust you and it is at conflict at the moment, but I want a chance for us..."

Tears now streaming down my cheeks as Shivaay clasped his hands against them immediately wiping them away and pulling me into a bear hug while I began to cry with fear setting in over how I would have lost him and how the twins would've never had him.

"Y-your parents forced you?...They forced you Anika...Why didn't you tell me when this was happening? You could've told me Anika and we both would've found our way through this. Anika you have to trust me and whenever you are in a dilemma, you have to reach out to me. Do you understand?" His voice holding command while he continued to brush my hair gently wanting to soothen the creases of fear upon me.

A smile touching my lips before I kissed his heart one more time with pride that he was going to be by my side. "I...I know. I promise to always share my problems with you...Gosh, I have missed you so much," I confessed before letting go and lying on the same pillow as him looking into his eyes.

His blue hues blurring with tears themselves while he continued to wipe mine trying to make it his, so they would burn him, but not me. "Even if I have sinned, fate has helped us Anika...The twins would have suffered because of us. Thank God you are mine now and thank God our children will get the both of us together...and I missed you so much too Anika. I missed you and I want to pause this moment and just lay here next to you even if it is for eternity. I cannot bear the thought of separating from you Anika...not in this lifetime or in the next. I want you for each and every lifetime...only you. You are the soul to my flesh and without you I am nothing, but hallow...I pray that you are my lover and my soulmate in each lifetime," His voice cracking before I wrapped my arms around him allowing him to bury his tears into the rifts of my shoulder.

His words hitting the barricades of my heart and lifting them away allowing his love to rush down upon my wounds and burning them away to only replace it with stitches of love that now he was weaving tenderly. In that moment my soul touching his finding it revel back to life...finding it entwining with his...and realizing that it too wanted only its presence which gave it humanity...allowing it to live.

"I also pray Shivaay that you are my soulmate in each and every lifetime...even though we may have to walk on burning ashes in each and every lifetime, I still pray to only be yours' because this Anika is nothing without her Shivaay. I only want you and only you...Even if sin makes us unite then be it...because I want to only be yours' and I want you to only be mine..." My hand grabbing a hold of his cheek before I laid my lips upon them sealing the prayer we both had made in the lashes of vulnerability that was allowing our hearts to confess their deepest held desires.

Shivaay pulling me into a hug before beginning to kiss the seams of my neck once again. "I will always love you and I will always be yours'...My heart tells me we have always been like this for many lifetimes and will continue to be like this for many more...Now tomorrow morning we will begin our journey by going to the mandhir and then I will take you home..." He spoke as my smile widened hearing that he himself was willing to walk up the steps to the mandhir where he rarely went.

"What about my family? They will be upset that I was here all night." Fear chording itself into me reminding me of my family and how they had boiled in pure anger and rage before when they found me in that hotel room.

"It's okay Anika. I have it all figured out alright? You just relax and take care of yourself and I am here to handle everything else for you okay..." His voice holding calm which immediately buckled my nerves and comforted their essence.

"Now morning is about to come soon, so sleep at least for an hour and then we will get ready and go to the mandhir. Today already is going to be a long day for you and I want you to get some rest. Now to go to sleep please," He ordered tucking me in with the covers before beginning to press my head trying to release its tension.

My smile widening finding his simple gesture enough to fill pots of love within me that found their sweetness from his care. Holding the pieces of night, we laid in silence while he continued to press my head waiting patiently for morning to come so we can begin our new journey together. My eyes closing shut with sleep slowly overcoming me while I felt his love continuing to blossom within me.

Shivaay's Point of View

A smile touching my lips as I looked at her who now was beginning to dive into deep sleep with peace touching her elegantly. Uneasiness setting itself cold into me reminding me of the night we had spent in each other's arms...how somehow we allowed our hearts to overwhelm our pain allowing us to once again unite...allowing our souls to once again brush past each other and entwine into one like they had done years ago.

Tears escaping from my eyes as I looked at her innocence and naivity realizing how much I have wronged her and yet here she is sitting at the doorstep of my heart and willing to knock on it again...willing to give me a chance despite how much I have sinned against her.

My love is nothing compared to her love and yet she calls her love ugly and feeble...if this love she holds at the moment is feeble then what will be her love like once it fully returns to life? If with this feeble love, she is able to willingly give me a chance...able to allow me to touch her...to love her then what will her love be like when it comes back to life?

I don't know why I gave into her tonight....Maybe it was the way she looked at me and indirectly confessed her love and also admitting she is falling for me that pushed me over the edge and convinced me that somehow I have to show my love to her the way she has shown it to me boldly despite fearing that perhaps I will break her trust again like I always have done.

Not anymore Anika. No. I will do everything to build trust in our relationship...I will do everything to ensure you are cared for...that you feel loved...that you feel wanted. I will do everything to breathe life into you that you once held...I promise I protect you and our children. Leaning my lips upon her forehead, I laid a small soft kiss sealing my promise to her.

Lifting myself up from the bed, I grabbed my phone and made my way out to the living area knowing exactly what I was going to do. Now I will reunite Chaaya with Anika...I don't know what Anika will say and I am scared...scared of telling her the truth knowing somewhere that she might not believe me...Yes, I married Tia for that business contract and deal, but that wasn't the true reason. No, the reason is deeper than what anyone knows or believes in.

"Hello," Mrs. Dixit speaking on the other line with Chaaya appearing to speak behind the background.

"Hello Mrs. Dixit. I apologize for calling early in the morning, but I had something important I wanted to talk about," I spoke feeling hesitation, but also bits of joy knowing what was to happen tomorrow.

"No problem beta. Chaaya actually woke up quite early today, so I have been awake with her. Tell me what is the important matter?" She questioned while Chaaya continued to plea for something in the background.

