By Liv

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I'd grown up saying that I would like who I liked regardless of their appearance - that all that mattered to me was their personality. I didn't exactly realize what this meant until I went to camp. My third year there, I met up again with my best friend who lived all the way across the country from me. She was this amazing, quirky person who understood me and my awkwardness, and I knew what I was feeling for her was more than just a friendly thing.

When I went home, I thought about her a lot. I thought about if it was possible that I liked her. It scared me a little - I'd only ever really had serious crushes on boys. So I started looking at girls differently, and I found that I liked looking at them and thinking about them more than my straight friends.

And then there was one of my friends that I got really close to. One night, after I admitted to myself that I was bi (after months of pondering and researching just what it meant), I texted her. Long story short, we went out for a good three days(?) before I realized that I didn't like her like that anymore (I'd liked her earlier in the year but convinced myself it wouldn't happen. Oh, and I came out to my parents by saying I was dating a girl, lol.) But I did like girls. I was still caught up on my friend from camp.

Then, when I arrived at camp the next year, I felt different. My friend and I talked about relationships and I came out to her. I got the feeling that she liked me too. Though nothing ended up happening there, (there are prospects...hopefully), I got the chance to find myself.

Oh, and I just want to make clear to anyone else wondering: being bi isn't a 50-50 thing all the time. Personally, it's easier for me to crush on a guy, but that doesn't mean I'm not bi. (Sorry, I was just really caught up on that as a reason to why I thought I wasn't bi and figured it might help others.)

THANKS for reading my story!