Hello again.

So the past few weeks have been rough. I don't really like talking about things like this, but it's something that I feel like needs to happen, so I will.

So, to start, I've been having very frequent panic attacks and it's gotten to the point where I'm constantly afraid of having another one. My depression has been out of control, and I don't know what it is.

To let you know, I have gotten help, and I'm visiting a therapist and taking meds, so that's helped. I haven't come out to my parents, but that's kind of taken a seat on the back burner, because more important things have come up.

I don't know. Lately I've just been feeling very detached and uncomfortable with myself, and I don't know what it is. Looking at myself makes me antsy and I don't want to talk to people about it because it's kind of a scary thing to discuss.

I don't know, maybe someone can help me with that.

So, a quick thing, my girlfriend and I have split up, but it's not out of anything negative. She's moving pretty far away, and I'm not in a good enough emotional state to handle a long distance kind of thing, so we both agreed it would be best if we both take a step back.

I mean, I'm really upset, but I know it'll be alright and that it's fine.

So, in conclusion, I'm not doing well, but I'm getting better.