A smile touching my lips as I looked out at the sunrise realizing how the sun was now finally rising in my own life now. "Mrs. Dixit, please get everything ready and packed for Chaaya as she will now be coming to live with me and her mother. We are going to come and pick her up tomorrow and also you will be coming now to our home as well, so please pack your things as well," I spoke feeling excitement building up imagining Anika's reaction once she will see Chaaya and how all her pains will vanish in an instant knowing our blessing never died, but only grew and thrived all these years.

"Really?! This is good news beta and I am so happy to know. You will not believe how much Chaaya has been missing her mother lately and I am sure once you tell her. She will be elated! Do you want to tell her now?" Mrs. Dixit questioned as I sighed thinking whether I should tell her now or give her surprise.

"Um...let me talk to Chaaya," My voice shaking finding a sense of shame lifting up realizing how due to my past, I hid my own daughter from her mother. In this situation, I was not only protecting Chaaya and Anika, but also myself...my past would have ravaged Chaaya's future.

"Papa! Good morning!" Her sweet, gentle voice tuning its way into my ears softening my heart in an instant that only let down its barriers for her.

My smile widening as I felt tears slip down my cheeks remembering what could have happened to her if I hadn't decided to leave...Anika. "Good morning Papa ki jaan. How are you doing and why are you awake so early in the morning?" I questioned with curiosity while looking back towards a sleeping Anika already knowing what Chaaya's answer will be.

"Papa...I like waking up early! You forgot again!" Her voice holding that pitch of annoyance just like her mother who used the same tone when she would wake up early in the morning. A chuckle escaping from me as I shook my head.

"Yes, I forgot again. Now, tell me do you miss your mumma?" With shaky hands, I wiped away my tears finding a dark emptiness hit me realizing what I had done and how I was the one who separated both of them.

Silence touching her while she appeared to let go a small sigh indicating somewhere tears had touched her innocence. "M-maybe...I...I want her, b-but...I d-don't want to h-hurt you b-by asking a-about m-mommy...A kid in t-the p-park told me that m-maybe you and m-mommy do not like e-each other, so t-that is w-why m-mommy not here..." Her voice finally cracking as she began to cry with her innocence shattering just like her mother who held emotions in fragile bottles within her letting them crash in an instant.

Indeed, Chaaya is a complete reflection of Anika-sensitive, innocent, completely unaware of the cruel world out there...I worry at times how I will protect them both and what they will do if something happens to me.

"Meri jaan p-please d-don't c-cry. D-don't you dare cry okay?...Wipe those tears now...You will now meet y-you m-mumma very soon. Y-you now pack your things, clothes, toys, and everything because...Papa and mumma both will be coming to take you...Okay?" I began to heave trying to take deep breaths, but failing with a sense of panic now falling upon me realizing what was happening at the moment.

"Really?! Mommy and you are coming to t-take m-me? I-I w-will get to meet mommy?!" Excitement and pure glee now running its way through Chaaya as suddenly she began to cheer loudly on the phone. Her months of wait for her mother finally ending soon and that pure love she held for Anika reflecting in her voice indicating that the moment she will encounter her mother she will latch on to her heart forever and never let go.

"Y-yes! You will meet your mumma very soon beta and beta she loves you so much...She loves you more than me. I promise you the moment she sees you...she will shower you with her love. Now, you promise me that the moment you see her...you will hug her and let her know how much you love her...will you do that?" A gentle tug on my heart pulling itself away making it shake realizing that there is a possibility Chaaya may not connect with Anika perhaps. There is a likelihood that Chaaya may shy away.

"P-promise Papa. I promise to hug mommy and tell her 'I love you'...I want mommy please? Please let me meet mommy..." She held an innocent plea indicating how right this moment she wanted to meet her mother and the separation now was unbearable for her.

"I will make you meet mommy very soon. I promise and now please be a good girl and listen to Mrs. Dixit. Please help her pack everything okay? We are coming very soon meri jaan. Now be a good girl okay?" I requested to her gently knowing she was a sensitive soul who took smallest things to her heart just like her mother.

Chaaya letting out a giggle. "Acha ji...I promise Papa. Now please come soon okay? I want to be with you and mommy okay? I love you! Now bye! Bye!" She nonchalantly spoke by copying and repeating my trademark words. My smile widening realizing how she has bits of me while being a very dominant version of Anika herself...well at least somewhere she is taking after me or I was fearing she will only be like her mother.

"Okay I love you and I will try to talk to you later meri jaan. See you later and bye." Hanging up the phone, I sat in silence in the empty home finding some warmth in it with Anika's prescence that now was gracing it, but still hallowness keeping its way reminding me how without Chaaya this home and this family that we are building is incomplete.

Chaaya was our life. Anika and I were dying...a slow death for years...Anika has had a tough childhood and so have I...We both have grown in broken families. We both have rifted in darkness for years...Chaaya was the one who brought life to us the moment we were blessed with her. Chaaya brought comfort and healing to both Anika and I...she was everything to the both of us...and without her presence we will always remain incomplete...she is a symbol of Anika and my love and she will always be the dearest to the both of us.

My hands shaking as I lowered my gaze finding my fate lines burning and turning to ashes not wanting to remember how once it had brought me to crossroads upon which I had to choose between Anika and Chaaya...and I had to Chaaya. I had to forsake Anika for Chaaya and at that moment...I divulged into the illusion that leaving Anika would not be a struggle because I was not admitting to my heart that indeed I was falling in love...however I was wrong. The moment I left Anika was the moment my soul met its death...I got Chaaya and protected her and tried to love her, but I lost myself the moment I left Anika...

Flashback

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Rain continued to plummet with dark ominous clouds falling and crashing with its tears...begging me to not give in...to not end a lifeless bond I myself had formed. A set of uneasiness dropping down into my heart with dark mold beginning to grow upon it not letting it beat...not hit its tunes...finding it lifeless.

