Xian's POV

I have never seen Jun sleep. He sleeps after I go to bed and wakes up before dawn. I, on the other hand, love to sleep. So imagine my surprise, when I wake up, and find Jun not only fast asleep, but fast asleep on top of me.

Ecstasy.

His body doesn't seem so cold anymore.

"Jun," I whisper. He doesn't move. A sudden illogical fear enters me, and I press my thumb to his wrist.

I feel his veins throbbing under the gentle press of my thump, and relief floods me. It still puzzles me though, Jun sleeping so peacefully in my arms.

Today is day one. I need to make the most of it. The way Jun's body is plastered to mine sets my heart racing, yet I have never felt so calm. His arm is resting on my chest right over my heart, and his face is buried in the crook of my neck.

I tilt my head, trying to catch a glimpse of his resting face when I feel warm lips brushing the nape of my neck.

Is he already awake? Is this where he realizes how close he has let himself get to me? Is this where he pushes me away to seek the cold sheets of his bed?

"Jun?" I whisper again and try to move.

"Ummm..." He hums, and his fingers fist my shirt, pulling me closer.

Is he dreaming? What is he dreaming about? Who is he dreaming about?

With great difficulty, I will my sleepy, numb arm to move and drape it over Jun's shoulder.

He hums again, and his lips brush the nape of my neck. I feel a slight throbbing pain where I had just felt Jun's lips, and I touch it.

"Isssss!" I wince. My skin is swollen, and tender. It's a Hickey!

My already racing heart starts to thump wildly.

Did Jun do this?

Why didn't I wake up!?

But what's happened has happened, I can't change it now. It's time to make new memories...now. I decide to risk it, and cup Jun's face.

He hums his approval, and I decide to misbehave a little. I tilt my head towards his face, making sure that it presses against his lips.

Holding my breath, I wait. And a second later it happens.

Jun's hand moves to the nape of my neck, and his mouth latches on to the side of it.

I low moan leaves my chest when he sucks hard. Instinctively, I pull him closer and close my eyes.

Bliss.

His fingers worm themselves in my hair and he tugs at my strands.

"Jun!" I moan softly as the waves of pleasure that hit me. I bit my lips almost drawing blood to stop myself from cumming.

I shouldn't... not yet... it's too soon.

Then, just like he had started, he stops. It's abrupt.

I hear him gasp and know that he is awake.

Why did you have to wake up now, Jun?

I close my eyes and try to calm my heart.

I think of Qing, and it does the trick.

Jun moves and my hand slides down his shoulder. His fingers tremble and retreat from my scalp. I expect him to leave the bed, but he doesn't. He stills, and I can feel him hover over me.

What are you looking at, Jun?

A drop of water lands on the corner of my lips, and my heart breaks. I feel his warm breath on the nape of my neck, and then cool air hits the sensitive area. A second drop of water falls on the side of my neck, and rolls into the pillow.

He is blowing on the hickey. He is crying.

"I am sorry, " He mumbles, caressing my cheek. "How will I explain this?" he questions himself regretfully, as another drop of water falls on my cheek.

He gasps again. It looks like he finally realized that he is crying. He wipes the drop of tear but instead of pulling his hand away, his fingers brush my lips, tracing them.

My heart almost betrays me but I manage to reign in my thoughts once again.

I feel his fingers on my jaw, and a second later he speaks, "Forgive me, Meimei."

And then he leaves my side. Leaving me on my bed, all alone.

I leave a breath I didn't know I was holding, and sigh. Should I have told him that he did nothing wrong? It was after all my wish for him to sleep with me. After much deliberation, I decided against it.

After freshening up, I decide to make breakfast just as I had done the day before, and go to the kitchen. Jun though, is nowhere to be seen.

I wander to his room and find him sitting on the bed with his head between his hands.

"Jun?" I call, and he jerks his head up, "Xian, how are you feeling today?" He enquires. He looks worried; he sounds scared.

