Too much.

Too much alcohol. I've never drank before but I already know that I've drank way too much.

And Raph has never looked so sexy before. His full lips moving so slow for some reason. His eyes are red yet beautiful. Its such a nice blend of red and green.

Hehe. Christmas colors.

"Fuck the world man," he mumbles. "Shit where did my thumb go?"

"You dumbass," I hiss and put down my bottle.

Raph's eyes widen and he bursts out laughing. "You cussed."

"Why so surprised?"

"I-I don't know. Boo! Did I surprise you?"

My reaction is late but I laugh and nod. "You sure did."

But no matter how much I've been drinking, Karai's voice replays in my head. All the anger that I've been keeping inside me was let out earlier when I broke all the empty glasses. Raph helped me, not knowing the reason why.

"So why are you drunk cutie?" I ask, the nickname slipping out of my mouth like a waterfall. I giggle at how juvenile it sounds.

"Cause I'm shit," he says simply. "Did you just call me a cutie?"

"No homo," I say quickly and we both laugh.

"I've never received a blow job before," he blurts out.

"Mmm," I mumble. My brain is so slow at comprehending what he just said.

"I'm so surprised nobody has fucked you," I whisper.

"Don't flatter yourself," he snaps.

"I would so do it," I say and without thinking, I sit on his lap and cup his face. "I would so do it."

"What the fuck.."

I can't stop. I kiss him with such eargerness and force that my lips grow numb.

And then it hits me. How drunk I am and the actions I am taking. I am drunk and kissing Raph and...

And oh my gosh.

I'm kissing-

I pull away quickly and run out of his house in a flash. This time I let the tears escape my eyes.

Holy shit. I just ruined everything.

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Such a short yet intense chapter oops O.O