Dragging my feet up the stairs, I forced my feet to move that were not willing to take me to the graveyard where now I was going to bury this ill fated bond that I had formed for my own selfish desires...where I had decided to feed my ego and my wounds by playing with such bonds that are divine.

Tears touching my eyes remembering Chaaya's screams that were still continuing to ring in my ears reminding me why I am in this moment walking up these stairs to that courthouse for our divorce.

I have sinned...and now fate has decided to punish my own blood for the game I weaved around an innocent being....my Anika.

Drifting my eyes, I looked towards her who matched her steps in silence with me for one last time. Her eyes hitting a daze appearing to have detached from the moment allowing her soul to wander while her flesh continued to walk up towards the cremation of the sacred vows had taken. Even though we are going towards a funeral of our marriage, she still is wearing all of its symbols...The parting of her hair holding the red flares of sindoor that she lovingly adored each day to vow her loyalty to me...Her mangalsutra holding itself against her neck in which she counted and repeated our vows each and every moment.

Suddenly, her feet slipping against the stairstep with life escaping from her before my hand took hold of hers not letting her fall. With all my strength, I pulled her towards me letting her arms wrap around me an instant. Her lips burying into my neck with her cold tears lifting themselves upon my neck.

My hands trailing their way around her waist as I pulled her closer wanting pieces of her to submerge into me one last time...her essence to linger against my soul and give my heart the solace that it somehow always found in her.

Time pausing for a moment while we held each other knowing this may be the last time that we will be able to hold one another...a last time we will be so close before our bond is severed forever...we will never be able to embrace each other...never able to let our souls unite...never able to let our hearts beat in a rhythm together.

Anika appearing to whimper as she tightened her grip around me pulling me closer not wanting to let go. My heartbeat dropping finding that if in this moment I let go then I will never be able to lay love upon her the way I have done for what feels as an eternity...Why am I feeling this way? I do not love her...I don't think I love her.

"S-Shivaay...d-don't do this...I...I love you...I-I...l-love you so much...P-please w-we h-have t-time s-still. W-we a-are just o-one s-step away from the d-door b-behind w-which w-we will b-bury t-this m-marriage...b-but look f-fate has paused us for a m-moment...f-fate w-wants us to s-stay in t-this m-moment so we c-could...c-could once again ponder o-over t-this d-decision...S-Shivaay...d-don't do this....I...I am only h-here b-because you want me to be here...B-but tell me one thing...tell me...d-do r-really w-want me to s-set you free?" Her voice shaking violently as she lifted her head up gently revealing her tears to me.

Holding my tears and letting cold ashes touch my eyes, I turned my gaze away knowing that if she looks into them right now...she will figure out that I do not want this. That in this moment my soul is meeting a poisonous death because it doesn't want this. I don't love her...I don't, but then somewhere my soul is struggling...begging...pushing me to not let go because if I do then once again I will lose myself...like I had before I met her.

"Y-yes...I want you to let go of me. I want you to set me free. I know Anika what your love is... Your love will allow you to let me go and let me breathe for once. If you truly love me Anika then you will walk into those doors and sign those divorce papers...and cremate our marriage because if you love me then you will let me be happy...you will let me embrace peace for once. Anika...show me how your love is...prove to me today what your love is for me...you claim to love me, so now show me what your love can do..." My soul barely shaking the words out of me because somewhere now it had a part of Anika and that part was not allowing it to utter these words.

Her love standing still while she stood in place finding herself in shock realizing how I had just challenged her love...a love she had endearingly cherished and treasured upon me...a love she laid upon me without ever asking anything in return...a love that she built from thorns I laid in her path which she priced up and continued to build only love...only love for me.

"Shivaay...y-you are the o-one who b-brought me to these realms of love...you are the reason why I-I...unshackled myself from each and every ornament that my f-family l-laid upon me t-to r-represent t-their honor...I...I stripped each and every ornament before sacrificing myself into t-these sacred vows....I stripped my honor in order to s-surrender to you b-because l-love c-can only be obtained w-when one surrenders. You a-are my life....you are my soul...you are the only one I have ever loved...a-and I c-cannot leave you...I cannot, but I have to...I have to leave you f-for y-your h-happiness...and y-you know w-why I d-did not fight this case?" Her voice stopping with now tears continuing to rush down her cheeks choking on to her voice and not letting her breathe.

Why hasn't she fought against this case? Why is she willing to compromise so fast? Confusion hitting me not able to grasp upon why Anika who begged and pleaded that night for me to not throw her out of our home...was now standing here bravely and willing to let me go.

Her hands grabbing hold of my arms forcing me to look into her tear ravaged eyes that now only held her truth clearly reflected from her soul that was coming to the surface of her brown hues.

"I-I d-did not f-fight t-this case b-because...because even though I know I am going to die after I...I walk out of these fateful doors...I don't want you to meet your death because I have deprived you of your happiness...I...did everything to m-make you h-happy...I changed myself...I changed my choices...my likes and my dislikes...I submerged myself with your shade...I engraved your essence upon my heart...I-I d-did e-everything and yet...somehow I c-couldn't fulfill my duties as your wife...somewhere I went wrong...and you strayed...My heart is telling me that perhaps you are lying...perhaps there is a bigger reason why you are leaving me for Tia...b-but...y-you yourself are admitting t-that you strayed. I want to fight...and I could have fought...b-but...what is the use if me fighting means that you will suffer...if your happiness and peace is with Tia...t-then I-I will let you go...My love was never selfish Shivaay....it never was. I loved you n-not b-because of your wealth...your status...I...I loved you because you made me feel human... you showed me life and what its colors are...you m-made me live for myself for once...you made me feel loved... I loved you because you saved me....from slipping away...a-and so now is my time to show my love to you and s-so...if this is what you want...then I will leave you..."

In an instant, darkness fell upon my heart where her truth slashed the folds of my heartbeats revealing to them how each and every part of it was now perhaps claimed by her.