"I am fine, Jun. Look." I answer, walking closer.

He stands up and steps away. "Ah, yes. Good. Let's go out for breakfast." He announces without making eye contact.

"Jun?"

"Yes?"

"What is wrong?" I ask when he continues to avoid looking at me.

"Nothing. Let's go." He blurts and walks out of the room.

I follow close behind, and a few minutes later we are at the Original's cake shop.

I look at Jun questioningly. This is not our usual breakfast place.

He blinks as if realizing that he had driven us to the wrong food joint and stutters, "I.. Happy birthday."

"Jun, that was yesterday." I remind him, and he clears his throat, "Yes, I know. Since I messed up the cake, and made you clean the mess... I.. You...you.. can have sweets for breakfast."

Does he think bringing me to my favorite cake shop will please me!?

Yes, it pleases me, Jun... But not in the way I want to be pleased... Kiss me, my love, and I will be pleased.

I shake my head disapprovingly but place my order nonetheless.

"Make that two," Jun adds, and follows me to my favorite spot in the shop.

What follows is an awkward, uncomfortable silence, till the waitress arrives and puts two servings of apple crumble pies in front of us.

"Thank you, Rosna." I chirp, and the girl with black shoulder-length hair with striking red streaks, smiles.

"Enjoy." She says, ruffling my hair.

"How is your mother doing now?" Jun enquires, and the girl's smile widens, "She has recovered, Gege."

"I am glad. Give her our regards."

"I will. Thank you, Gege." Rosna gushes, and with a crisp nod, leaves to tend to other customers.

Once Rosna leaves, we once again fall into an uncomfortable silence.

He starts devouring his pie like a starving man, only to pause at the last bite. He looks up licking his lips, our eyes meet. Color rises to his cheeks, and he looks away.

Timorous...Trepidatious...Mine.

I finish my pie and try to catch Jun's eyes, but he has his eyes fixed on the crumbs of deliciousness that cling to his plate.

I gather my courage and start in an almost calm voice, "Jun,"

His eyes snap up and meet mine for a split second, and he rises to his feet.

Not so fast!

I hold his wrist and pull him down. "No, not yet."

"Are you still hungry?"

Yes. Always.

"Is there something else you want to have?"

Yes. You.

When I keep looking at him without answering, he gulps and looks away.

"Jun, please tell me what's the matter? Are you upset with me?"

"Let's go home." He pleads.

"Will you answer me when we get back?" I question, and he agrees.

As soon as we are home, I hold his wrist, "Tell me."

His body stiffens, and his eyes lower to the floor, "I am sorry." he mutters under his breath.

"Mn?"

"I am sorry for... that." He says, pointing at the hickey.

My fingers subconsciously move to it and I wince at the tender ache when my fingers brush against it.

Jun's brows knit, "I am sorry. I didn't mean to." He bleats, and turns away. "I don't think it's safe for you... "

"No!" I exclaim, "It's fine...I mean, I don't mind."

Jun turns, "What!?"

'Fuck! Wrong choice of words.' I chuckle, "I mean, it just happened, right? You didn't mean for it to happen, right? It's not like you wanted to do that to me, right?"

As I continue to speak, I notice Jun turning red.

Why?

'Was he perhaps, thinking of me when he did that?' I wonder, rubbing the back of my neck, and he parts his lips. With his eyes glued to my neck, he walks closer.

"Does it hurt a lot?" He asks. His fingers make contact with the tender skin, and I wince.

There is regret written all over his face.

I was wrong, I guess. He was just feeling guilty.

I sigh.

He tries to pull his hand away, but I hold it, "Jun, if I tell you that it hurts, will you kiss it better for me?" I smirk, and he blinks.

"Xian!" He bites out and jerks his hand away.

"Xian what, Jun?" I challenge, and I can see the tips of his ears turn red.

Are you feeling shy, Jun?

"Jun, I have decided upon my first wish." I inform, and he takes a deep breath as if preparing himself for battle.

"Tell me."

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