This is a lil bit sad.
I'll be sad today and go back to normal by tmr. Hope so.

I hate myself for literally did nothing the whole day but only at night.
I hate crowded places, and noisy people.
I hate people who go to a coffee shop - which was meant for people to study and to work - playing cards and screaming and shouting.
I hate strangers, whom I got to share the table with because the shop was to crowded and it was pouring rain outside, nagging nonstop to their friends.
Why are they all talking too much?

I don't know if I'm an introvert, but I love to stay in my room the whole day.
I can't put up going somewhere without accompany.
But it's a must.
So I must.

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Tbh, I'm not even the official leader of the group. There's no leader mentioned.
Then why am I the one who cover it all?
Because if I don't, who will?
Because if I don't, no one will.
Because it's a must.
And I must.

Being this unofficial leader bring me no good.
Can I do less the work than other members?
Does anyone compliment me for covering the work?
When the score given do I receive more point?
When there're mistakes who takes the responsibility?

I've always saying "Thank you", thankful that my group mates finish their part.
When I finished my part, what do I receive?
When I finished the whole group's work, did the others feel grateful?
Or is it another must?
And I must?

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When I say something, they say something.
When I say something, they say nothing.
When I say nothing, they say nothing.
So I must say something, then hope that at least they would say something.
Oh, so it's a must.

When I ask for a judgement from the others, they can left in the middle bc they didn't have enough sleep last night.
Cool, can I do that too?
No.
Why? Because it's a must?
No.
Then why?
Cause I can't.

The unofficial leader had to go in the rain and get to somewhere that has WiFi cause her mobile data sucks.
The unofficial leader had to spend time editing their group's work and send it.
The unofficial leader had to ask for the member's opinion.
The members can take a look, or not.
The members can reply, or not.
Maybe because they're busy studying for the exam this weekend.
The exam this weekend, right. Can the unofficial leader ignore the group's work and busy study for the exam only too?
No.
Why?
Cause the unofficial leader can't.