The ground recoiling beneath me not wanting to hold me who could not even be now called human...my sins beginning to now slowly dance and take my soul to the grave knowing that I shall now live without it...because if this soul continues to live within me then I might just commit the sin of love.

Her tears falling upon my heart making it burn...letting it know how this is wrong...all of this is wrong.

This deed...this sin. All of it was wrong. Her tears revealing the fact that I am her culprit perhaps...that indeed my game went so far that now I have not only ruined her, but myself as well...that with my own bare hands...I weaved this sinful game to only destroy my own daughter's life...

A sudden dark shadow appearing behind Anika as my eyes widened seeing a black gun pointing itself right behind her.

My heart beginning to pound erratically with fear now wrapping itself around it as I immediately grabbed Anika pushing her to the side while she stumbled back with a scream erupting from her.

My feet lifting and paddling against the ground before I looked back seeing her collapsed on the floor with others helping to lift her up. Dark, malicious eyes meeting mine as they revealed the vices they had brutally committed in the past. Rushing around the corners of the courthouse, I grabbed a hold of his arm pulling him towards me.

"What the hell?! How dare you even think about laying your filthy hand upon my wife?! Huh! How dare you?!" Screams of fear erupting from my voice with sudden layers of rage and anger now crawling up.

A smirk touching his lips with his eyes eeringly calm revealing the crimes they had committed long before. "You broke the rule. We set rules Shivaay and you dared to break one. That Anika holds no importance to us and you know we would have killed her, but showing some mercy we didn't. However, you dared to converse with her and that is something we will not lightly take. This is our first and last warning If you dare to talk to her then your Chaaya will meet her-"

"No! Don't you dare or I will wreck havoc! I will bring you down if you dare to lay your finger upon my Chaaya! You do not know what I am capable of...Shivaay Singh Oberoi is still holding to that last straw of patience, but once...once you dare to challenge me or hurt my daughter...then you do not want to see what I will do...You do not even want to know what end you will meet...

Do you understand?!" A looming empty threat hitting him letting him know that somewhere I was vulnerable and that the words I had spoken may not be fulfilled considering how a cunning web was weaved around me.

A loud laugh erupting from him while he snatched his arm out of my grip and patted my shoulder. "You want your Chaaya right?...Then follow our rules. Do you understand? You have to follow our rules. Now go and divorce that woman understood? Or else...I will reveal the truth to the world...your truth," He spoke in a lowered, menacing voice.

My heart faltering with memories now slowly emerging from the graves of my heart...memories I had buried a long time back from my childhood. Memories that can harm not only my own being, but also my daughter's...a brutal truth that will not only ruin and bring down me from my throne, but ruin my daughter's life.

Tears touching me with lashes of pain now erupting within my soul that didn't want to be reminded of that past. A past that made me like this...a past that took everything from me...took my happiness....my peace...my breaths...my life.

"I do not think you want that truth out. If the world get's to know what happened and what you did then what will happen to your poor Chaaya? I am sure you are a loving father and want the best for her...so think about it. Think what will happen once the truth is revealed? The sin that you committed..."

My breaths lasping with hiccups bubbling out of me realizing I was going into a state of panic with sudden screams and wails from the past erupting within my mind bringing me back to that innocent veil I had dropped years ago.

"The d-decision of that sin was made...a decision by others was made on that sin..." I barely spewed my words out that began to remind me of what had happened.

"But...if that truth comes in front of the entire world then what will happen Shivaay? How will the world see you and your daughter? Have you ever thought of such?" He questioned putting layers of threats within me ensuring that now I will follow his command and forsake Anika for our daughter...and her future.

Fear lunging upon me with rage bitterly mixed within it that was becoming a slow poison and consuming me ensuring that I will now run under its command and obey its orders because if I didn't not only will I face my own reckoning, but so will my daughter.

"Shivaay...my brother committed sin, but so did you. So now be thankful that I have kept your daughter safe for now, but she will only stay safe if you continue to listen to us...Now go and leave that woman or else not only will Chaaya face harm, but so will Anika..."

Flashback Ends

Breaths gasping. Tears rushing. Life slipping. Pills collapsing on to my palm that continued to shake violently. Attempting to take deep breaths, I tried to hold on to life, but failing miserably as I shot the pills into my mouth before drowning the poison with water letting its coolness rush down the ashes of memories that were now twisting within me.

My hands taking a firm hold of the bathroom counter while I looked up into my reflection only to find that child standing in front of me...that naïve, innocent child who was me. That child that loved to live and weaved many hopes and dreams without any realization of the cruel world he lived in...a world that did everything to strip him of his life and seemingly succeeded at it.

Dragging my hand against the mirror, I attempted to touch that child...to comfort his tears...to let him know that everything will be alright...that he too shall live...that he must not wither to cruel beings, but oh how can I change the past?...The past has happened and I cannot change it anymore...

"Anika...if only I could tell you the truth and now I want to. I want to tell you the truth and now I hope you will be able to believe me...I hope that you will be able to see that I always wanted us. From the moment we were blessed with Chaaya, I had decided to not leave you. The moment you told me about your pregnancy, I knew I had sinned and I knew I had wronged not only you, but our unborn daughter...A-Anika I don't even deserve to be called human considering what I have done...and believe me Anika...I wanted our family so badly. I wanted a family with you and I wanted you and I to raise our children together...I had a plan Anika. I had dreams and you were part of those dreams. You were always part of each and every dream I weaved because...somewhere I did begin to love you...because for once I felt myself again with you. You do not know how many years I was suffering in that brutal sin I committed as a child and...and I committed so many vices after what happened when I was a child...and Anika I would've died...I know it. I know it I would have died if you hadn't come to my life at the right moment..."

Tears cracking from my voice while I stood still letting memories crash as waves upon my heart where wounds from a childhood remained and did not want to be washed away.

