A Hole in My Heart

There's a hole in my heart, I'm hurting
With no particular reason but I'm breaking
It's so painful, I'm losing my mind
I think I'll be left behind.

Static, that's how my life is
Stuck in this hell-hole madness
Stoic, forbearing, patient
I'm just so confused, I remain lenient.

But the chaos inside is consuming
Like a leech slowly sucking
Not my blood but my sanity
Leaving noting but irrationality.

Too afraid to make a choice
Too scared to sound a voice
Tip-toeing since the day I was born
Now I can't walk on my own.

I know this is my borrowed life
But I'm already too tired to fight
The loneliness I trapped inside
The hideous woman I forced to hide.

But my reflection says it all
The ugly girl who always fall
On her knees for attention
There's just too much dejection.

There's a hole in my heart, I'm hurting
Because I can't love myself, I'm breaking
It's too painful, I'm losing my mind
Please don't leave me behind.

-sdjm
11:50 p.m.
01Aug2017