Memories of that rebellion I indulged in after that event in my childhood...Memories of how my nights were spent on many highs where I let powders seep through my nose and collapse upon my chest...where I puffed many blunts to allowing ecstasy to heave itself within me...nights in which I drank that bitter poison until darkness enveloped me...I was on the verge of dying and that is when she came.

Grabbing the pill bottle, I looked at it knowing I was running out of my prescription once again.

"They were cruel...were they not?...They were cruel were they not?...They spewed hate...they burned his effigies...they continued to slit his presence...while he continued to die...he continued to be stripped of his innocence...he continued to be forced to commit sin...but they were cold...they did not dare to look towards him while he stood in his darkness...they only continued to slay his soul...oh if only they knew that he has been dying from the first chapter...that he was dying before the first chapter began...and now there is hope...hope that somewhere he will not die...now we shall see what fate has in store for the man who only has sinned..." The poem drenching out from me with my voice falling into whispers not being able to bear the bitter truth that I held.

Anika's Point of View

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Solace. It skimmed through the curtains and collapsed upon me while I laid still ensuring to capture each and every blessing from the divine that now was rising up to the sky and letting itself glisten.

"Anika..." My eyes lifting up awakening from the low, coarse voice that still spoke my name even when lost in illusions that kept him unconscious.

His hand trailing against my waist before pulling me closer towards him and laying a tender kiss against my cheek. A shy smile touching my lips as I instantly looked towards him. My hand trembling as I placed it against his cheek before laying my lips against his temple and gently kissing it letting him know that indeed last night he had breathed love into me...that I am falling in love once again.

"I love you..." The words escaping from him in an instant as a wide smile appeared across his lips.

My cheeks hitting a blush as I found his eyes revealing that same passionate gaze that unwrapped my wounds and laid his love upon them.

His fingers trailing their heat against my neck before he began to lean in finding himself enticed by my lips that continued to tremble begging to have more of him...more of his taste that would feed my hunger for pleasure.

"Remember...on our first wedding night I promised to you that I would always begin and end our day with me saying 'I love you'...well I will continue it from now on..." His voice having a sense of determination appearing to overpower that weak, feeble voice within him that would make him question love like he always had done.

"This is the best start to the morning I have had since years Anika....I missed this...I missed having you next to me. When I would wake up in the morning alone...the first thing I would see would be that empty space next to me where you used to be...I missed you Anika...there wasn't a moment I didn't think of you and even now there isn't a moment that I don't think of you..." His voice breaking into tears as my heart dropped a beat not able to see him like this...knowing he...he was never like...this vulnerable.

My hands wrapping around his cheeks as I forced him to look into my eyes. "I know this hard...it will be hard for us to move on from the life we both shared at once...a marriage that had love, but also its chaotic moments...and I will be honest that it will be hard for me, but now please don't cry and continue to ponder over the past...over the moments we lost...Let's now focus on the moments we can make..." I whispered and before letting him say a word I brushed my lips against his pulling him into a kiss.

His lips pushing eagerly against mine intrigued with the idea of once again indulging into the sensual sheets of lust that we had moments before. My lips barely holding on to his finding themselves overwhelmed in how they were being admired by him.

Our lips slowing down finding ourselves pause not able to comprehend what we both were in the moment...how both of us were seemingly giving into one another forgetting about our past...forgetting our mistakes...and only loving...or loving the idea of being in love...Somewhere something has changed and both of us cannot pinpoint what it is. Something changed and for some reason now we both cannot let go of each other despite knowing how wrong it may be knowing how he has sinned and how I am supposed to not forgive him...and yet I somehow want to forgive him...I want to love him...

"I...have something to give you and um...I want you to open this box after I leave from this room...okay?" He spoke gently before lifting himself up.

Curiosity touching me as I slowly got up only to find a white box appearing in front of me. Raising my eyebrow, I looked at the box trying to decode its mystery, but failing utterly at it. A smile touching my lips before I looked up at Shivaay who wrapped his arm around me and kissed my forehead gently.

"What is this Shivaay?" I questioned feeling quite bewildered as I began to drag the box on to my lap.

"Here is a letter...I want you to read it and...you will know what you have to do with the gift once you read this letter. Um...I will be right back okay?" He whispered before kissing my cheek tenderly and getting off of the bed.

With shaking hands, I lifted the envelope open to see a paper slip out from it. Grabbing a hold of the paper, I opened it feeling a sense of fear what it may entail considering the mystery that the box held for me.

Anika,

I have waited long for our union and today is the day when once again we will vow to one another the way we had done years ago. That day of our wedding, I had spoken those vows, but never knew their meaning...when we were vowing that night, I found my soul shaking in that moment because somewhere love was beginning to be borne from that hallow, empty life that I held for many years.

Anika, you saved me. I was going to die Anika...it was evident. But, you saved me and gave me the life that I never even knew existed. That day of our divorce, you told me that I gave you life, well, you gave me life Anika. You were my soul. You taught me love. You taught me that there is good in this world...You taught me that being happy is not a crime...that to love is not a sin...and that Shivaay is also a human. I was never seen as a human being, but an object Anika. I was an object that was exploited.

You touched the remnants of my being and that scared me. All these years, I fostered an illusion that I never loved you, but I have Anika. I was in love with you the moment I saw you...the moment you walked out of that car and began to root me back to the ground after our accidental meeting...the moment at the dance in college when I took you home...the moment we spent on Christmas eve in my office when I kissed you...the moments we spent exploring our relationship...the moment I decided to marry you...the moment we became one...the moment we...we had Chaaya. I loved you each and every moment and now I know that the feeling I was denying was love.

I do not know love Anika. I do not. I am not the man you deserve, but I still love you and I can never stop loving you Anika. Never. It sucks to be that guy who now wants the girl who he betrayed and hurt so much, but to be honest I cannot think of a moment living without you and our children. I want us Anika. I want our family. I want you the most. I want to weave new hopes and dreams with you. I want to protect you, but also make you a strong woman who will never need me. I want to breathe bliss into you. I want to fulfill each and every desire of yours'. I want to love you and now I will each and every moment...I will love you when you will hate me...I will love you when you will love me...I will wait in patience for you to accept me, but I will still love you and will continue to love you till my last breath and then after for eternity.

So, Anika I want to ask that will you allow me to vow to you again tonight? Will you allow me to vow myself again to you? This time it will be forever and this time each and every vow I will say will truly be from my heart...from my love.

Anika, all these years I have treasured the saree that you draped to become my bride. I held this saree when I felt the most alone...when I felt my life was about to end...when I felt that I was not human...I held your saree and attempted to feel the remnants of you that lingered in its lifeless fabric...

Anika please wear this saree if and only if you wish to allow me to vow myself to you tonight as your husband....

-Shivaay

Tears now rummaging and savaging themselves out of my eyes with my lips trembling not being able to hold whimpers that escaped from the erratic beats of my heart that were not able to embrace that overwhelming, passionate, pure love that mere simple words laid out in front of me.

My hand wrapping the letter against my heart as I wanted to impress his loving words upon it letting it know that now it too shall be loved by the man this heart had sacrificed and burned itself for many years ago.

"Of course, Shivaay, I will allow you to vow yourself to me...of course my love...Why will I not accept you? I want you to vow yourself to me, so I will be able to forgive you. I don't care if I am breaking the rules by committing to you despite what you did because I know you and I know you left me for a good reason...I know you played with me in the beginning, but I knew you loved me and this letter proves you did love me the moment you saw me and I also started loving you the moment I saw you...and now I just want you. I just want your love...and I just want love Shivaay...You are the man I deserve...you are perfect. You are loving, caring, and protective and everything I wanted since forever...and I will not tell you until the right time comes, but somewhere I have always been in love with you and still...." My voice pausing not wanting to confess the honest truth that now was simmering itself out of me forcing me to admit that indeed somewhere this Anika is falling for her Shivaay again and perhaps...loving him again.

Grasping on to the box, I opened the red bow. A weak smile touching my lips as my hands trembled before I opened the box to unveil the precious, simple ornament I wore with love...that virtuous love that I held for him at one time and that still somewhere lives within the ugly, feeble love I carry for him.

My hand scraping the embroidery of the red saree soaking the depths of the rough threads it held in which vows of my marriage were sung into. Weakness touching the palm of my hands as I lifted it up finding it as a gem that once I will wear will return me my honor of being Shivaay's wife...an honor I lost.

Letting my tears dry, I picked myself up with all my strength knowing it had vanished with the love Shivaay had cherished upon me since last night. A frail smile touching my lips as I untied my robe and let it fall. My body shaking finding itself captivated by how it was going to be draped as a bride once again.

He loves you Anika. He loves you. He wants a family with you and he wants you the most. Anika your prayers have been answered...the divine finally has listened to your cries and has cherished your tears to only turn them into a blessing.

With shaking hands, I slipped my arms through the blouse finding its warmth embracing my heart longingly as if it had waited long to meet its bride. Biting on to my lips, I held back tears before I began to drape myself with vows of love I had stitched upon this fabric that fateful night I vowed myself to be Shivaay's wife for eternity.

Footsteps appearing to approach me as my body met a sudden calm. A shy smile touching my lips with my cheeks hitting a shade of red. My gaze lowering and falling upon the delicate, faint marks he had laid in a moment of ecstasy...small love bites trailing from the corners of my waist and up to my heart that he brushed his love upon all night.

The door behind me opening as I stood still feeling a rush of red coloring me with his love.

"Anika I..." He paused finding himself speechless.

Gathering my will, I slowly lifted my gaze towards him as he stood right by the door. His eyes lifting from my bare flesh that laid exposed from the drape of the saree that had collapsed upon the ground...His eyes showing a sense of surprise with remnants of joy not being able to believe that I was draping myself as his bride...that now I to want him to vow himself to me tonight.

"Vow yourself to me tonight Shivaay...I want your vows and I promise to cherish them...I..I already have accepted you as my husband...and now...I want to ask that... will you make me your bride?" My voice dropping feeling a sense of weakness touch me realizing that how I was now beginning to surrender to love once again and this time perhaps forever.

He began to take slow steps towards me while I stood still with shivers now running down my spine and up to my heart with fear...that he may just walk away and deprive me again of being his bride. He appeared to hold a wooden box in his hand that he laid upon the bed before closing the gap between us.

My heart beating erratically with beats skipping and fluttering finding itself now soaring and rumbling not wanting to crash anymore, but to only fly...and continue to grace the skies where eternal love lives only for some to touch.

My eyes standing still upon the black fabric of his kurta where his heart laid finding it beating at the same ravaging rhythm as mine.

"Will you make me your bride? Will you drape me with your love?" My voice coming out as a bare whisper feeling heat now pumping through my heart and letting the red shade touch my swollen lips which he lovingly had treasured.

His hands trailing down the bare skin of my shoulders from which my blouse lightly dipped from. The heat of his fingers inciting a trail of goosebumps making my heart skip a beat. He began to lean closer blowing the burning desires of his mouth upon my lips making them quiver.

"Anika...never make a plea to me from now on. Order me and I will surrender in an instant...W ill you give me the honor to make you my bride?" His words dimming a wide smile on my lips as I immediately looked up meeting his gaze that reflected absolute, passionate love which he wanted to enamor me with.

Seeing that love that now he carries in the depths of his heart for me...how can I now with my own hands create distance? How can I push away the only man I have always loved? It will be wrong of me to push him away and now I will not. I want his affection...I want his love...I want his vows.

"Y-yes...I want to be your bride and only be yours'...now drape me with your love..." My voice holding pride and determination as I looked into his eyes seeing them glisten with hope that someday I will fully love him the way he loves me.

His feet now lowering to the ground as he kneeled down in front of me. Shuddering, I clenched my bare waist in finding his lips begging to take a hold of it. His gaze standing still on my womb with a small smile coming across his lips before his hands took the delicate remaining drapes of my saree.

A veil of demure falling upon me while I stood still finding myself being admired by lover who knelt before me fully surrendering himself to me.

Keeping the dancing silence, he pressed his lips softly against my womb making my eyes close shut finding my breaths deepening on his mere touch that reminded me of how we had made love last night.

"Papa loves you two...Papa promises to not only protect your mumma, but also you two. I promise to protect you both and ensure you are loved and receive the happiness that you have a right to. Papa will do everything to make you both feel loved..." Tears grazing against his eyes as his fingers brushed lightly against my womb making me tremble.

This is the first time he has touched my womb...felt their gentle beats...their fragile life that they hold together...the prayers they sing in my womb to the divine telling the divine to allow them to escape the darkness of my womb and see the light.

I could tell a father's love now is beating through his heart with realization how fatherhood is about to touch him again now for two little ones. No matter how he has been in the past...one thing I know is that he is the best father that any child would want.

"Papa loves you two. Now you two be good today...mumma is going to be a bride and she needs you two to be on your good behavior...hm meri jaan?" He whispered to the two little ones trying to reprimand them for their bad behavior they had indulged in the last two weeks through their refusal to feed on the food I had consumed for them.

A smile now glowing up to my face with a giggle escaping from me before I felt his lips mold at the edge of my navel making me heave.

"Enough of teasing mumma...only Papa can do that. Now you two better behave especially until...after the wedding...night...meaning tomorrow morning..." He ordered them with my eyes bolting up finding a playful smile.

Different shades of red immediately slapping themselves across my cheeks with a smile now waving through my lips not wanting to go away realizing he had intentions of loving me again tonight.

His fingers wrapping around the folds of the saree while he kept his blue hues upon my blushing smile finding himself captivated by it. "Remember...you taught me how to drape a saree?"

Pursing my lips, I felt my smile deepening and becoming coy as he reminded me how

how I had taught him...it was another romantic tryst we had on our honeymoon. I had taught him how to drape it as a means to seduce him.

One by one, he gathered the pleats of the saree and began to press them into the borders of my waist making a rush of warmth touch it suddenly finding rose petals dripping into liquids down my navel and into my blooming flower. My eyes closing shut with my hands lifting into his waves while he began to brush his lips against my navel wanting to tempt it knowing that was where pleasure hit me.

His hands continuing to press firmly against my waist while he continued to work on the seams of my saree gathering them and pleating them slowly...finding delight in the small tease he was indulging in. Suddenly, his blazing tongue plunged into the dips of my waist making me gasp as he now began to relish upon my waist leaving tender, rugged kisses. Collapsing his hands down my hips, he held me while continuing to devour on the virgin fruits of my flesh which had ripened for years only for him. Increasing the pace his lips, his lips began to clumsingly drag and fall on my navel before soaring up the dips of my midriff. His teeth sinking in and taking bites of my skin.

"Shivaay...oh my gosh..." A loud moan erupting from me with his hands dragging up to the petals of my chest where my blouse barely held itself.

Ripping my fingers through the bare skin of his chest, I pulled his closer while he continued to ravish upon the dips of my cleavage with his lips merging on the heated folds of my chest slowly tempting it. Diving his fingers underneath my blouse, his fingers drummed on my rose petals with his lips now running to the nape of my neck which he began to layer with tormenting, devoted kisses that were leading rivers of pleasure now falling down my navel and into my flower where I can to feel smooth, milky liquid seep through.

My hands wrapping around his waist wanting to hold my ground that was slipping away with my legs beginning to weaken.

"Thank you for allowing me to dress you as my bride..." He whispered against my neck before I felt the drape of my saree lifting up slowly making its way up to my shoulder where he pinned it.

His fingers wrapping around my neck pulling me closer with his lips swallowing the red shades of my cheeks finding sweetness in their dull flavor. "When you blush like this...the way you lower your gaze with shyness...you make my heart beat a million beats a second...this shyness of yours' gives such innocence...such naiveness makes me go crazy...makes me want to lay my love upon you day and night..." His voice holding seduction wanting to trace our way back to the bed behind us.

Leaning closer, he trailed his fingers down my waist before turning me in an instant. His fingers taking a sudden tug of my dori as he pulled me against his chest before beginning to play with the strings slowly crossing them before knotting them one by one taking his sweet time.

His heated hands plunging down my bare back in an instant making me whimper with my teeth biting into my lips finding desires now cracking through the surface of my heart igniting flames of lust that I wanted to use to light powders of ecstasy.

His lips entrapping the folds of my spine where he began to lay fevorous kisses up the corners of my neck before diving to the curves of my hips. Gentle kisses shifting into feverish bites which he criss crossed down the tones of my back before rising up and firing the thunders of my skin.

"This strong back of yours'...is your ornament as it never shakes no matter what burden it has to bear. No matter what hardship...no matter what pain or suffering...you never let yourself fall. Your silence is your strength which many see as a weakness, but it is not. The way you continue to work and provide for your family not once shaking to the way they have laid their ugly fingers upon you...the way you love each and every person selflessly no matter how they treat you...Your ornament is this selfless love you have nurtured within yourself...this selfless love that keeps your head held high allowing your back to carry your burden..." His words stringing the tunes of love within me as his lips took hold of my shoulder before his fingers began to sweep across my back wrapping themselves around my waist pulling me against his chest.

"S-Shivaay...do not admire me this much...I am not worthy of this. Please..." I whispered feeling tears skim down my cheeks feeling burdened with the love that he was now showering upon me...a love that has rarely been felt before.

Shivaay sighing as he leaned over grabbing the wooden box and appearing to grasp on to something. His lips dragging through my cheek as he laid a tender kiss before pulling themselves down near my neck.

Taking hold of my wrist, he laid a firm, compassionate kiss upon it before slipping a cold bangle down it. My eyes widening seeing the diamond mixed with rubies sliding down my wrist. "N-no! What is this?! I cannot take this Shivaay!" I exclaimed trying to pull off the bangle before he took a grasp of it turning me towards him in an instant.

"Do not ever dare to say you are not worthy. You are worthy of being cared for...being treasured...and being loved. You are my life Anika. You are my soul...If something ever happens to me then I know you will live through me and my memories-"

"Shivaay!" My hand immediately clasping across his lips as I looked into his eyes not being able to bear those lines...fear suddenly hitting and daggering across my heart finding it ripped apart not able to believe what he had just spoken...the dark looms of death suddenly dancing within my heart reminding it of the day that we will part...death.

Tears rifting out of my heart as I looked into his eyes that appeared to hold back a set of tears revealing a layer of mystery to them. "N-no! Never! Don't you dare say such words Shivaay! Do you understand?! Shivaay...I cannot live without you! Oh my God...never. I can never even think about living another day knowing that you are not here...No!" Screams suddenly erupting from me before I pulled him into an embrace.

"A-Anika...I was just..."

"No! Don't you ever even talk about this subject! Do you understand?! We shall now never part! You are my soulmate...you are my one and true love...and right now I-I a-am h-having d-difficulty in fully loving you, but that does not mean that I will never love you. You are my life! Do you understand? I cannot think of a day living without you...I-I c-cannot...I want to spend my entire life with you...I want to build my dreams with you in which you will be a part of. I have prayed for years to have you back and divine has returned you back to me...now no one can separate us. Fate has united us Shivaay...and now we will use this blessing to build our family...build our marriage...and build our love..." My hand pressing firmly against his lips trying to hold back the ominous words he was willing to speak upon our wedding day.

Enveloping his palms across my cheeks, he lifted my lips up that were now trembling in fear not able to even come across the thought of the moment we will part in this lifetime. Our eyes capturing one another holding that wrangling, aching pain of separation we both have buried ourselves within for years...and to think of such separation once again due to death is unbearable.

"Anika it is the truth...one day we will part due to death. One day we will meet our end and pass over to the other side. Our love will be for an eternity, but still...this is our reality....and now before we meet our end...I want to live each and every moment with you. I do not want to fight anymore...I just want love. I want to make you my empress and give you each and everything you deserve. I want to build your strength and make you a strong woman. I want to fulfill each and every dream and hope of yours'...I want to build a beautiful family with you...I want to spend every moment treasuring your beauty...building your honor that I myself reckoned...and I want to spend every moment loving you..." His words hitting a pause before he captured my lips pulling them into a passionate kiss.

Our lips collapsing and tugging before opening and letting one another to zest upon each other's sweetness while touching bitterness from our past. His hands raveling into my hair before pulling me closer continuing to cadence our lips together while we began to slow the kiss wanting to consume every ripe fruit of love we had borne for one another all these years. Our lips not letting go, but continuing to increase their rhythm building our own harmony while we continued to thread our love holding on to our kiss as if it was our last...as if once we let go then we will part forever.

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Wedding Update next and will be hopefully made later and soon :) Anika and Chaaya uniting in Chapter 39 :)

I promise to reply to Chapter 37 comments over the weekend :) I always reply to all comments so rest assured I do hope to reply to all of your comments and feedback :)

Okay I tried my best with edits but details at reply as this book is written as a screenplay not a novel but a screenplay for details are essential for such reasons. I will do more grammar edits tomorrow :)

Thank you for reading :)
If this chapter was boring then I am so so sorry but this is all I could update with some courage. The main thing of this chapter is to focus on Shivaay's mystery track and Shivika's lighter moments :)

Please, please read Shivaay's point of view because this chapter has set his mystery track and this track will drive Shivika's marriage. His track I think is big so please read his pout of view because there is more to his story and he is not what he seems to be...He is not that bad as he appears on the surface...

Let me know what you think of his bathroom scene and the pills he took...

Is Shivaay sick? Is he dying...? What mystery does he have?

Friendly Clarification: Yes, I do repeat words, but I do it on purpose for poetic matters only :)

Are updates long?-Yes I am giving long updates and please take your time reading them because updates are very slow right now just because I need some time to write the wedding track :) So, I am giving the sub updates as one big update that you can read anytime you like in one place :)

Is the story moving slow?-Yes

Am I moving the story slow on purpose?-Yes because all these chapters were supposed to be released as part of the wedding special on consecutive days for a weekend due to issues that I have faced I now am releasing them slowly instead of consecutively.

I am just feeling awfully low and my confidence is crashing pretty badly, so I am working on the wedding chapters, but I am so scared of publishing them because I feel like they are boring and I am not doing full justice to them, so that is why I have delayed posting them.

I feel like readers are going to be so bored and disappointed, so I am not publishing them and not ready as of yet :( I am so so sorry. I really want to publish them, but just seeing the negative light the story has gotten recently, I am so scared to publishing any new chapters because I am scared that this story will come under more negative light, so I am so sorry :(

Honestly, the wedding track is a crucial turning point in the story, so it is taking me time to write it and I want to do full justice to it.

I am just scared of publishing new chapters to be honest and just scared of judgement on what will happen :(

Everyone wants Anika and Chaaya's reunion and I am working on it which is why the delay is in place as I want to do full justice to their reunion :) I am so sorry and thank you for your patience and thank you for understanding:)

Thank you for reading and if you like this chapter then please do vote, comment, and share :)

Wedding Update next and will be hopefully made later and soon :) Anika and Chaaya uniting in Chapter 39 :)

Ciao!

-Jasmine